Random Thoughts...or...What's on Your Mind?

[Sibyl]

I guess I'm up for the duration. Funny...I haven't gotten a full night's sleep in over a week, but I'm not tired at all and it's 2:30 in the morning right now.

I wish my brain functioned more "normally" i.e. like other peoples' around me. It's so rare that I can find someone who thinks and feels the way I do (about any variety of topics and subjects) that I've almost forgotten what it feels like to be connected to another person. The last person I felt this connection with (if you don't count my adoptive mother) was my second best friend who passed away in April. That left more of a void than I was prepared for (or even anticipated). At least my actual BFF is still among the living (though we do not see eye-to-eye on many, many social and other issues I still love her dearly).

Sorry, that's probably too much randomness for this thread... just had to get it off my chest. carry on!

I've been thinking on this.

I wish I had a box. I wish there was a box, any box that I fit in. All I've ever wanted to be was "normal"...whatever normal is. I wish I could fit in...anywhere.

And please understand that I'm not making one of those "Welcome to the club" replies. Whenever I post something about wishing I was "normal", the most normal people I've ever met always give just that as a reply: "Welcome to the club."

Sure, some of them may have depression. Some may be a little more artistic, but I'm off in some other world, some other universe. I just do not belong anywhere, certainly not on this planet at this time.

I'm a pragmatist, but my feet never touch the ground.

I'm an absolute pacifist in reality, but I'm always thinking violent thoughts.

I try to help...any chance I get. I always make the situation worse.

I often wonder if I'm on the autistic spectrum and then I think, "no, you're just trying to claim something that doesn't belong to you." Same with many other spectra, as it were.

I'm always looking for my answers and they never come.

 

[Discofan]

People with big dogs don't seem to realize how rude it is to let these dogs put their sometimes dirty paws on persons who just wish to walk by in a public place!!!

 

[cosmic mouse]

Last night I walked outside after dark and didn't turn my outside light on.

As soon as I opened the door I head a loud clanging and rattlings against my neighbors' chainlink fence that separates our garages. A couple of animals were startled and ran from my driveway, along my neighbors' fence, to the hill behind our garages. I'm assuming raccoons, though it could have been foxes.

We gave each other a bit of a start.

At least it wasn't skunks... they hang out in peoples' garbage bins "practicing" sometimes...
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I've been thinking on this.

I wish I had a box. I wish there was a box, any box that I fit in. All I've ever wanted to be was "normal"...whatever normal is. I wish I could fit in...anywhere.

And please understand that I'm not making one of those "Welcome to the club" replies. Whenever I post something about wishing I was "normal", the most normal people I've ever met always give just that as a reply: "Welcome to the club."

Sure, some of them may have depression. Some may be a little more artistic, but I'm off in some other world, some other universe. I just do not belong anywhere, certainly not on this planet at this time.

I'm a pragmatist, but my feet never touch the ground.

I'm an absolute pacifist in reality, but I'm always thinking violent thoughts.

I try to help...any chance I get. I always make the situation worse.

I often wonder if I'm on the autistic spectrum and then I think, "no, you're just trying to claim something that doesn't belong to you." Same with many other spectra, as it were.

I'm always looking for my answers and they never come.

Well, suffice it to say that I think we are all on a spectrum of sorts. Most of reality is a grey area, composed of people, animals, ideas, thoughts, things, and customs that fall on a range somewhere. All having both nothing and, simultaneously, many things in common with one another.... the world is not a black and white place, that's for sure. And it is complex, but at the same time it's very simple when one steps back and loses focus for a moment. I'm of the mind that humans, as a species, have a glaring tendency to focus and hone in far too much on... anything really, pick a topic. This causes hyper-attention and resulting reactivity and the loss of something greater than ourselves. The soft focus or unfocused eyes pick up many things that we miss when engaged in heavy scrutiny... it's this heavy surveillance and constant perlustration is starting to become a plague of sorts. I think it's part of what's tearing humanity apart.... and separating us from the rest of the natural world.

 

[TribbleFeeder]

At least it wasn't skunks... they hang out in peoples' garbage bins "practicing" sometimes...
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Well, suffice it to say that I think we are all on a spectrum of sorts. Most of reality is a grey area, composed of people, animals, ideas, thoughts, things, and customs that fall on a range somewhere. All having both nothing and, simultaneously, many things in common with one another.... the world is not a black and white place, that's for sure. And it is complex, but at the same time it's very simple when one steps back and loses focus for a moment. I'm of the mind that humans, as a species, have a glaring tendency to focus and hone in far too much on... anything really, pick a topic. This causes hyper-attention and resulting reactivity and the loss of something greater than ourselves. The soft focus or unfocused eyes pick up many things that we miss when engaged in heavy scrutiny... it's this heavy surveillance and constant perlustration is starting to become a plague of sorts. I think it's part of what's tearing humanity apart.... and separating us from the rest of the natural world.

Why is there all that weird shit on your post?

