Well I've got some shitty news.
As some of you know, I met my g/f online. That was about six years ago and we've been dating for over five years.
The problem is, that she's from Canada and I'm from Europe. Over the last five year we went from having an actual long distance relationship where we saw eachother twice a year.
Then she moved to my place for a year, which didn't work for her. After that I moved to Canada for two years, where I got a degree. I realized that I couldn't stay in Canada, I just missed home too much. So we moved back here in july 2005.
anyway... the problem is, that she doesn't speak the language so she couldn't get a job here. she also missed her friends. so last sunday she told me she's leaving, and moving to England to stay with a couple of friends.
So honestly, I'm having the worst week of my life right now. That might sound overly melodramatic, but it's true. Basically I'm a wreck and just going for an hour without crying is a bitch. On top of that, I don't have much to do at work, which would at least keep me occupied.
anyway... so I've got no idea what I'm gonna do. This is the girl I thought I was gonna marry and spend my life with, and now she's leaving.
My current plan is to see how it goes without her for a while. And if after a while I still can't deal with her being gone, I might just move to England. I really do not want to (I've got nothing against England, but it's just not my home), but I might just have to. Cos I'm not sure I can deal with loosing her.
I hope you guys don't mind me posting this in here. I just really needed to tell this to someone. I'm not a very social person (unlike my g/f who is extremely social) so I don't really have anyone else to talk to. I'd talk to my folks, but they're on vacation right now.
anyway... she's supposed to leave on saturday morning, as long as we can get her a plane ticket for then.
That's it ... again, I really hope you guys don't mind me posting this in here.
EDIT: just for the record, in case I wasn't clear. Yes, she still loves me and she still wants to be with me. She just can't be with me here.