What
Bluefin’s wardroom lacked in size it made up with character. The panels of thick oak veneer and the many paintings of long passed vessels of the same name saw to this.
And on a ship on which the captain had vehemently ignored all calls for modernity and install a food replicator like was common on other Starfleet vessels it was not surprising that the mess hall was always filled with the pleasant smell of fresh food and coffee.
But T’Ser had not come here for either. She had come to make up for some of her earlier stubbornness. Even though she was still convinced that Dale McBride had made too much of a big deal out of Nigel Bane’s controversial relationship, she could also not completely ignore his point either.
T’Ser had the deepest respect and admiration for Captain Akinola. Something that came almost naturally to anyone who’d had the privilege to serve under the veteran skipper. And as such she perfectly understood the pain it would cause him once he found out about Bane’s transgression.
She did not share Dale’s illusions that somehow the skipper could be protected from this ostensibly embarrassing situation. Akinola was the smartest man on
Bluefin, if he had not found out about Bane and Star yet he was bound to.
But this didn’t mean she couldn’t try to talk to the Australian officer and try to get a glimpse into what had made him decide to place his own desires above the welfare–in a sense–of his own crew.
“You know I somehow expected that the commander would take me aside and warn me off,” he said and chuckled without humor. “I knew that he wouldn’t understand. But you?” he added shaking his head. “I wouldn’t have thought this from you, T’Ser.”
The Vulcan felt silly for just a brief moment. She hadn’t come here to talk him out of his relationship but simply to understand it better and make sure that he understood what it meant to his colleagues. Bane had taken it as an attack.
“I remember reading Romeo and Juliet in school,” he said. “I always thought it was an hopelessly outdated story. Who in their right mind would try to tell somebody who to befriend or to love. You don’t choose these things, they choose you.”
The Vulcan sighed, not appreciating of being cast in the role of the villainous Capulet family. “I think you are being a bit overdramatic.”
“Am I?” he said. “So McBride did not send you to talk me out of seeing Star?”
“Of course not,” she said. “Listen, I do not care who you get involved with. I just wanted to make sure that you understood how your off-duty activities might affect the people you work with on a daily basis. You must have thought of this Nigel, I know you’re smarter than this.”
“Well maybe I’m not,” he shot back. “Or maybe everyone on this ship finds it much easier to mistrust somebody they don’t know than to trust one of their own.”
T’Ser considered this for a moment. Could there be some truth to that, she wondered. It was not easy to forget the people who had died and had been injured on that fateful day over a year ago. She herself had badly dislocated her shoulder during the battle and only her Vulcan physiology had allowed her not to pass out from the pain. She also remembered Nigel’s screams when a loose fragment had punctured his leg.
He leaned in closer to her, sensing that maybe he could bring her around and seeing things from his perspective. “She has changed, T’Ser. She knows that she made mistakes in the past. But everyone makes mistakes. It’s just that in some cases they are so big that people suffer and die because of them. But in the end they’re just mistakes. And everyone deserves a second chance, don’t they?”
She couldn’t argue with that. Not entirely. “Yes they do,” she said. “But how certain can you be that she is not playing you the way she played those people who followed her last time? I’m not proposing that you don’t have feelings for her, all I’m saying is how certain can you be that she is genuinely honest with you?”
“Because I’ve seen it.”
That startled T’Ser. “Seen what?”
Nigel looked out of the viewport and she followed his gaze towards the sandy-brown planet below. She turned back to look at the younger officer. “You’ve seen what, Nigel?”
“I can’t talk about it,” he said slowly, realizing that he had steered himself into an impossibly awkward situation. The truth was he wanted to talk about it badly. He wanted to tell her everything he had learned about Tiaita. About the real extend of the suffering on the surface, about their civil war and about Star’s attempt to help those who needed it the most. He wanted to lay it all out for her, he wanted to tell McBride and even the skipper. But what would that accomplish? They didn’t trust Star, they didn’t trust him anymore. He feared they would move to have her arrested and maybe him along with her. It wasn’t that he was worried about his career but what would become of those people the Federation had decided to turn a blind eye towards in order to appease a cruel government and gain their help in winning the war with the Dominion.
Bane could tell that she didn’t like his response. Her deeply furrowed brow made it clear that she had grown quite concerned and he could hardly fault her for that. He had already revealed too much and T’Ser would not be able to let it go. “There are things happening on Tiaita that we don’t know about. Bad things, T’Ser,” he said in a hushed, conspiratorial sounding voice.