 

[cosmic mouse]

Why is there all that weird shit on your post?

no clue but it's happened twice recently when I was quoting someone . Kind of makes the message lose its impact.

 

[Mr. Laser Beam]

I hate being caught in an edit war on Wikia.

 

[rhubarbodendron]

I wish I could fit in...anywhere.

You fit in perfectly here with us! MISC just wouldn't be the same without you.

and when he was on his way out, he told my mom that my dad was his only friend. My heart sunk when I'd heard that.

How about contacting him? Maybe you could become friends. After all, you have your dad in common. That's a good starting point.

People with big dogs don't seem to realize how rude it is to let these dogs put their sometimes dirty paws on persons who just wish to walk by in a public place!!!

Ambroce Bierce summed that problem up nicely when he wrote: "the most affectionate creature in the world is a wet dog"

 

[Jayson1]

I feel I am becoming more nostaligic with each passing day, even though things weren't even all that great in my past.

Jason

 

[Butters]

I've been thinking on this.

I wish I had a box. I wish there was a box, any box that I fit in. All I've ever wanted to be was "normal"...whatever normal is. I wish I could fit in...anywhere.

And please understand that I'm not making one of those "Welcome to the club" replies. Whenever I post something about wishing I was "normal", the most normal people I've ever met always give just that as a reply: "Welcome to the club."

Sure, some of them may have depression. Some may be a little more artistic, but I'm off in some other world, some other universe. I just do not belong anywhere, certainly not on this planet at this time.

I'm a pragmatist, but my feet never touch the ground.

I'm an absolute pacifist in reality, but I'm always thinking violent thoughts.

I try to help...any chance I get. I always make the situation worse.

I often wonder if I'm on the autistic spectrum and then I think, "no, you're just trying to claim something that doesn't belong to you." Same with many other spectra, as it were.

I'm always looking for my answers and they never come.

Welcome to the club

So much of this speaks to me. Most people do seem to find their niche, and settle right in. I feel like an extra in my own life. Sometimes the advice is to step out beyond ones comfort zone. I haven’t got a comfort zone.

I dunno. Maybe the truth for me is that to fit in, I have to be like them, and I can’t do that and still be me.

 

[TribbleFeeder]

I wish I could fit in...anywhere.

You fit in here. We love you. You’re important to the Misc community, and me!

 

[TribbleFeeder]

I dunno. Maybe the truth for me is that to fit in, I have to be like them, and I can’t do that and still be me.

Yes. That is the truth!!

I’ve only started to fit in since I’ve embraced all the shit they’ve tormented me for. I joined a Motorcycle Club. I went to my first sci-fi convention. I started ACTIVELY posting on here after being a lurker for almost 10 years—because I didn’t feel worthy to post. I decided I didn’t want to conform my interest, I just need to find people who truly accept them. I’m a weirdo and I want to surround myself with other weirdos!

Fuck the normies.

Edit: My iPhone auto corrected normies to Mormons. That could have been bad...

 

[Jayson1]

Hey I also consider myself weird. Granted I think normal people are a myth along with happy well adjusted people. I think some are just better at hiding it but deep down everyone is crazy but are to afraid of not being accepted so they force themselves into being something on the outside they don't want to be. For example I don't buy for a second that people ever want to wear any kind of clothes other than t-shirts and sweatpants. Maybe sexy clothes as well during those times you want to feel sexy but other than that, nothing else.


Jason

 

[TribbleFeeder]

For example I don't buy for a second that people ever want to wear any kind of clothes other than t-shirts and sweatpants.

Amen. Pants with zippers can fuck off.

 

[Jayson1]

Amen. Pants with zippers can fuck off.

I haven't wore pants with a zipper since I think Clinton was president. It's sweatpants and shorts all the time. Almost all my shirts I get also have a pocket on it for not other reason than I want a place to put my phone when I go out. Plus loose change since I don't have a wallet.


Jason

 

[TribbleFeeder]

I haven't wore pants with a zipper since I think Clinton was president. It's sweatpants and shorts all the time. Almost all my shirts I get also have a pocket on it for not other reason than I want a place to put my phone when I go out. Plus loose change since I don't have a wallet.
That’s the standard attire in south philly. You’d fit right in!

Jason

That’s the standard attire in south philly. You’d fit right in!

 

[Refuge]

I love my pyjamas. I wish I could live in them.

 

[auntiehill]

I kinda DO live in my pajamas.

Working from home has its benefits.

 

[Gary Mitchell]

Yes. That is the truth!!

I’ve only started to fit in since I’ve embraced all the shit they’ve tormented me for.

Who tormented you? Point them out and I will mess them up a little (or at least have some harsh words with them).
And you are worthy. Even if you are mean to Mormons.

 

[auntiehill]

Mean to Mormons?? We would be friends.

 

[TribbleFeeder]

Who tormented you? Point them out and I will mess them up a little (or at least have some harsh words with them).
And you are worthy. Even if you are mean to Mormons.

I got bullied a lot by a bunch of puny jerks.

And thank you. Long live the Mormons.