Mental Wellness Support Group

[rredmond]

Ever have those days when you feel like a useless waste of space because you just can’t do anything?

Yup I have, but then to be able to gather together your strengths and resources and lovingly deal with:

Thank god for the hour long tirade of physical and verbal abuse from my autistic child keeping my stress levels up, I was almost starting to feel positive. Phew.

Truly amazing. More strength than I have! I hope you have more up times than not, but just wanted to note that what you can do and what you've been doing, is impressive. Thank you for it and thank you for sharing. I do wish you some, extremely well-deserved, peace and positivity... soon!

 

[Butters]

Yup I have, but then to be able to gather together your strengths and resources and lovingly deal with:

Truly amazing. More strength than I have! I hope you have more up times than not, but just wanted to note that what you can do and what you've been doing, is impressive. Thank you for it and thank you for sharing. I do wish you some, extremely well-deserved, peace and positivity... soon!

Thank you, that helps.

 

[Sibyl]

Ever have those days when you feel like a useless waste of space because you just can’t do anything?

Pile of laundry, needs folding and putting away. Won’t take long.

Lego on the living room floor. Could pick it up and put in the kids bedroom where it belongs. Only five minutes work, and I could vacuum.

Could water the veg, it’s nice outside.

Could write, that is a passion after all.

Watch TV, I’ve got access to pretty much everything.

Read a book. Prepare dinner, Anything! But just can’t.

This is depression, my way.

Everything you listed. This is a daily struggle for me.

That piece of paper on my floor. I should pick that up and throw it in the trash. It's bothering me.

Eh...I'll do it later...I guess.

Bothersome or not. Passion or not. Nothing matters and yet everything that we can't get done matters all the more and brings us further down because we can't accomplish anything.

I hope you're able to get out more. I became a hermit for over a decade. I was too afraid to walk out my front door.

I did when absolutely necessary, but not otherwise.

 

[KimMH]

So glad to see you back Scribble! (((Hugs)))

 

[think]

Everything you listed. This is a daily struggle for me.

That piece of paper on my floor. I should pick that up and throw it in the trash. It's bothering me.

Eh...I'll do it later...I guess.

Bothersome or not. Passion or not. Nothing matters and yet everything that we can't get done matters all the more and brings us further down because we can't accomplish anything.

I hope you're able to get out more. I became a hermit for over a decade. I was too afraid to walk out my front door.

I did when absolutely necessary, but not otherwise.

yeah but now I am getting out... more so to go to the buddhist meetings and such IDK ...they are friendly enough people.

(the rant)
//don't worry ... never worry cause nothing is of any matter you know.//

as for this medication change I might start complaining about it.. yeah does nothing any difference if I complain or not so yeah after 35 years of psych meds all the time can't be without or I do things wrong 000 I am getting the tardi discon-----tardive dyskinesia that I can't even spell but know all to well what it is... it is like sucks.. when I put my hands together to pray they shake .. I feel weird and all shaking hands at a Buddhist meeting damn. IDK I am now praying that it would stop but it keeps going on damn... missed the dr/therapist appointment due to the new meds making me absurdly tired... that I can't wake up.. and go nope had to cancle cause the meds... this is fed up...

I slept for midnite yesterday till 9pm about what am i to do... ? I complain and it is new meds that rob me of any type of life worth living but it has always been that way...life is never worth living and really sucks heck I was suicidal for 40 years not any more I don't know why not because life still sucks but I think so what ...so what. maybe a hospital stay.. would not solve anything they would not let me sleep OH and that would really make me suicidal not being able to sleep ... so what there is nobody that can help in or out of the hospital or anywhere really --- and so what... I have never trusted anyone and I am not going to.. after my parents and grandparents locked me a a closet for who knows how long.. over and over cause they were so high not to know ... any way thinking is overrated to begin with... and being addicted sucks just as much as always shaking tardi like.

https://www.ted.com/talks/rick_doblin_the_future_of_psychedelic_assisted_psychotherapy

https://www.ted.com/talks/rick_dobl...ad&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=tedcomshare

I want to watch this ted talk but won't because I am so damn addicted to psychedelics like overly obsessed where like ocd and addictiver personality disorder do not come close to describing = how addicted I am.. but again ... so what maybe I will watch it in a free moment that does not exist.

