Sometimes I will have compulsive thoughts to do something "bad," like when I'm driving I just imagine myself driving off the side of the freeway or into another car, and while I don't do it, the thought won't leave my head. And it's not in a suicidal way, it's just like...a compulsion.
I have a friend who has been diagnosed with OCD and he has mentioned things like this. How it's just a compulsion, not actually a desire to do something bad with anything more behind it.
^ I feel that way about my nails. I keep them trimmed down to nothing so they can't get dirty.
I can relate Spot's Meow. Mine is a bit opposite though. I tend to obsess on someone hitting me. Every so often I will fixate on a particular car and will keep visualizing it running into me. I think this is one of the reasons I hate driving so much. It tends to be very stressful for me, unless I am out on an interstate. I actually enjoy that.
But on the same note, I will sometimes have a compulsion to hit people. I would never hurt anyone but sometimes Grandma at the market with the squeaky shopping cart or someone being loud or obnoxious will trigger this weird thought to belt them. Then I feel guilty for thinking it, which turns into this rather nasty cycle with myself.
^ I feel that way about my nails. I keep them trimmed down to nothing so they can't get dirty.
I can relate Spot's Meow. Mine is a bit opposite though. I tend to obsess on someone hitting me. Every so often I will fixate on a particular car and will keep visualizing it running into me. I think this is one of the reasons I hate driving so much. It tends to be very stressful for me, unless I am out on an interstate. I actually enjoy that.
But on the same note, I will sometimes have a compulsion to hit people. I would never hurt anyone but sometimes Grandma at the market with the squeaky shopping cart or someone being loud or obnoxious will trigger this weird thought to belt them. Then I feel guilty for thinking it, which turns into this rather nasty cycle with myself.
Oh, wow. Seriously? I have the same thoughts (honest!). I didn't know that was linked to OCD. I always had the fear people were either going to hit me out of nowhere, or that I would hit them, and I would have this strong compulsion to do so, even though I really liked that person, and I have never acted upon it, but sometimes it scares me. I also tend to enact scenes in my head about something I'm afraid might happen, like friends or family getting into a fight, the results of that fight, and I worry that it might happen.
I'm a mess.![]()
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