Well I did a couple of 1 hour practice essays (still checking the rules though) and then a 3 hour practice performance test ("PT" they're called).
Better. I think that I might be on an upswing.
Last year, I was freaking out so much (like I said, health reasons screwing my thinking and memory, which screwed my blood pressure, which screwed my thinking, rinse, repeat) that I stopped studying a week early. This year, I'm much better (at least lately) that I can and should continue as long as possible to stay sharp.
I guess my slack approach is working. One more PT tomorrow or Monday and I'll do one for a professor to review. She was so great to offer to help. She talked with me on the phone for an HOUR--and I gave her options to end the call, too. What a great lady.
Provided I pass, for confirmation I'm doing this stuff "right enough to pass," and I think I'd be able to help people get through the Bar itself as I was able to help them get through law school.