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Tell Me Three Things About Yourself

I know how you feel. Sometimes I wonder if studying wasn't a waste of time and money. At least it really didn't help me to find a job afterwards.

Oh, but don't you feel that studying itself was worth it? All the new things you learned, all the personal experiences. The fact that you did something you wanted to do. (I am, of course, assuming that that's the case.)

Well, sometimes I think that it was worth it, sometimes not. I admit that I enjoyed learning new things; I liked to discuss movies, plays and art. In a way it was very sophisticated.

But on the other hand it felt like spending years in an ivory tower and talking was all there ever was. Once I hit the road and tried to gain ground on the job market, employers weren’t much interested in what I’ve learned, only in what I could do in practice. If you graduate from university, there is a big gap between theory and practice. Everything is just so theoretical and practice is very often neglected. Therefore I often felt – and still do – that studies aren’t properly preparing you for the job market, a deficit that people who complete job training might not have. Of course, I’ve done internships, so it’s not that I don’t have any experience. But to be honest, the things that I’ve learned and that were really useful for me, such as film analysis, handling literature correctly and writing scientific texts, well, I probably could have learned them in 1,5 years. Add another six months of exercise in a company to that and I think studying would be more effective. But instead students spent years in their ivory tower.

I wrap things up to get to a point and to answer your question. A positive experience for me was definitely that I’ve learned things about myself:

- I like lectures, but I like it even more to consume art or to make art myself rather than to analyze it.
- I’m very lazy and an academic path simply wouldn’t right for me. So I’m glad that lies behind me.
- I’m not sure if studying itself was worth it because I could have accomplished the same knowledge differently and probably more effectively if I had done a job training instead.




Mmh, so many things to choose from...

1) I just finished my PhD in astrophysics (and I mean just finished: I defended my dissertation last week).

Congrats :bolian:.

3) People get strange vibes around me: they tell me I'm charming, helpful, well-mannered, and always polite to a point. Still, many people feel uncomfortable around me. "Crawling-with-willies" uncomfortable. I still don't know what to make of that. I guess I should start to describe myself as a man of wealth and taste.

Have people actually told you that? Have they never given you a reason why they feel uncomfortable?




I've had a year of "general film making" education. During it you where able to go trough the whole process on several projects in different sizes. I was already interested in editing when I started and from the second project forwards I was the editing guy in whatever group I was in.

Then your qualification isn't bad.

So I shut myself in the editing room for a month and finished the damn thing as much I could. When I finished it still wasn't what I wanted it to be and I would have needed someone who knew audio way better then me, but I'd impressed the hell out of a lot of fellow students and the teachers.

Well, yeah, that is pretty impressive. It shows that you care about your work and that you can work really hard. It's not a bad condition if you really want to be an editor.


What I was most happy with from the entire education and liked doing most was a little commercial film project. And it's the only one I have on the tube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcAXX-Mu8n8

I liked that commercial :lol:. I like Wasa ;).


And I've pretty much used up what I had in student loans. Plus right now we're in some pretty bad shape financially in our family so I don't have any choice and need to stay at the one badly paying job I have. In fact I'm become more and more convinced that my purpose in life is to make sure that my brother has a place to stay so that he can get to school easily, that he keeps doing what he wants to do and gets a good education so that he can have a shot at life. Because at 25 I seriously doubt I'll ever get to work with something I actually like or that pays anything decent.

Well, I know how you feel, believe me. I'm older and still struggeling. Sometimes I think about giving up, but then there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Your situation might not be great at the moment, that doesn't mean things will change. If you really care about becoming an editor you should go for it. Find a way. Maybe you can't do it right away and maybe it takes a few more years. But why shouldn't you be able to do something that you really want to do?




2. I have read 1023 books and 755 magazine articles since 1989 (I actually keep a notebook of everything I have read).

I was wondering why you write everything you read down? Do you want to keep track of all your books?




