I certainly feel for you. It's unanimously consider that Mandarin is the hardest language to learn on Earth. However, if you rephrase that to what's the hardest language in the world to understand, it might have to be modern English, based solely on the ever changing nature of it. It easily has to be the most amorphous language in use on Earth.
Even us native speakers start losing grasp on some of its usage within our own lifetimes. Every generation seems to want to put a spin on it that makes it their own, & usually not in a way that makes it simpler by any metric. It's always adding more nuance & meaning & flexibility to the already most used words, like the word with the most definitions, "Set"
It could eventually be that the majority of our language we'll feature mostly 2-5 letter, monosyllabic words that have endless amounts of meaning. Go, do, so, to, be, is, set, get, hit, bit, put, ask, act, pay, say, see, make, call, have, need, take, will, want, work, play, send, stop, drop, lead, hand, head, face, side, deal, land, like...
In fact, having ask be a noun makes about as much sense as having like be one, which thanks to social media, getting a "like" isn't thought of as odd at all anymore
Yes, English seems to be changing at a rapid pace, much more so than other languages. I mean it takes a somewhat different approach compared to my native language - my language simply makes up new words when they’re needed (we’re notorious for creating word monsters). Or it digs out some old-fashioned words and uses them again all of a sudden and you’re like “wait I haven’t seen this word in decades, why is it fashionable again now???”. Or it borrows from English and puts its own spin on it. It changes, too. But somehow not this rapidly unless there’s a reason to, like it was with the pandemic, we’ve had to suddenly come up with a whole bunch of word monsters for stuff that has to do with that one.
I’m not against the idea of English turning verbs into nouns and whatnot, I’m fascinated by so much flexibility - I just wish it was a little slower so that I can adjust in time, I mean pretty much all of this goes against every single English grammar rule I’ve ever encountered
