Fuck I am pissed off at everything right now. I just came out of a meeting with our HR director.
Yesterday, my boss said "When you have the time, go up and see HR. There's a library job opening up and you may want it, because I'm leaving in April and this position is going away." **(This was the sum total of the conversation. The most we;ve spoken in two weeks. That'll be important in a minute.)
Fast Forward to 20 minutes ago:
Seems my boss (of the last couple of months) went to him with "concerns" about my ability to do some of the things in my job description. Now, in the couple of months I've been working here, I've done ALL my survey work as usual. My boss has given me TWO work assignments outside of that, which I completed to the best of my ability given the parameters that he set.
My total feedback from assignment 1: "Thanks."
My feedback from assignment 2? DEAD FUCKING SILENCE.
This man's office is NEXT to me. He literally passes me every time he walks out his door.
Has he come to me with problems/concerns/suggestions/clarifications with my work? No.
Has he called me into his office for anything outside of giving those initial assignments to me? No.
Has he had a GODDAMN CONVERSATION with me outside of perfunctory "good mornings" in the last two months? NO.
He walks into his office, and closes the door. He has people come in. He has meetings he sets up with his GA. I haven't been invited to anything since one meeting in September. I am COMPLETELY out of the loop.
You couldn't fucking TALK TO ME before going to HR?
Now yeah, part of this is certainly my fault. I'm not an interrupter (can't stand interruptions, myself, don't like to do it to other people). In the real world, I am non-confrontational to the point of avoidance. I've FELT underutilized and out-of-sorts with this situation for WEEKS, and I've been trying to drum up the 'courage' to have the conversation with him that I just had with HR. Just to sit down in his office and say "Listen, I feel we're not communicating well, here. What do we need to do to make this a workable job relationship?" So I blame myself for taking too long and allowing things to get to this point, but GEEZ, it takes two to fail to communicate. Sir.
Great way to start Thanksgiving break, thanks for that, too.
ETA: Yeah, now I’m having that good old “my world is collapsing” anxiety attack thing. Wonderful.