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My last post dealt mainly with checking someone out.... in regards to someone "Lusting" after me?
I imagine it's possible, but I have no solid evidence to confirm any paticular person desired me in such a way. I wasn't told I was attractive in any sense of the term until I was about 21 or so..... so 20 years of my life, half of that wearing glasses, bushy red hair, crappy clothes and an out cast in school, it was already ingrained into my head that I wasn't attractive, thus I never evolved an ability to observe these things, let alone get involved in them until my 20's.
But the girl I went to school with who told me I was "Really Hot" was also piss loaded drunk at a house party with some old friends and it didn't go much further then that.... mainly because I was never told that before and I didn't know how to actually respond to such a statement.... nor did I know if she was implying she wanted me in a sexual manner, or just wanted to say it just for the sake of saying it.
There was another lady I worked in photography with who I thought was quite attractive, good sense of humor and we got along well..... she did do a crap load of flirting now that I think of it, and tossed out more hints then a Japanese Game Show host, however I was already fresh into a new relationship as well, and I wasn't about to toss out my current relationship for another relationship when the girl I was with at the time didn't do anything to diserve to be treated in such a way, so that was as far as that went. In another time and another place, sure I'd give it a shot, but I have principles I maintain for myself and cheating on someone I am in a relationship with is one of those things I don't do. That sort of thing brings way too many complications to one's life for such a trivial trisk that I have no interest in dealing with. Just not worth the long term hassels.
Sure, she attempted to get me to break up my relationship, said I could do better, and all that jazz...... looking back, I could have done better (and eventually did) but it wasn't with her and eventually she moved out west, got married and had some kids...... good for her.
It wasn't until these two paticular situations that I decided to actually ponder what level of attractiveness I actually am. I never cared much before because I just knew I was ugly as Satan's arse pucker...... but I have my hair all managed, I dress a lot better, no more glasses, 6'-6" tall, I'm told I'm quite the Charmer, and all that stuff...... anyways, apparently I was an ugly duckling and now I'm hot.... go figure that for a mind trip for half your life. I think the turning point was when in my early 20's, I was bored and figured I'd toss my pic up there on HotorNot and see exactly what people actually think of my physical appearance since I never knew or bothered to know before.
Turns out I'm a 9.4 out of 10..... not too shabby I guess.
Since then, upon reflection, I guess I do remember situations where I seen girls looking my way then quickly looking away..... I just assumed there was something on my face or I was freaking them out for some reason.
But in direct speaking, No, there was nobody in my life that I can ever remember who said flat out that they were sexually attracted to me...... everything I encountered was mostly all your typical little games people play to act like they're interested, but not.
A real pain in the arse if you ask me. Good thing I'm out of that racket and got married :P
Now all the girls can check my ass out all they want, or watch my package area sway as I walk, or whatever they do these days..... it won't make a difference and they'll get about as far as their imagination with things...... it matters not to me.
