If you need more sun, I would consider moving out here to Az, we have plenty of it to go around, and we don't do daylight savings time here, so that's not an issue. So one minor possible complication came up during my telehealth assessment today, and it was something I had heard about before. The woman who did it wasn't sure if any of their psychiatrists did the autism testing for adults, and if they don't have in that group, they'll have to find somebody outside of the group who does. I had heard about people having trouble getting diagnosed as an adult, so I had been afraid of this.
Mayo is out in Phoenix. Have you tried them? You might have to go on a waiting list, but they're top notch.
I bought one of the therapy lights and the second year I lost the plug and I've refused to get rid it and buy a new one ever since because they are expensive and I'm sure I'll find it as soon as I buy a replacement. Might bit the bullet this year. I'm already spending so much money with the house what's a few bucks more. I wish those Philips sunlight wake up lights doubled as therapy lights but they don't seem too. I put in some of the wiz lights in my bedroom since I don't have space or power for beside lamps and they have sunrise wake up function but it is quite sudden and jarring, not the slow fade of the dedicated lamps. Probably purposely so to make you buy both.
Yeah, I actually went to Mayo for some medical issue I had as a teenage, but for now I'm trying to stick to people my primary care is sending me too, I've been pretty happy with the people they've sent to for medical issues.
I'm on disability and the CDR reviews that Social Securty has me to do every 3-5 years always makes me nervous .
Interesting research on unstructured play. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/unstructured-play-is-critical-to-child-development/ https://www.psychologytoday.com/int...earch-shows-why-kids-need-play-for-mental?amp
Today was a mix of stress and hope, in the morning I got a call from work that I have furlough, AGAIN! I don't want to have to have furlough, furlough means less money and means I have to wait to the end of the month to put in a paper to my union and get that money mid next month! And my rent is due on Monday, I asked my mom and my grandfather to send their monthly allowance today instead of the end of the month so I can have the money by Monday. I'll also have my paycheck then, hopefully it will be enough to pay my rent.
It's ok to just feel what you feel. Sometimes words are useless in that endeavor. Art though can be helpful.
Had a break down today after an emotional night/morning with the girlfriend thanks to my issues from my past relationship. Then 5 hours of shopping and several thousand dollars spent and a re-examination of my moving budget and how much work I still have to do and how much I still need to pay for and how every weekend now until Jan is already booked. And on top of that a lot of weeknights are booked and stuff going on during the days, plus the legal stuff with the houses former owners. And how more and more work is being piled on me at work. And the time change and it's going to be dark so early. And the week vacation next month that seems like more work than it's worth with everything going on. And I'm turning 40 next month. There's so much. Feeling overwhelmed and hateing my house and the move and all the stress and it was just too much. Not a big breakdown but a little one nonetheless. Not even something I can take one of my pills for. There's some anxiety but it's not the majority. It's more being overwhelmed and depressed. Just feeling deeply unhappy. Not like I used too a few years ago but just feeling so bad. Like I want to vomit up all my insides.
I talked to the people who are handling all of my autism stuff yesterday and the guy who they found a doctor who does do evaluations for adults with autism, but only as a second opinion so I have to do another evaluation over Zoom with someone else before I can go see him in person. This whole thing just keeps getting more and more complicated.
As frustrating as all of this is, I can see not wanting to make it too easy, so you don't get everybody trying to go on disability over every little thing.