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I've been incredibly tired the last week as well.
Today was my semi & annual health assessment from my self tracking. This is the two year mark. My sleep has improved dramatically over the last two years, I now have more good nights than bad nights. My activity level has plateaued the last year though, the same numbers for the last six months as the six before that - but since the last six have been winter that's actually pretty good since I'm not out hiking a couple times a week. They've also plateaued at levels considered healthy by medical organizations. 8100 steps/day and 155 active minutes per week, which make me semi active and meet the guidelines for heart health.
My weight has gradually declined but nothing significant. Which isn't surprising because I haven't been focused on food, just getting into a better exercise lifestyle.
I'm hoping to phase in regular stretching and the gym again. I was doing it during covid but the constant closures kept throwing me off everytime I got into the habit. And then last year I focused more on steps as it was something closures couldn't affect.
So now I'm hoping to keep the steps up and add in stretching/gym trips.
The big issue is my fatigue. I'm finally getting a good fairly constant sleep but it just stops me from gaining more sleep debt, it doesn't make up for any of the other occured the last dozen years. Plus I still regularly have trauma dreams which leave me feeling miserable and fatigued even when I get required sleep. It's pretty much impossible for me to make up that sleep debt in my remaining lifespan without entering a coma but hopefully I can eat away at it and the fatigue will lessen a bit.
Just have to keep at it. It's always good to see that there are quantifiable improvements in my health even though I don't feel them and still struggle with PTSD. I just have to stop the plateau now and improve physical activity and hope the sleep continues to improve.
Today was my semi & annual health assessment from my self tracking. This is the two year mark. My sleep has improved dramatically over the last two years, I now have more good nights than bad nights. My activity level has plateaued the last year though, the same numbers for the last six months as the six before that - but since the last six have been winter that's actually pretty good since I'm not out hiking a couple times a week. They've also plateaued at levels considered healthy by medical organizations. 8100 steps/day and 155 active minutes per week, which make me semi active and meet the guidelines for heart health.
My weight has gradually declined but nothing significant. Which isn't surprising because I haven't been focused on food, just getting into a better exercise lifestyle.
I'm hoping to phase in regular stretching and the gym again. I was doing it during covid but the constant closures kept throwing me off everytime I got into the habit. And then last year I focused more on steps as it was something closures couldn't affect.
So now I'm hoping to keep the steps up and add in stretching/gym trips.
The big issue is my fatigue. I'm finally getting a good fairly constant sleep but it just stops me from gaining more sleep debt, it doesn't make up for any of the other occured the last dozen years. Plus I still regularly have trauma dreams which leave me feeling miserable and fatigued even when I get required sleep. It's pretty much impossible for me to make up that sleep debt in my remaining lifespan without entering a coma but hopefully I can eat away at it and the fatigue will lessen a bit.
Just have to keep at it. It's always good to see that there are quantifiable improvements in my health even though I don't feel them and still struggle with PTSD. I just have to stop the plateau now and improve physical activity and hope the sleep continues to improve.
I really need to make up my mind on picking a job to try for, but I just can't seem to. Every time I start to think I've finally settled on one, I start to panic and question if that's really what I want to do, or if I want to try something else. I just keep going around and around in circles and I just can't seem to stop.
I chose mine when I was younger and it was something I was passionate about. I still am. Find what is your passion.
But I warn you that passion and drive doesn't make everything go great.
But I warn you that passion and drive doesn't make everything go great.
I've shared parts of my own journey with regards to work and finding places to make ends meet rather than just going for passion. I get that work is stressful and dealing with people is stressful. People are hard to work with. I know; I did 10 years of retail, and currently in the mental health field. That's a lot of people right there.
That said, to echo @Peach Wookiee and @Commander Troi said, this is not the rest of your life decision. This isn't even a moral decision. This is a decision to step in to a job, to find something that you are passionate enough about to work through the crummier side of work. Every job I've had, even as passionate as I am about the things I do, have their downsides. The best week can still have struggles.
That said, to echo @Peach Wookiee and @Commander Troi said, this is not the rest of your life decision. This isn't even a moral decision. This is a decision to step in to a job, to find something that you are passionate enough about to work through the crummier side of work. Every job I've had, even as passionate as I am about the things I do, have their downsides. The best week can still have struggles.
I have to echo it. I've stated here or elsewhere that my biggest regret in life is not learning the skills I need now, i.e. building a house. I had a good friend who was a contractor, but I opted to myopically focus on my school. In retrospect, I could have had better skills doing something I was extremely uncomfortable with at the time but benefit from later.
There are a couple of psychology/self-help e-courses I've completed recently on udemy.com. Many of these are reasonably priced (as low as US $15) and consist of several hours of lectures on CBT, building inner resilience, mindfulness, etc.
I believe sometimes we can be our own worst enemy. We fall into several types of cognitive distortions. It's a mindset we may have acquired growing up, or from certain life experiences. With self-awareness and self-regulation, we can change and grow. No one else is responsible for our lives but ourselves.
I believe sometimes we can be our own worst enemy. We fall into several types of cognitive distortions. It's a mindset we may have acquired growing up, or from certain life experiences. With self-awareness and self-regulation, we can change and grow. No one else is responsible for our lives but ourselves.
I've been using a free app called Project Camus recently. Nice CBT activities.
I'll try that one. 
Panic and anxiety attacks suck. Do you have music that helps you?
I admit my solution is food based.
I admit my solution is food based.
I use ocarina music, as well as a lot of Vivaldi.
*hugs* Panic attacks suck.
I realized, rather harshly, how one’s mental health can damage one’s physical health. I finally told my dad what’s been going on where I work (after having a cuddle with my BF), and had a bad asthma attack which landed me in the ER on Good Friday. My crying caused a lot of swelling, so a nebulizer treatment and steroid injection later, I’m doing better, but I’m rather winded.
I will be going to Talladega, AL, tomorrow to attend the 3-day annual Alabama Institute for Recovery conference. People with mental illnesses from all over Alabama will be there, with lots of workshops and social events to attend. I am involved with the Sci-fi Social Monday night, which welcomes fans of science fiction and fantasy for refreshments, games, a trivia contest, and prizes (I wrote the trivia questions, including lots of Star Trek questions). The grand prize is a new Chromebook. I will also be giving a presentation of my recovery story at a workshop Tuesday afternoon. Hopefully. it will be a stress-free time for me, although I am worried about how I will get home Wednesday.
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