So since this new format I may have seemed very bitchy without meaning too but I am so taken back by trying to navigate and learn the new rules that I am becoming abnormally frustrated where I know I shouldn't be. Additionally stuff (I'll explain later) that has been happening around me has cause me to act way more aggressive than you all know me to act. (if you've been with me since I joined a yer or more ago) so apologies there to all I have been snappy towards. *hugs *kisses *yes may virtually slap me for being grouchy.
***Okay now to the (unfortunately) update part, which will hopefully explain my abnormal attitude that I don't normally have.
As many of you with me for any amount of time know, I suffer from very bad depression, anxiety, and insomnia (that last one is new and you"ll learn why) my whole life but got treated [after 10 years] recently and that treatment led me here to a site of people who share my interests. Since then you all may have noticed I felt MUCH better, and a lot I owe to you all
.....Unfortunately (if you haven't noticed) I went dark for many MANY months on here and I apologize for that too because as my last post before vanishing this second time (for another many months) was about my terrible terrible assault incident, I have had sad news in that department. After explaining my first outage I explained it was due to my violent assault I suffered and how I just wanted to move on, well that did not happen. after that last post 6+ months ago a lot more has happened causing me to reach total seclusion.
First I had intentions of staying in Reno area and pretending it didn't happen, assuming it would fade and no rumors would be spread....well that was not the case. almost immediately after that post I went dark again...(up until this week) for several moths longer. Well I shall explain why, and maybe, hopefully (while its no excuse to be bitch on my end or take stuff so personal) you shall forgive my bitchy attitude I have had........SO right after that post the rumors started flying and people stared calling it "cheating" rather then felony rape. it got so bad that my ex decided he'd get even by sleeping with a girl I used to call my friend. that was my last straw and i couldn't take the rumors so I was convinced I should move far far away. Which I did, I am now in FL. during the whole process I had to deal with harassment I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. so after the move across the country I then had to decide what we were going to do about the criminal because he hired a really good (*cough* *cough* evil) lawyer who made me the Target so he could walk free and not do 50 years in jail.
so since then I have moved to an entirely different part of the U.S and tried to live a normal life....again
Well that didn't work. every question I was asked that would have required me to tell my story, so i would Iie about it for my protection. so now everyone thinks I'm a liar (for the bad reasons) so I went back into complete isolation for a while. Then only recently did I find out he will likely only relieve 3-6 month in jail vs the 30-60 years for the felony assault, lately I have been unmotivated. Still trying to fix that
FEEL FREE to move this thread to a more accurate local if needed. Ps my keyboard is broken so excuse any strange mistakes I had to retype a lot of it on my phone
***Okay now to the (unfortunately) update part, which will hopefully explain my abnormal attitude that I don't normally have.
As many of you with me for any amount of time know, I suffer from very bad depression, anxiety, and insomnia (that last one is new and you"ll learn why) my whole life but got treated [after 10 years] recently and that treatment led me here to a site of people who share my interests. Since then you all may have noticed I felt MUCH better, and a lot I owe to you all
.....Unfortunately (if you haven't noticed) I went dark for many MANY months on here and I apologize for that too because as my last post before vanishing this second time (for another many months) was about my terrible terrible assault incident, I have had sad news in that department. After explaining my first outage I explained it was due to my violent assault I suffered and how I just wanted to move on, well that did not happen. after that last post 6+ months ago a lot more has happened causing me to reach total seclusion.First I had intentions of staying in Reno area and pretending it didn't happen, assuming it would fade and no rumors would be spread....well that was not the case. almost immediately after that post I went dark again...(up until this week) for several moths longer. Well I shall explain why, and maybe, hopefully (while its no excuse to be bitch on my end or take stuff so personal) you shall forgive my bitchy attitude I have had........SO right after that post the rumors started flying and people stared calling it "cheating" rather then felony rape. it got so bad that my ex decided he'd get even by sleeping with a girl I used to call my friend. that was my last straw and i couldn't take the rumors so I was convinced I should move far far away. Which I did, I am now in FL. during the whole process I had to deal with harassment I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. so after the move across the country I then had to decide what we were going to do about the criminal because he hired a really good (*cough* *cough* evil) lawyer who made me the Target so he could walk free and not do 50 years in jail.
so since then I have moved to an entirely different part of the U.S and tried to live a normal life....again
Well that didn't work. every question I was asked that would have required me to tell my story, so i would Iie about it for my protection. so now everyone thinks I'm a liar (for the bad reasons) so I went back into complete isolation for a while. Then only recently did I find out he will likely only relieve 3-6 month in jail vs the 30-60 years for the felony assault, lately I have been unmotivated. Still trying to fix that
FEEL FREE to move this thread to a more accurate local if needed. Ps my keyboard is broken so excuse any strange mistakes I had to retype a lot of it on my phone
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