She leaned in closer. “What kind of things?”
Nigel sighed heavily. “I have good reason to believe that the situation on Tiaita is much worse than the government led us to believe. I think they are hiding something from us. Something that should change everything about us helping them in the way that we have. I don’t know if Schwarzkopf and the Council know about this but even if they do I doubt that it would change much considering what we are getting out of this deal.”
“Did Star tell you this?” she asked, barely managing to keep the skepticism out of her tone.
He nodded. “She made me aware of this situation at first,” he admitted. “But this not about her, T’Ser. This is about us possibly helping a corrupt government to bankroll their own civil war.”
The last word struck home. “Civil war?”
Bane wished he could have that one back. He had already violated the promise he had made to Star and while he had absolutely no reason to mistrust the Vulcan he knew he could have made a bad situation worse by revealing too much at the wrong time.
“I have to go, my shift is about to start,” he said, stood and walked towards the exit.
T’Ser jumped out of her chair. “You have to tell me what’s going on, Nigel,” she called after him, causing the few other officers in the wardroom to look her way. She didn’t seem to care.
Nigel however did care and quickly covered the distance between them. “I can’t tell you more than I did. Not now. Even if I wanted to I just can’t. But the truth is right there,” he said in a hushed tone and pointing towards the planet, “for anyone to see if they are just willing to open their eyes to it. But by looking away we might be accomplices in dooming an entire people,” he added and then quickly left, leaving T’Ser confused and exhausted in trying to puzzle together what she had just learned.
She slowly took her seat again, her glance drifting to the suddenly mysterious globe outside. Now she understood why Bane had appeared so contemplative recently. His accusations carried some significant implications that couldn’t be ignored. Her first instinct was to let Akinola know what she had learned but she decided against it considering the source of the information. Bane had also implied Schwarzkopf in this plot. She didn’t know much about the man besides the tragedy he had caused
Bluefin and Akinola and that was enough to get an impression of the man’s character. She knew that Akinola wanted nothing to do with the admiral or his mission here. But if Bane was right, something had to be done.
She had to learn more.
The door to the wardroom opened and Dale McBride and Delta Simms entered. The young woman who accompanied the first officer was a pretty redhead and T’Ser noticed the tiny twinkle in her eyes when she spotted the Vulcan. It was almost as if she was disappointed to find her here.
Simms and McBride had history, she was certain of it. She didn’t know the details–and she didn’t want to know–but the brief look in the young woman’s eyes spoke of a well hidden jealously. It was gone momentarily and the good-natured Delta Simms returned to the surface before anyone could have suspected otherwise.
McBride excused himself from Simms and approached T’Ser.
“Is this seat taken, Lieutenant?” he asked.
She smiled at his overly polite manner and then gestured towards the place where Bane had sat only moments ago. “Be my guest,
Commander.”
He sat. “I came to apologize for my behavior on the bridge yesterday.”
“Commander Dale McBride, apologizing. I should mark this day in my calendar for it may never happen again,” she said with a sweet little smirk.
“This would be much easier without the sarcasm.”
“Easier, yes. More fun, no.”
“Alright, I probably deserve it. It’s just that I was worried about –“
She nodded understandingly. “I know, Dale,” she said and placed a hand on his.
He looked very uncomfortable all of a sudden and looked to see if anyone had noticed T’Ser’s gesture.
“Relax, Dale. Everybody knows.”
“They do?”
She nodded firmly. “It’s a very small ship. How long where you hoping to keep us a secret?”
He shrugged. “December at least.”
T’Ser smiled but McBride didn’t seem to notice that it wasn’t quite the same, honest smile which usually came over her lips. There were too many other things on her mind to allow for it.
The first officer instead produced a small gray box which he had carried somewhere hidden under his uniform.
T’Ser’s eyes opened wide and for a moment she panicked without letting it show. She prayed it wasn’t what she thought it was. This was not a good time for a proposal. It was way too soon, surely McBride knew this and more than that, it was not something T’Ser had ever considered before. She liked the tall Texan and she wanted to be with him, but marriage? That was a concept way too large for her to contemplate.
“I wanted to give this to you in a more … uh … private setting but seeing that we are forgoing the secrecy I thought I could give it to you now.”
