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I don't think I have multiple-personality disorder!

Jayson

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Have you ever had your personality feel submerged and it's like another person takes over? This happens to me sometimes and what's scary is I like it because the girl I become is more confident and less afraid of things than I me.

I mean I still have my memories and it's not quite as potent as when I went of my med's but I sometimes don't feel like me if that makes any sense.It's like I am there but not there as well.

Jason
 
Then stop taking your crazy pills and become the strong woman you're supposed to be. Or, stop taking your crazy pills, cover yourself in your own feces (or the feces of a loved on), run into traffic, then light yourself on fire.

In either case, be sure to tell us all about it.
 
That actually sounds quite a bit like a dissociative disorder.
MPD is a dissociative disorder -- an extreme one. Jayson, there's no way for anyone here to tell you, you just have to be sure you're talking to your doctors about everything. Did you find good doctors with whom you're comfortable? I remember you were having some trouble with that before.

My mom has MPD -- there was even a documentary made about my family when I was a kid. It's a rare condition.
 
Have you ever had your personality feel submerged and it's like another person takes over? This happens to me sometimes and what's scary is I like it because the girl I become is more confident and less afraid of things than I me.

I mean I still have my memories and it's not quite as potent as when I went of my med's but I sometimes don't feel like me if that makes any sense.It's like I am there but not there as well.

Jason


Were you ever sexually abused? That is usually a pre-condition for having MPD.
 
No I wasn't sexually abused but I didn't have a happy childhood. I know I spent along time also ashamed of things like me liking girls. I remember the first time I told my mom I liked girls when I was a kid I actually cried and felt dirty.

I do think it's dissociative disorder though but not multiple-personality disorder because it's not like I entirely become a new person so much as I become a female version of myself. Then again I don't know what it's like to have multiple-personality disorder. It's like my hallucinations were not real hullicinations but more of my OCD thoughts become more tangible and I was interacting with someone I knew wasn't there but it felt like they were there on some level.

Jason
 
I must confess I'm confused about your sex, gender and orientation, Jayson. Not that it change anything. But in any event, if you feel something is different with your psyche, you should consult your psychiatrist, especially if you under medication. Sometimes the body chemistry changes slightly, and medication should be altered accordingly.
 
I already told my doctors and stuff. This is oneo f the reasons they wanted me to stay in them ental hospital for a few days.

I am white male,33 years old. I think I am bi-curious but to be honest even I am confused about my orientation. I prefer girls but I sometimes think about guys, even though I have never been sexually by a guy in reality.

Jason
 
Then stop taking your crazy pills and become the strong woman you're supposed to be. Or, stop taking your crazy pills, cover yourself in your own feces (or the feces of a loved on), run into traffic, then light yourself on fire.

In either case, be sure to tell us all about it.

That wasn't very polite now was it.
 
I am white male,33 years old. I think I am bi-curious but to be honest even I am confused about my orientation. I prefer girls but I sometimes think about guys, even though I have never been sexually by a guy in reality.
I assumed you were male based on your name, but then you told us about feeling like you were becoming a more confident girl, and that you were ashamed for feeling attracted to girls, and so I got confused. Thanks for answering and I apologize for being nosy. ;)
 
No I wasn't sexually abused but I didn't have a happy childhood. I know I spent along time also ashamed of things like me liking girls. I remember the first time I told my mom I liked girls when I was a kid I actually cried and felt dirty.

I do think it's dissociative disorder though but not multiple-personality disorder because it's not like I entirely become a new person so much as I become a female version of myself. Then again I don't know what it's like to have multiple-personality disorder. It's like my hallucinations were not real hullicinations but more of my OCD thoughts become more tangible and I was interacting with someone I knew wasn't there but it felt like they were there on some level.

Jason
I can't tell you how it feels to have MPD, but I can tell you, from growing up with someone who does have MPD, that what you're describing is not what it's like. When one of my mom's other personalities would "come out," that person would have complete control, and most often none of the other personalities would be aware of what was going on -- that's why one of the initial symptoms leading to diagnosis of MPD is lost time. Each personality was distinct and not just a different version of her, like you are describing yours to be. Her voice would change, even her vision would change, so that some needed glasses and some didn't.
 
Her voice would change, even her vision would change, so that some needed glasses and some didn't.
Since I'm still in a nosy mood, how is this even possible? The eyes were the same. Personality changes should not cure nearsightedness. I hope my question is not too intrusive and you don't mind talking about that.
 
^ Perhaps there are processing differences in the brain? There appears to be some mental effect on visual acuity; I don't know if the mechanism(s) are known.
 
Her voice would change, even her vision would change, so that some needed glasses and some didn't.
Since I'm still in a nosy mood, how is this even possible? The eyes were the same. Personality changes should not cure nearsightedness. I hope my question is not too intrusive and you don't mind talking about that.

^ Perhaps there are processing differences in the brain? There appears to be some mental effect on visual acuity; I don't know if the mechanism(s) are known.
More or less this, from my understanding. The brain processes information differently. Different chemicals are in different levels of imbalance with each personality that manifests.

The eyes don't really change, but their connection to the brain does. Hell, your entire immune system can be affected. One personality could be weak and ill while another could be a marathon runner.
 
^Precisely. She also had FMRI's and other brain scans which showed that at least one of her alters had brain damage, while others did not.
 
Have you ever had your personality feel submerged and it's like another person takes over? This happens to me sometimes and what's scary is I like it because the girl I become is more confident and less afraid of things than I me.

I mean I still have my memories and it's not quite as potent as when I went of my med's but I sometimes don't feel like me if that makes any sense.It's like I am there but not there as well.

Jason
Sounds to me like you're bisexual.
 
Have you ever had your personality feel submerged and it's like another person takes over? This happens to me sometimes and what's scary is I like it because the girl I become is more confident and less afraid of things than I me.

I mean I still have my memories and it's not quite as potent as when I went of my med's but I sometimes don't feel like me if that makes any sense.It's like I am there but not there as well.

Jason
Sounds to me like you're bisexual.

That's very possible but I only seem to become a girl, when I am in great mental stress. I find it comforting to not be me and there times when I try and become myself again but it's hard to do because it's scary being inside my brain. I like being able to escape from it. I hate myself and I always feel sucidal or the need to be mistreated or abused as punishment since my OCD thoughts make me feel like a bad person.

Jason
 
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