”Kirk had to die – why? I asked the Producers. They gave me all kinds of answers none of which made sense to me – but then I was prejudiced. How to die – that was the question – shot in the back was what the script called for – What? No Tympanys? No bugles? – No, shot in the back. How do any of us die – in panic? Our body remorsfully trying to stay alive – sucking in a ragged breath – silently screaming not yet not yet. I don’t know how it’s going to go with me but for Kirk I wanted him to go with dignity. Actually I wanted him to go with awe and wonder. Yes I had played those emotions time and time again in the series and in the movies. I thought I could play that when he passed – and so I did. I added a ‘Oh my’ at the end as he saw death approach – what does death look like? Some grotesque alien or some benign God. Maybe it’s a grotesque God or on the other hand it might be a benign alien – Kirk saw it – looked on with Awe and wonder and expired."