“Dale, I –“
He opened the box to reveal a sliver necklace with a large black stone attached to it. T’Ser had to force herself to suppress a sigh of relief. She silently chastised herself for the irrational fear that had gripped her.
“I bought this when we were docked at Deep Space Two,” he said and removed the necklace. “The man who sold it to me didn’t even realize what he had. The stone is a Rigellian sapphire which are only found in mines deep under the surface. They emit a low level of harmless teteron radiation which gives them some very unique attributes,” McBride explained and handed it to her.
She took it and found the sapphire to be warm to her touch. The dark stone grew brighter when she touched it and to her surprise she noticed that the smooth surface mirrored a number of different, ever changing shapes. “It’s beautiful,” she said, astonished by the display.
“They say that everyone who looks at a Rigellian sapphire sees a different set of shapes. It’s suppose to tell you about your future.”
She kept looking at the stone but the shapes seemed chaotic blotches of color, making no discernable sense. She thought one of them looked like the bloom of a flower or maybe, for somebody with a more macabre sense it could have been a massive explosion.
“Of course that’s nothing more than superstition,” he added.
“Superstitious nonsense or no, this is beautiful, Dale. Thank you. I’ll wear it under my uniform,” she said and easily placed the necklace around her neck and then under her shirt. “You do know how to make it up to a girl.”
He shrugged. “I have a few talents.”
She laughed softly and wondered if she should press the issue of when he had purchased this gift for her. They had been docked at Deep Space Two almost two months ago, well before they had embarked on their relationship. She decided to let it go. Then she caught a glimpse of Tiaita again and her thoughts almost instantly returned to her earlier discussion with Nigel Bane. Her smile faltered.
This time McBride noticed. “Are you alright?”
“Yeah,” she said, trying to put some effort into the smile again.
The first officer didn’t buy it. “You sure about that? You seem a bit distracted.”
She considered her next words very carefully. “I have a favor to ask you.”
“Anything.”
She grinned at how quickly he had agreed to help her without knowing anything about her forthcoming request. This kind of power was scary, if not also a bit alluring.
“I want to visit Tiaita,” she said and looked towards the planet.
McBride did likewise before turning back to the Vulcan. “That would be difficult. We have not been cleared to land any personnel on that planet. Only the relief crews have been allowed down there.”
T’Ser was aware of that. She had played with the thought of asking for permission to transfer to the transport fleet temporarily in order to be allowed to visit Tiaita. But that meant that besides McBride’s or Akinola’s permission she would also need Commander Star’s. Considering what the Trill was hiding it seemed extremely unlikely that she would allow an outsider to join her crew, especially somebody from
Bluefin.
“How come you want to go down there anyway?” he asked.
T’Ser had been afraid of that question. She didn’t want to answer it. Not yet, not before she knew for certain that Bane had been right. She realized what the Australian officer must have felt like when she had demanded answers from him. But she was adamant not to make the same mistake he had done. She would not allow this unconfirmed rumor to continue to spread unless it could be confirmed somehow. No matter how much she trusted McBride.
“I want to see what’s down there. We don’t get the chance to go on many away missions other than boarding parties,” she said, feeling guilty about the lie almost immediately. Vulcans after all weren’t suppose to.
But McBride had no reason to distrust her story. “Why, I had no idea you had a little explorer in you.”
“There is a lot of things you don’t know about me,” she said with a smirk. “Yet.”
He took that as a challenge, determined to eventually discover all of the enticing Vulcan’s secrets. “Well there might be another way,” he said. “I’ve heard that the
Eagle has begun to send people to the planet. If you can get their permission to join one of their away teams I see no reason why you couldn’t go.”
She considered that for a moment. The Border Service and Starfleet didn’t mix much. It wasn’t so much a rule but consequence of circumstances. The two services had their own dedicated personnel and there rarely existed the need for joint operations. As such T’Ser didn’t have many friends serving in Starfleet and none she could think of who served on
Eagle. But maybe somebody on that ship knew somebody she knew. It was a small galaxy after all.
“Thanks, Dale,” she said and stood. “I owe you.”
But he simply waved her off. “Nah, you don’t. Just make sure you don’t get yourself in trouble. These regular fleeters do things differently and I would hate to have to go over there and defend your honor.”
“Something tells me you would love to do just that,” she said with a widening smirk and headed for the exit.
“Don’t tempt me.”
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