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ENT: Vulcan for...

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As galactic chance would have it, at roughly the same moment that Commander Charles Tucker III of the Enterprise found himself begrudgingly removing his shirt for the first neuropressure session with T’Pol; his long lost counterpart found his T’Pol sleeping soundly against his body the next morning. It was early still. They had managed to make their way into the shelter last night amidst their rising passions as the night grew colder. Outside, Trip could see the haze of twilight still over the endless sea. To wake meant stirring T’Pol and facing the reality of what transpired between them last night, but to sleep longer meant pulling her closer and kissing her lips as she slept. Trip smiled and eagerly chose the latter.

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Sixty Years Ago



“Papa’s home, papa’s home!”

T’Les turned from pruning the tirnuk on the far side of the garden to see her husband climbing the final stair to the front of their home. He crossed the archway that crowned the threshold from the rock Vulcan soil outside their property to the fertile ground of the gardens. T’Les frowned at her daughter’s behavior and set her clippers down as she approached the pair to admonish her daughter’s outburst. And that illogical Earth-name.

A man was revealed behind Sovek as he turned to one side and T’Les regarded him from the distance with guarded distrust. She watched as her four year old daughter went scampering up to her father, harms stretched out wide. The girl’s fair brown hair and abnormally expressive tendencies were clearly derived from her father.

Sovek fell from his usually large stature to catch his daughter just as she came crashing into him, nearly knocking the middle-aged Vulcan off his balance. It was enough to turn his already upturned lips into almost a full smile. His restraint held as his wife approached with a look of mild reproach while the colleague behind him looked on with poorly hidden disgust. His daughter smiled as she hugged him but when the man behind her father came into view, she gasped in exaggerated fear and her cheeks turned pale. Sovek patted her helmet-cut chestnut brown hair and looked up at his wife.

“It is agreeable to see you,” he told her, mustering an even and emotionless voice. She nodded and saluted his company with her fingers wide. T’Pol pulled herself from her father’s chest, the momentary fear of the man behind him forgotten as she turned back to her mother with a look of sheer glee. A tiny smile begged on Sovek’s lips, withheld only by the recollection of his company. His colleague, an older Vulcan with severe eyes glared disapprovingly at the openness of affection their daughter showed and her clear lack of emotional discipline. The young children on Vulcan were less stoic than their parents until undergoing formal training in their teenage years, but T’Pol was more expressive than most. Her father often proved ineffectual at discouraging such behavior, though in truth the fault of her behavior was his.

He set her down and looked into her brown eyes with a smile in his eyes, though his lips became flat and impassive. Sovek rose and turned to his colleague, who still glared at the raucous child. For an instant Sovek’s eyes became harder and his jaw became rigid. As if by mention, his colleague, V’Las, turned to him.

“Good day, Councilor V’Las,” Sovek bid the man a short farewell with a slight edge. V’Las nodded, turning a sharp eye on T’Les for an instant as he turned and walked from their home.

“T’Pol, you are aware that is an unacceptable way to greet your father,” T’Les admonished the young girl. She looked up at her mother’s dark eyes, the mirror of her own, and cast her gaze down to the red brick beneath her feet.

“I know…” she muttered guiltily. Her father came to her rescue as T’Les regarded her severely

“T’Pol, why don’t you go inside and begin preparing the mid-day meal? I know how you enjoy peeling the kasa, and if your mother consents,” he peered down at T’Les with a hint of pleading.

“Perhaps we will take Tikosh for a walk through the Round Hills after the meal?” T’Les blinked but before she could respond, the girl’s smile exploded from her lips. Her trim brown hair fluttering behind her, she made a run for the kitchen door with her robes slinking about her tiny feet. The tiny girl turned to grin at her mother as she neared the house and she tripped as the robe fell underfoot. She collapsed forward, splitting her lip on the edge of the walkway leading into the home. T’Les gasped, losing most of her carefully constructed reserve and hurriedly moved to her daughter’s side. Sovek followed close behind. A smudge of green blood and gravel peppered the girl’s lip, her eyes watering but withholding their tears. T’Les came to her side, sensing the child’s safety through their empathic connection. She watched proudly as T’Pol wiped her lip with professional detachment and straightened her robes, endeavoring to mimic the discipline with which she was taught to treat injury and pain.