1. I recently found out that I'm lactose intolerant, which explains some of the IBS symptoms I've had for years.

I've got a friend with the same problem but I could never figure out how it actually affects her life other than that she needs special milk and ice-cream. How is it like, if you don't mind me asking?

3. I'm an intern at Zoic Studios, as seen in my location (yes, the Firelfy and BSG guys); they're currently doing V, CSI and others...and I've seen Things. Awesome Things. I also wrote and am producing our intern visual effects project, under the tutelage of the producers and artists there. :techman:

That's very cool :).


EDIT: I finally figured the multi-quote thing out :biggrin:.
 
1) I just finished my PhD in astrophysics (and I mean just finished: I defended my dissertation last week).
Congrats on your PhD! That is a major accomplishment...the stress was incredible I'll wager.
Congrats!
I have a friend who is where you were three weeks ago. Has it been as soul crushing for you as it is for her?
Thanks to both! Well, it has been really stressful and overwhelming, yes. I submitted my thesis for revision in December, I received the comments in January and I had three weeks for revising the final draft and prepare my oral defence. I hardly slept for that time, due to the workload and the sheer pressure of that. After I finished my defence, I was so exhausted I slept two hours in my car it before I could drive home. I wonder what people thought seeing a smartly dressed guy sleeping in his car at 5pm. :lol:
However, I can only say it was worth it: I wanted it, I worked my ass for years to get there, and now it feels very, very good. So Me-Ike, hold tight and take care!

Thanks to all the others, too!


iguana_tonante said:
3) People get strange vibes around me: they tell me I'm charming, helpful, well-mannered, and always polite to a point. Still, many people feel uncomfortable around me. "Crawling-with-willies" uncomfortable. I still don't know what to make of that. I guess I should start to describe myself as a man of wealth and taste.
Have people actually told you that? Have they never given you a reason why they feel uncomfortable?
Not directly. They told someone that told me afterwards. It happened more than once, in different social circles. Reasons cited varied: some people said that they thought I was being too nice to be true, and they were left wondering what I really wanted from them, and if I got it or not. Others were uncomfortable because I stared too directly into their eyes, and listened too intently to what they said, as if searching for something (I guess people are not accustomed to being payed attention anymore!) Others complained I was being overly articulate and they felt I was belittling them (I wasn't: I just speak like that). Lastly, some people were unsettled because I was very polite but somehow cold, always thinking about things logically and never letting emotions get the best of me, rarely laughing or rising my voice, and never touching people when speaking with them (in Italy we are somehow more touchy-feely than in English-speaking countries). To put it in a Star Trek perspective, I guess you can impute it to being a Spock in a place full of McCoys. :lol:
 
From that description you sound like a very interesting guy. I'd really like to meet you. :)
 
Do you also not like cucumber? I'd read that cucumbers are something that only a few people can really taste and those that can hate it :lol:
I don't mind cucumber - doesn't taste of very much at all, to me!

I quit a thirty-year smoking habit last year. And I never got any cravings. I was really glad about that...
Congratulations!
That is spectacular! Congratulations!! :bolian:
Genuinely wanting to stop instead of thinking I should stop was definitely the key.

:D
 
3. I'm an intern at Zoic Studios, as seen in my location (yes, the Firelfy and BSG guys); they're currently doing V, CSI and others...and I've seen Things. Awesome Things. I also wrote and am producing our intern visual effects project, under the tutelage of the producers and artists there. :techman:

I'm an artist in the games industry, so this makes us like professional cousins or something!


selina said:
I've got a friend with the same problem but I could never figure out how it actually affects her life other than that she needs special milk and ice-cream. How is it like, if you don't mind me asking?

I also recently discovered my lactose intolerance and once you know about it, it's pretty easy to manage. I buy lactose free milk (which tastes the same to me as normal milk) and can usually handle a small bit of cheese without incident, but given my love of cheese in general I just keep some enzyme supplement pills on hand. The worst part about it though is when I occasionally slip up and forget... then it's off to the bathroom!
 
