Sorry for another post without an image, but I need to get a couple of things off of my chest, for my own sanity.
The Refit is my absolutely favorite vehicle of all time, both real and fictional. She's been a goal of mine to model ever since I got into CG modeling, but I haven't felt that my skills would do her justice until recently. Hell, the AMT model was the very first model kit I bought with my own money (I glued that model together, but never painted).
She's becoming a chore.
I don't know if a certain person will be seeing this message, but I'm feeling pressured to complete her.
I'm under an extreme amount of stress in my greater life lately and I have a TON of demands on my time...most having to do with my mom and dad. My dad recently came home permanently after a couple of months in a hospital and a couple of months in a physical rehab facility in order for him to gain the strength to come home. He never gained that strength; nay, he backpedaled. My mom is dealing with issue after issue, and I'm trying to be there and do what I can to help.
I don't know from one hour to the next when I'll need to throw what I'm doing down and head out the door to their house.
I'm also experiencing chest and bowel pains, not to mention bleeding from places I'm pretty sure I shouldn't be, my new progressive lenses were ground and installed wrong, so it's almost impossible for me to focus on anything, visually, and I have an almost constant headache.
I'm falling--nope, I've fallen--into another deep depression, something I thought I'd finally nipped in the bud. I thought my emotions were under control again. I guess not. I'm getting--well--PISSED--at just about everything. Extreme anger issues at the moment.
I'm afraid to go on Facebook right now. It's a place I find solace, finding and sharing funny and stupid puns and memes; looking at spaceships and interior sets; BSing with people. Now, every time I make the slightest appearance, I get what I feel are orders to complete my 3d model of the Refit, even if those strong suggestions are not meant as such. The stress is just getting to me. Admittedly, I've given many hopeful and overly-optimistic estimates of when I'll finish her, but as I mentioned, my life is in disarray.
I stepped away for a little bit to work on my future house remodeling project for a little mental vacation. That didn't last.
I have about another two days to finish modeling and printing my brother's brilliantly-failed ballon animal from when he and his neighbors had a gathering in Virginia when he lived there a few years ago, called Sterence. He's pink. He's amazing.
I need some respite. I need to refresh my mind. I don't need pressure to finish her. I want this to be fun again. "She's a lady, alright, and her name is Enterprise!"
Sorry, all, I've lost my solace in FB, so I'm airing this here.
If it's okay, when I'm finished modeling Sterence, I'll post a render of him in this thread. I may be able to adapt a Substance material for FDM printed plastic to him.