Some will say that suicide is ultimately selfish and narcissistic, but I see it as neither. It is the final option of a worn out and abused psyche. A good tool to reset perspective is to imagine the horror of those closest to you going through your most personal and embarrassing things without context. These will end up being your legacy. Yikes!! Maybe don't wanna do that... Failure as measured by whom? If you are being the best person you can be, and help anyone in even a small way, then you have NOT failed. You shouldn't be mindful of others definition of success, but of what makes you feel better about yourself. Try doing random acts of kindness, even in small ways. This will do wonders for your self-esteem, even while others sneer at you for it. Whose failure is that? Be careful of the meds. Even small changes can be devastating. I watched my ex-wife do that and it wasn't very helpful. (She is bipolar in the extreme.) And Scribble, you're welcome. This is something swept under the rug for too long, and I would thank you for your courage and desire to help others.