Hmmm, okay. I am a very, very odd person. I'll share these three things, which I imagine will sound very, very weird. I don't usually share them, but everyone else has been som open, so here goes:

The first thing, and something that people don't understand until I tell them, is that my memory in regards to emotionally-charged events, reactions, thoughts, etc, is constant. If there is a strong emotional response involved, that event, that moment, that conversation, whatever, becomes burned into my mind and is always there. I never lose it or get over it; it's a permanent part of my conscious memory. Everything embarrassing, painful, joyful, or in any other way intense is always with me in the moment. I don't know anyone else who has admitted to this, but to me it's part of reality. Even my close friends get a little creeped out sometimes because I'll say something, eg. that I know they don't particularly like this actor but--and they'll interrupt and ask how I knew that. Did they mention it recently? I'll tell them they mentioned it in passing three or four years ago, and they'll be surprised that I remembered something so small and pointless after such a length of time. But I didn't remember it- because I never put it away in the first place. I can't remember it, because it never left. I'm still in that moment from three or four years ago, because it was associated with a significant emotional response. I'm still in a multitude of moments. I can never escape my past and my present; it's just part of the way I work. In a sense, I am a broken record ;), yet one that can be added to as well, each new song playing over but never obscuring the last. This also makes me fear rejection by others- I know that to me feeling is eternal. If I share a laugh with you, or feel a surge of friendship, love or appreciation for you, that is eternal. It can never leave. Friendship is for life, even when it ends. But other people are inconstant. I don't know if I can trust their loyalty the way they can trust mine.

Second, I can sense a great variety of energy fields other people can't, something I learnt from painful experience. For example, a phone held by a once classmate released a "pulse" of energy of some kind- something beyond most people's EM sensory range, I don't know- and I recoiled from it, only to have it said that no-one else had felt it. I can't use mobile phones or microwave ovans because they cause me pain- I can, I've realizeed, sense microwaves, something I'm pretty sure most people can't. Every electronic device pours energy into me, leading me to become "clogged" if I spend too much time on it. I can feel the fields around living creatures- bioelectrical energy or what, I'm not sure- as well as how these fields interact. To me "life-energy", whatever it is, isn't mysticism but reality. I can even sense my own life energy, my own fields, and how they expand and contract, grow thinner and tighter or wider and looser, how they retreat into my body, hugging tight to my nervous system, or move out through my body to hang in the air around me (which feels much more comfortable). Sometimes I can even "mold" these fields and manipulate them with my own will, just as I can move my body as I will. When I feel strong emotion, I feel it as a pulse moving through me and out of me. I know everyone gets "shivers down their spines" but for me the effect is far more pronounced. When there are large crowds of people sharing a mood, that energy "hangs" in the air, and sometimes- if it's intense enough among other factors- I can feel that. Thunderstorms, by the way, give me intense headaches until I learn to "filter" them out and "switch frequency".

Third, I feel empty. There's a gap in my energy field inside my chest, an emptiness, a null, that can on occasion (okay, twice in the last six years for five minutes each time) be filled up, but the filling then leaks away. It is always there, just...empty. I had a dream at age 12 in which I died (bad times for me, and I nearly killed myself). I have no way of knowing this, and I hesitate to say this because it is not rational (and I don't believe in that which I cannot sense and experience for myself- fortunately I can sense a lot ;)), but, "deep inside" (excuse the rather :rolleyes: terms I'm using!) I have a feeling that it is where my soul used to be. I say "used to be" because if there is such a thing (and I am not religious so I couldn't define it for you other than as a nebulous concept), I lost it at age 12. I didn't die physically, or mentally, or emotionally, but in some sense I died, and I'm hollow.
 
