Doctor Says I Have A Neurological Disorder...

[MacLeod]

Once again, thank you all for your concern and condolences. I'm heading out to Arizona this week to see a neurologist that has more experience than the one I am currently seeing. I've already spoken with him and he said he doesn't see any reason why he shouldn't be able to fix the problem.(Hope that made sense, these pills are making me loopy. lol) He says that within six months he should have the problem fixed, but of course something can always go wrong. I'm not being negative about it, I just don't want to get my hopes up, y'know?

Best of luck and hope it goes well.

 

[TEACAKE'S PLEATHER DOME]

Why not, beamMe? Dukat is a good illustration of what NG was trying to describe. Storytelling (and TV is a form of storytelling) has always been used to teach lessons about real life.

Plus she's clearly a DS9 fan. Finding lessons in Star Trek isn't much different than finding lessons in the bible.

 

[Captain_Nick]

*sigh* No, I don't. I obviously have some issues I need to resolve, and I'm trying, but I'm so weak...and I hate it....

Stop this. If your time really is limited, why would you spend it hating on yourself

Because I love him. And believe it or not, I'm more miserable without him, than I am with him. I don't really expect any of you to understand, because I don't understand it myself. Over the past few weeks he's said some really horrible things to me, I'm sure most of which I might have deserved(I'm of the thinking that it wouldn't happen if I didn't deserve it), but yesterday when he said he'd take me back(he was the one that finally ended it)I actually felt a little happy for the first time in a long time. Though, honestly....deep down inside, I feel like he's playing some kind of game with me. I feel like he's pretending, and he's going to turn it all around on me and hurt me as much as I've "hurt" him. No, I never learn. Maybe I'm too lonely, maybe I'm not smart enough....But I fear I'd wait my entire life for him......Once again, just like Catherine Zeta Jones' character Amelia Warren in The Terminal....she keeps going back to that man that's married because she feels like some day he's actually going to want her...just her....she calls it destiny.....

I was referring to this

I obviously have some issues I need to resolve, and I'm trying, but I'm so weak...and I hate it....

Now is the time to love yourself

If it were me ... I'd through my insecurities out the window and go completely insane ..... get as much 'stuff that I've always wanted to do before I go' finished .. take out a few personal loans that are never going to be repaid to finance ... maybe an expedition to India, or Russia, or Antartica all places I hope to visit one day ... jump out of a plane, get my symphony played by an orchestra .. finish writing my porno .. you get the idea. Really go nuts!

There are no consequences!!

 

[Amaris]

At the end of the day, Gem, only you can really love yourself for who you are, without any conditions on that love. It's not wrong to do so, because loving yourself doesn't mean you have to be perfect, because no one is perfect, when you love yourself you just have to be comfortable in your own skin. That can take a while to master. Don't give up, though. You're worth the effort.

 

[GemHaters]

Can someone lock this...delete it...something?

 

[BillJ]

Can someone lock this...delete it...something?

Why?

 

[GemHaters]

Can someone lock this...delete it...something?

Why?

Doesn't matter. After I find a way to delete my account, it'll be gone anyway.

 

[BillJ]

Boyfriend forcing you too?

 

[GemHaters]

Boyfriend forcing you too?

No.

 

[Nerys Ghemor]

Why not, beamMe? Dukat is a good illustration of what NG was trying to describe. Storytelling (and TV is a form of storytelling) has always been used to teach lessons about real life.

Exactly. It's a ready example to point to, and sometimes looking at a story or metaphor can provide the emotional distance necessary to analyze a situation, that you don't always have when you're caught up in the middle of it. And that particular one is one that I could be fairly sure a Trek fan would pick up on.

 

[BillJ]

Boyfriend forcing you too?

No.

Unfortunate.

Charting your progress may be of help to others who will inevitably face life-threatening illness.

But good luck to you in Arizona.

 

[GemHaters]

Boyfriend forcing you too?

No.

Unfortunate.

Charting your progress may be of help to others who will inevitably face life-threatening illness.

But good luck to you in Arizona.

Oh, you mean my "fake illness"...I mean, I'm nothing but an attention whore, so clearly I'm lying about the whole thing....


Ugh...sorry...

Thank you, I appreciate it....

 

[BillJ]

No.

Unfortunate.

Charting your progress may be of help to others who will inevitably face life-threatening illness.

But good luck to you in Arizona.

Oh, you mean my "fake illness"...I mean, I'm nothing but an attention whore, so clearly I'm lying about the whole thing....


Ugh...sorry...

Thank you, I appreciate it....

Not even sure what to make of this...

You have to realize many of us have been conditioned not to take things at face value throughout our lives.

 

[GemHaters]

Unfortunate.

Charting your progress may be of help to others who will inevitably face life-threatening illness.

But good luck to you in Arizona.

Oh, you mean my "fake illness"...I mean, I'm nothing but an attention whore, so clearly I'm lying about the whole thing....


Ugh...sorry...

Thank you, I appreciate it....

Not even sure what to make of this...

You have to realize many of us have been conditioned not to take things at face value throughout our lives.

Well, it wasn't directed towards you at all, and I'm sorry.

Yes, I realize that no one takes anything at face value, I just hate being labeled something without deserving it.


Oh, but I shouldn't be saying any of this....someone will just turn around and start using it as material....

 

[Locutus of Bored]

Can someone lock this...delete it...something?

Okay, I'll lock it.