Before: Dread. But this is something I feel before
any new
Star Trek series. Always have. I always think it's going to be terrible based on production reports and other news that leaks out about it. Producers always try to sell it as "not your daddy's
Star Trek," but my daddy's
Star Trek is literally the thing I fell in love with and the reason I'm here. Drives me insane. I was especially down on ENT, because I believed very strongly in 2001 that prequels were stupid, and I was even arguing with playground friends that ENT wasn't canon because it didn't have "Star Trek" in the title. (This was before the series premiere, mind you!)
With DS9, VOY, and ENT, they won me over by the end of the pilot episode. They all had their own unique take on things, but they were all something I recognized as
Star Trek. I reminded myself of that
often in the months before
Discovery, and really tried to push myself into cautious optimism, especially with Fuller, Meyer, Menosky, and Beyer all putting their stamps on it.
After:
...so, I guess, my "after" is bitter and upset.
Currently, I am trying to talk myself into being optimistic about Season 2 or maybe Season 3, since so many other Treks improved so much in their later seasons. But I've also decided not to watch Season 2 live. I'll wait for a free weekend after it airs. Hopefully I'll be less upset about it disappointing me if I'm not paying $6/month for it.