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Not directly. They told someone that told me afterwards. It happened more than once, in different social circles. Reasons cited varied: some people said that they thought I was being too nice to be true, and they were left wondering what I really wanted from them, and if I got it or not. Others were uncomfortable because I stared too directly into their eyes, and listened too intently to what they said, as if searching for something (I guess people are not accustomed to being payed attention anymore!) Others complained I was being overly articulate and they felt I was belittling them (I wasn't: I just speak like that). Lastly, some people were unsettled because I was very polite but somehow cold, always thinking about things logically and never letting emotions get the best of me, rarely laughing or rising my voice, and never touching people when speaking with them (in Italy we are somehow more touchy-feely than in English-speaking countries). To put it in a Star Trek perspective, I guess you can impute it to being a Spock in a place full of McCoys. :lol:

You're an Englishman in an Italian's body - emigrate!
 
Well, I know how you feel, believe me. I'm older and still struggeling. Sometimes I think about giving up, but then there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Your situation might not be great at the moment, that doesn't mean things will change. If you really care about becoming an editor you should go for it. Find a way. Maybe you can't do it right away and maybe it takes a few more years. But why shouldn't you be able to do something that you really want to do?
It's just that it's been like this for several years now. I'm a constant bother to my parents since I can't seem to manage to earn enough money to support myself, I have terrible self esteem and hence no love life for a long time, and now that I'm finally 25 and can start being taken seriously in the work market (since apparently you grow up when you're turn 25), there's no jobs! It's the perpetual unrelenting feeling that I can not and will not ever catch a break, that my meaning in life is to try and help my family out as much as I can until everyone else is successful and at point I'll probably be too old to change my life.

I've part by part given up what I want. First I realized after my latest relationship that I can not read other people to safe my life and it's likely that I'll never have meaningful relationship, not to mention a family (also I've always thought that if I where to have kids, I would want to be pretty young so that my life is not over when the kids move out, but current financial ditch would make getting kids impossible for several years even if I had a partner who wanted them as well). Fine, at least I can work with what I want. When I started my education it was before the crisis and it was the consensus from the teachers at the school that if you worked hard, you would be very likely to be able to get a job after the education was over. When we where done at the start of last summer it was obvious that that was not the case. Fine, I can deal, I just want to be able to afford my Camaro, to buy it new before affordable muscle cars disappear again. And now it looks like that might now happen either. Since if I do get a job, I have A LOT of debts to pay off before I can even conceive (or stomach) saving up for something big like that.

And I've tried getting projects off the ground with a friend of mine from film school, but my creativity is failing me. And she has less and less time as she's continuing an education, and she actually has a life of her own that functions, even have a great boyfriend that's great for her finally, and I don't want to ruin her life with mine.

My mom said to the other day on the phone that the things they're doing right is to lay the groundwork for the future. So that things will work out eventually. I just wanted to laugh since honestly can't see a future. At least not for me. Seriously, I often feel that why I haven't killed myself is simply because we can't afford it. Especially since it seems we will have to deal another funeral within a year with either my grandmother or grandfather.
 
1. I recently found out that I'm lactose intolerant, which explains some of the IBS symptoms I've had for years.

I've got a friend with the same problem but I could never figure out how it actually affects her life other than that she needs special milk and ice-cream. How is it like, if you don't mind me asking?.

Gassy. Really, I just take a bunch of lactate pils before I eat a lot of dairy and things are fine. But I don't do much milk and the like these days anymore because of how inconvenient (and expensive) that is. The last gallon of milk I had went bad with 3/4 of the jug still full.
 
1) I'm really a Parisian elitist :lol:
2) I had a lonely and not very funny childhood
3) I have studied biology and it bores me.
 
[yt]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3Y9nT1jwuo[/yt]

I think this forum's actually where I saw this first... :D
 
I think I was the one who posted it :)
There is a whole serie (in French) of funny videos like that ;)
 
Oy, do share! I'm supposed to be learning French, might as well incentivize by watching entertaining type things.. (oh wait, most native humor flies right over my head :shifty: )
 
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