I have taken a lot of time to digest this episode. I may not talk about it much, but I'll go on record as saying that DS9 is probably the most foundational property of my youth. Growing up, my father was a very mean man, who took out his anger on me. What I didn't have in real life, I had in Benjamin Sisko. Some of my few moments of agency as a child were watching DS9, and sitting at my little desk pretending to be Sisko writing station reports and acting out scenarios. Years later this would evolve into a very deep love of all Trek, not just DS9.
I began writing poetry, yelling out into the void my emotions from all the abuse I suffered. I listened to more music that I wanted to. When I finally started a re-watch in 2020, I started to realize the connections that were made in my youth and how they manifested. I realized all that I had taken in my youth, and hidden it away, deep inside me so it wouldn't be hurt. When I started to re-watch DS9, that capsule was unlocked and all the small connections, my love of cooking, baseball, poetry, hell even lounge jazz were connected back to this show. My deepest held values on equality, kindness, compassion, self understanding, all stemmed from my escapism as a child.
Ben Sisko, and by extension Avery Brooks, stepped up for me where my father wouldn't, or couldn't, and gave me the lessons I needed for adulthood. He taught me to stand up for myself, and others, with a fire unlike any other. He taught me to value life, difference, and justice. He showed me what it means to be a good Father, and a good partner. He taught me to love everyone in my own self-made, ragtag, actually loving family, full-throated and with a forkfull of good food.
For a scared, mixed-race kid, he meant more to me at the time than I think I could possibly comprehend until I was much older. I have always wanted to live up to Ben Sisko's, and Avery Brook's, example.
This episode had me in tears through probably 50% of it, and the other 50% was me excitedly pointing out how SAM was subtly following in Sisko's footsteps, perhaps not in the way she wanted, but in the way she needed, or laughing at the inanity of Nahla trying to troll-help Kelrec. I 100% believe the Doctor was partially behind that, he must not like Kelrec very much either lol. My wife is fairly new to Star Trek, and to prep, we watched Trials and Tribbleations and Take me out to the Holosuite, and both were the perfect set up for this episode. I love the quirky intro with SAM, showing how she percieves the world, and how she's basically metabolizing years of culture and trying out different things to see if they fit.
Cirroc's parts were truly beautiful and moving, and easily the highlight of the episode. I was not expecting to see him come back, but I am so glad that he did. My personal interpretation of what Jake said was that Ben both did and didn't come back. He exists out of time, so the same Ben that would be watching over SAM could in the next moment go back to Bajor and his family. The two aren't mutually exclusive, and to me, Jake's words were meant to imply that Ben did come back in some capacity, even if the very act of him coming back isn't truly him "returning" because he's outside of time. He could, and probably did, live out a quiet life with his family on Bajor. I think this is also why the family tree seems to be incomplete, now that we know Dax had Anslem this entire time, it's entirely possible she knew Ben came back and worked to keep that as secret as possible, up to and including altering records as needed. There's no way the Siskos get any peace with knowledge that the Emissary is back out there, people will bother them, so it makes sense for it to be kept extremely quiet. I'm pretty sure the only ones who would even know he's back would be his closest crewmates.
I'm also of the mind that Jake's visit wasn't just a reconstruction via SAM. He closed the book, and physically interacted with her. The lighting also had a very Porphet-y feel to it. Part of me wants to believe that it was just SAM, but a large part of me also very much believes that Jake actually visited her. I think Dax's line about knowing how to use the book backs this up.
I was taken completely out of left field by the Dax reveal, though, to the point I nearly shot out of my seat and yelled "SHE'S A DAX!". Her appearing to be a Cardassian threw me off, I thought she was a descendant of Garak or Dukat, or perhaps just a random Cardassian who's WAY to into history and historical figures. Yes, even the mannerisms and beets didn't tip me off!
I'm sorta happy for that though, because it lead into the wonderful voiceover by Avery, and the credits with that beautiful theme from DS9. I don't think I stopped crying from the time Jake's part started, to the end of the credits.
Simply put, this episode was a masterclass in how to do Tribute TV. Hit every beat pretty much dead on for me.
If the last episode was rounded up from a 9.6 to 10, this episode is the first of the season to get a "true 10" from me. For me, there is only one or two things that fell flat, and those aren't enough to detract from the 10.