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Work is slow today so I'm using the time to do more fire insurance. Going through stuff I bought over the last 2 years online, saving and filing receipts, filling out docs. Up'ed my claim by about $2300 so far, although how much of that will be approved in the end I dunno. Still, since this is stuff I've already bought it's more "found" money than having to actively spend money to recoup, so I really need to get it in the spreadsheet. I also have a shit ton of physical reciepts to review and scan in and make claims for as well. Hoping to get through that pile this weekend.

Really making me feel like shit though. Anxiety up, along with the resulting crashes.
 
Stress nosebleed again today after I got a new work assignment & another one had a major change, and I looked at everything I was behind in doing personal life wise with insurance, therapy, my trip to Kenya, and my apartment/car.

The plan is to finish hardcopy reciepts as soon as possible so I can finalize my list of what still to buy through insurance, and send in the claim. Then do one evening going over the Kenya trip. Then start reorganizing the apartment and storage. The insurance just takes so much more time than anticipated.
 
Anxiety sucks --- I just had anxiety meme in my memories section of fb I can post it here too,..
Thank you very much. Whenever i have to discuss anxiety, either professionally or privately, the biggest thing I go back to is a wish for control. Anxiety comes across in so many different ways and often times I find it is because I lack a sense of control over something, life, my emotions, stressors, etc. So, behaviors are driven by that need to control something. Add in the body symptoms, because anxiety comes from the fight/flight/freeze response and it is a very unpleasant experience.
 
Finished all my old reciepts tonight so I can finally start getting the last of the stuff. Also did laundry, bank, pharmacy, blood donation, warranty request for something that broke, confirmed I don't need to make decisions on Kenya stuff until the end of the month so don't need to be anxious about not getting to it yet, and regular work. Was a productive day. Finally felt like I got some headway. Be nice when I finally get the insurance fully done.
 
Finished all my old reciepts tonight so I can finally start getting the last of the stuff. Also did laundry, bank, pharmacy, blood donation, warranty request for something that broke, confirmed I don't need to make decisions on Kenya stuff until the end of the month so don't need to be anxious about not getting to it yet, and regular work. Was a productive day. Finally felt like I got some headway. Be nice when I finally get the insurance fully done.
Insurance sucks. Glad you made some headway and feel that success.

Definitely a rough week for me, and depression is a major struggle for me as I see my staff working with a lot of clients with trauma backgrounds. A bit low this week.
 
I looked at my Fitbit readiness score today. It's a score 1-100 that says how much rest your body needs based on all the metrics the Fitbit records. Higher score means your body is in good shape and ready for activity.

My score was 1. For the second day this week. I didn't even know a score of 1 was possible.
 
I looked at my Fitbit readiness score today. It's a score 1-100 that says how much rest your body needs based on all the metrics the Fitbit records. Higher score means your body is in good shape and ready for activity.

My score was 1. For the second day this week. I didn't even know a score of 1 was possible.
My wife gave me a Fitbit but I have no doubt this week I would score a 1 as well, if not lower. I've hit just a mire of frustration with work and home.
 
Well, I submitted my first insurance report. It will be the biggest, I wanted it in early. I still have a bunch of other stuff to get but this was the major portion of the claim. Had an anxiety attack over it, worry about things I don't need to go into. Did some grounding exercises, anti anxiety exercises, box breathing, but ended up taking a clonazepam. First in a few weeks. Or course with how worn out my body is I just crashed. Subscribed to the sports channel so I can watch the Blue Jays playoff run and ordered pizza. And prepped a Walmart shopping list for more insurance stuff.

Tomorrow afternoon I'm going to my girlfriend's place for the long weekend - she's French and they don't celebrate Thanksgiving, and I don't have any family, so it will just be a long weekend together relaxing, recouperating a bit.
 
I was supposed to go on a trip to Italy this morning but I hate flying so much that I got myself into a proper panic last night, made it to the airport drop off at 5am only to tell my companions that I'd been exposed to someone with Covid so I should cancel. Now I feel really stupid and low because I'm sat at home while they're having a great time. All because I got inside my own head and freaked myself out. Deleted my social media apps from my phone so I don't see photos/updates which will only serve to make me worse.

Such a silly thing to get so worked up about considering the things people go through on a daily basis, but I'm a bit all over the place today.
 
I was supposed to go on a trip to Italy this morning but I hate flying so much that I got myself into a proper panic last night, made it to the airport drop off at 5am only to tell my companions that I'd been exposed to someone with Covid so I should cancel. Now I feel really stupid and low because I'm sat at home while they're having a great time. All because I got inside my own head and freaked myself out. Deleted my social media apps from my phone so I don't see photos/updates which will only serve to make me worse.

Such a silly thing to get so worked up about considering the things people go through on a daily basis, but I'm a bit all over the place today.

I'm so sorry
 
I was supposed to go on a trip to Italy this morning but I hate flying so much that I got myself into a proper panic last night, made it to the airport drop off at 5am only to tell my companions that I'd been exposed to someone with Covid so I should cancel. Now I feel really stupid and low because I'm sat at home while they're having a great time. All because I got inside my own head and freaked myself out. Deleted my social media apps from my phone so I don't see photos/updates which will only serve to make me worse.

Such a silly thing to get so worked up about considering the things people go through on a daily basis, but I'm a bit all over the place today.
*HUGS* Panic attacks suck!
 
What you're going through is obviously so much worse than missing a silly wee holiday, I genuinely hope things are on the up for you.

No point comparing what you are going through to what others are. Someone always is going through something "worse", it doesn't negate what you are dealing with and can have a negative effect on your health. I know lots of people going through worse than me, and then I feel bad about my just dealing whith what I deal with. Just have to let comparisons go as much as you can.

I know if my anxiety attacks prevented me from going on a trip to Italy I would be absolutely devestated. I wish the best for you.
 
Another big day insurance wise.

I caught up on my CBT therapy last night and today after work spent 4.5 hours after work driving and shopping for more insurance stuff. Housewares this time. And socks. I now won't have to buy socks for another decade. Dropped a load at a friend's house for storage. A bunch of what I bought today were insurance covered storage totes so I can organize and store things better. Including everything I'm buying. I had been making myself scan in reciepts immediately after making purchases and recording in the spreadsheet but it was after 9 when I finally got home and sat down and was just beat. I'll work on that during breaks tomorrow, and unload the car at lunch. Did a few more chores around the apartment and watched Avenue 5 instead.

I haven't heard back from the adjuster yet. I wasn't expecting an answer yet but I thought I'd get an email acknowledging reciept of my first submission. I'll give it until Friday and then email again.

Had a good weekend with the girlfriend. She calms me. My resting heart rate drops when I'm with her, and I sleep more. We'll be seeing less of each other the next few weeks though, one or the other of us has stuff booked already each weekend, including me taking ten days to visit my ailing Uncle in November. He was rushed to the ER on Thanksgiving. They're still not sure what is wrong. Might have to go visit him sooner if we don't get good news quickly.

I'm so sick of shopping :lol:
 
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