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Gosh that is hard to deal with --- let us know how it went?? are you doing any better??

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this quote really speaks to me-- :) on a lot of levels -
I’ve managed the workweek so far. The kids are pretty understanding, as is my co-teacher. I fear I may break my standing record for voice loss, but this time, I at least know what caused it. The thing that’s honestly more troubling is that my lungs were hit. I got to talk to my doctor and got a second stronger prescription for prednisone. If this doesn’t work, I may have to see a specialist. It seems my voice lets me know when something is wrong in my respiratory system, so I have a guideline for the future.

*Hugs Back*
 
I’m feeling really discouraged at the moment. I’m on Day 49 of voice loss due to COVID-19 and the resulting pleurisy. Everything I’ve tried to deal with it has failed. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I’ll be doing so without a voice or a full recovery. I feel discouraged and useless…

I’m feeling really discouraged at the moment. I’m on Day 49 of voice loss due to COVID-19 and the resulting pleurisy. Everything I’ve tried to deal with it has failed. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I’ll be doing so without a voice or a full recovery. I feel discouraged and useless…
Hugs, @Peach Wookiee. We're here for you.
 
Hugs, @Peach Wookiee. We're here for you.
Thanks. I did make it through the workweek and pushed myself a bit today. I hopefully have my first babysitting job in a few weeks this weekend, and with a single kid who’s a former student. We’ll probably do a marathon of the first English dub of Sailor Moon. It’s kind of fun to do a rewatch with a younger kid.
 
So, I don't wake up screaming in the middle of the night like I used too but it still regularly have nightmares/super disturbing and upsetting dreams about my past situation.

Yesterday I threw on the new Resident Evil TV show before bed, see how bad it was. Went to sleep and had Zombie nightmares throughout the night.

And it was a fucking relief.

It's amazing, nightmares about being chased by neverending hordes of flesh eating monsters actually had me waking up *relieved* they weren't my regular soul crushing dreams. How messed up is that? A regular nightmare now seems like a pleasant dream about, I dunno, puppies made of clouds or something.
 
Signed my divorce papers today. Anxiety was up before then. Sad now. Glad it's done.

I'm sorry. Any sort of breakup is always hard, whether you think it's the right, best decision or not. I recently went through a breakup about 3 months ago that hit me really hard.

The important thing is to allow yourself to experience the grief. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to scream into a pillow, scream into a pillow. Therapy has helped me a lot too. And physical activity. Hit the gym if you are able. Or just take a walk outside. I hope you have some family and friends that you can spend some time with. Those are some of the things I've been doing. It's slowly getting better. But it takes time.

And don't ever let anyone tell you that you just need to move on. Someone told me early on, I just needed to get over her and start dating other people. Please, people, don't ever tell someone that who's going through any sort of breakup. It honestly made me feel worse. We all move on at our own pace, it's not something you can rush. There are things you can do to help yourself heal, but at the end of the day we all heal in our own time. So allow yourself to grieve. It's absolutely normal.
 
The Sad hit me yesterday for no reason I could think of. I've been feeling it on Sundays a lot - could be not wanting to go to the office on Monday. Or maybe I'm just stressed and overwhelmed.
 
To me, the biggest source of anxiety is my finances. Don't get me wrong. I work full-time, am current will all my bills, and have a fairly good credit score. But at some point, the well starts to run dry. I've cut down my spending by at least 20% over the past week. So hopefully that'll make a difference.
 
Who has two thumbs and is doom scrolling at 430 am after less than 2 hours of sleep thanks to trauma dreams?

:sigh:

Well after not sleeping last night and feeling absolutely terrible today and wasting the entire day because I am so worn out I got the "let's just be friends" text again. I'm not upset over that per say, just really drove home the lonliness and makes me wonder why the point in trying is.
 
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Who has two thumbs and is doom scrolling at 430 am after less than 2 hours of sleep thanks to trauma dreams?

:sigh:

Well after not sleeping last night and feeling absolutely terrible today and wasting the entire day because I am so worn out I got the "let's just be friends" text again. I'm not upset over that per say, just really drove home the lonliness and makes me wonder why the point in trying is.
*HUGS*
 
Who has two thumbs and is doom scrolling at 430 am after less than 2 hours of sleep thanks to trauma dreams?

:sigh:

Well after not sleeping last night and feeling absolutely terrible today and wasting the entire day because I am so worn out I got the "let's just be friends" text again. I'm not upset over that per say, just really drove home the lonliness and makes me wonder why the point in trying is.

As an introvert, I've spent most of my adult life by myself. I was raised in a big household with five older siblings, and I have a very close bond with my family. With the exception of a few close friends in and outside of the workplace, I have kept mostly to myself. I haven't sought out any romantic relationships in decades. I'm single and will likely remain that way for the rest of my life. Solitude has been my friend for a long time, and to be honest, it's not bad at all.

There is something else to solitude, and that is a sense of individuality. Our society is conditioned into thinking there's a "one size fits all" plan for everybody. While it's great if you can find the love of your life, raise a family, have a rewarding career and then retirement, it doesn't always work like that for others. And it's okay. You forge your own path. You don't have to conform.

"Loneliness is the absence of the other. Aloneness is the presence of oneself."

--Osho
 
As an introvert, I've spent most of my adult life by myself. I was raised in a big household with five older siblings, and I have a very close bond with my family. With the exception of a few close friends in and outside of the workplace, I have kept mostly to myself. I haven't sought out any romantic relationships in decades. I'm single and will likely remain that way for the rest of my life. Solitude has been my friend for a long time, and to be honest, it's not bad at all.

There is something else to solitude, and that is a sense of individuality. Our society is conditioned into thinking there's a "one size fits all" plan for everybody. While it's great if you can find the love of your life, raise a family, have a rewarding career and then retirement, it doesn't always work like that for others. And it's okay. You forge your own path. You don't have to conform.

"Loneliness is the absence of the other. Aloneness is the presence of oneself."

--Osho
"Jonathan Seagull discovered that boredom and fear and anger are the reasons that a gull's life is so short, and with those gone from his thought, he lived a long fine life indeed."
Jonathan Livingston Seagull
Richard Bach
 
Had something of a realization in therapy yesterday. I realized that, even though I’m adopted, I took on some of my dad’s traits. He and I have been stubborn when sick or injured, and have both driven ourselves to the ER when we should’ve called for help!
 
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