I don't know why I'm sad. I suspect it has something to do with the fact that I have been running on almost no sleep for the last 3 days and haven't seen sunshine in at least the same amount of time. I also think that, after spending 2011 actively trying to be the most optimistic and awesome person in the entire fucking world, my brain has burnt itself out. I'm not emotionally sad so much as I think my brain is making itself sad because it just doesn't know what else to do right now. Brain chemicals...they suck. I need to recharge my awesome.