 

[KimMH]

(((Hugs)))

-kim

 

[think]

(((((KIM))))) hugs back.. ===

 

[KimMH]

(((((KIM))))) hugs back.. ===

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Thank you, friend. Today has been much better for me and I hope the same for you.

 

[think]

growth is key to evolve into what is Now ... I am proud to be alive right now .. no matter how hard it gets how much my fingers miss keys and shake I am totally proud of who I am and that I am still alive. more then surviving it is like layers of Buddhas in the air helping me.

 

[Butters]

Thinking about the old adage that with genius comes madness, I can’t help but wonder how attitudes toward mental health would be different if it we’re acknowledged that only thick people are sane.

 

[Butters]

I was having a positive day yesterday, but I’m a mess again today. My therapeutic activity, gardening, is itself causing me stress because I can’t bring myself to go to the allotment.

 

[KimMH]

I was having a positive day yesterday, but I’m a mess again today. My therapeutic activity, gardening, is itself causing me stress because I can’t bring myself to go to the allotment.

I’m sorry to hear that your place of refuge has become otherwise.

 

[think]

when I get mindful and not too in the moment to be full of myselves I like ... relax and think about the empty .. the hollow.. like these words have meaning but what is empty or the lack of substance.. voids of infinite nature.. sometimes it gets so deep --- I step out of myselves and look at what I am..

Am I me? are you who you are? does anything matter..

So what is matterful and pleasant like a flower. well can I go further into the nothingness of "mind" or should the emptiness be absolute and free.. I would talk to the garden plants and ask them to grow I thought I heard the boss at the nursery I worked calling the psych ward? IDK it was not that loud and my mind plays tricks like that on me... the moment of time is a window to the kings of souls and open for us to "observe" by not observing.

I went deep ==== doing a med change in all around possibles = can lead to --- the deeper beingness..

 

[Butters]

Depression and anxiety. To a casual observer, I’m just being lazy, but I can’t do the simplest of things. Things that need to be done, easy things, important, but easy, and all the more difficult.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m bored and need to do something, but there’s nothing to do, except virtually anything I can imagine, money permitting. Nothing appeals.

 

[Delta Vega]

Depression and anxiety. To a casual observer, I’m just being lazy, but I can’t do the simplest of things. Things that need to be done, easy things, important, but easy, and all the more difficult.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m bored and need to do something, but there’s nothing to do, except virtually anything I can imagine, money permitting. Nothing appeals.

I feel your pain
My therapy is my guitars
Today they are eyeing me up from the corner but I can't bring myself to play them

 

[Gary Mitchell]

Depression and anxiety. To a casual observer, I’m just being lazy, but I can’t do the simplest of things. Things that need to be done, easy things, important, but easy, and all the more difficult.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m bored and need to do something, but there’s nothing to do, except virtually anything I can imagine, money permitting. Nothing appeals.

I feel your pain
My therapy is my guitars
Today they are eyeing me up from the corner but I can't bring myself to play them

I hope you're both having a better day today.

 

[KimMH]

when I get mindful and not too in the moment to be full of myselves I like ... relax and think about the empty .. the hollow.. like these words have meaning but what is empty or the lack of substance.. voids of infinite nature.. sometimes it gets so deep --- I step out of myselves and look at what I am..

Am I me? are you who you are? does anything matter..

So what is matterful and pleasant like a flower. well can I go further into the nothingness of "mind" or should the emptiness be absolute and free.. I would talk to the garden plants and ask them to grow I thought I heard the boss at the nursery I worked calling the psych ward? IDK it was not that loud and my mind plays tricks like that on me... the moment of time is a window to the kings of souls and open for us to "observe" by not observing.

I went deep ==== doing a med change in all around possibles = can lead to --- the deeper beingness..

All the hugs Bill.

 

[think]

All the hugs Bill.

Hugs back.... going to be at a hugger meeting tonight.. everyone hugs not drugs

 

[think]

So associative neural regeneration via stem cells seems all too possible.

 

[KimMH]

Google says Johns Hopkins Hospital is researching it so it's not a passing fad- hope it leads to some great breakthroughs and real therapies!