“Are you unhurt, mi-kan? ” her father asked, instinctively. She nodded proudly, pulling a large clump of the satin robes into her face to wipe her eyes. T’Les frowned at the use of her robes as a tissue but did not rebuke her. She stroked the child’s hair before gently squeezing T’Pol’s shoulders and turning to her husband. T’Pol turned and ran into the house with equal vigor as before, her injury long forgotten.

T’Les sighed as if a great weight had been lifted but her face showed only displeasure as she paced towards the large fountain that lie in the center of the large, botanical garden. Her husband followed silently, folding his hands within his robes. He approached her cautiously; unsure of the trouble he was in this time. She often disapproved of his leniency with T’Pol, allowing her to act on her emotions openly with him. He did not allow it when they were in public or with guests (save this afternoon’s incident), however, T’Les knew that a pattern of behavior was easy to establish and difficult to break. When she turned to confront him, Sovek was sure he was to face another scolding for his encouragement of T’Pol’s emotional expressionism.

“You were supposed to be home last week,” T’Les said, turning finally to face him. Her face was impassive but Sovek read the features that only a bondmate could. Her eyes softened as he approached and their fingers met. The gesture was deceptively reticent, waves of emotion flowing empathically from one to the other. Only in this sanctioned, secret way could T’Les confront the powerful attraction she still had for Sovek after three decades of marriage.

After several moments she let her fingers fall away from his and paced away from him, keeping her eyes from him as she must to maintain the strength of will to scold her husband.

“You spend too much time on Earth,” she said distantly, turning her eyes towards the house. He turned to face her but she continued to avoid his face.

“It is my job,” he replied defensively, tilting his head. She looked up doubtfully at him.

“You grow too much like them. Others have seen it as well; your colleagues at the Ministry will not tolerate it. Counselor V’Las may be reporting you at this very moment for T’Pol’s behavior. Your fascination with humanity is illogical, and it is affecting our daughter. You treat her like a human child, and she is beginning to act like one!” T’Les replied, her voice quivering with shaky control as she angered. He approached to consol her and her face hardened as if to resist.

“It will only be more difficult for her to master control of her emotions when her training begins. As you know it must,” she insisted, as if it were not the first time she had done so.

“T’Les, ashayam, I care deeply for our daughter, as you do, and I will not hide that. Regardless of what the Ministry thinks, I must be true to myself and my family.” He replied with a hint of reluctance.

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The red soil beneath their feet lightened as they approached the valley. The sun-swept sand of the Round Hills, unprotected by the shadow of rock shielding their approach, blazed hot yellow under the Vulcan sun. T’Les wore thin, light orange robes with darker red sashes and inner layers. Sovek wore a traditional male Vulcan robe: gold outer layers and inner clothes the color of the typical dusty orange sky. T’Pol ran ahead of her parents who strolled slowly at each other’s side. The short-haired girl chased Tikosh her young, pet Sehlat as she bounded up the dunes. Tikosh was the great grand-daughter of Sovek’s pet Sehlat when he was a child. When domesticated, as the creatures in Tikosh’s family line had been for many generations, were fiercely loyal and protective creatures. Sovek and T’Les often entrusted Tikosh with T’Pol’s life and let her play outside their isolated home together often. Wild sehlats were under control in most areas of the planet by tagging and satellite tracking to ensure the dangerous creatures did not attack people. However, Sovek and T’Les’ home lie outside the populated areas and at times, pilgrims and travelers were attacked by wild sehlat packs in such isolated areas.

When Tikosh tired of T’Pol’s endless chasing and capturing of her beloved pet, she fell back to trot side-by-side with Sovek who glanced down at the creature appreciatively. T’Pol followed moments later, circling her father who watched her from the corner of his sparkling eyes. She inserted herself between the two parents, mimicking their stoic appearance as she folded her fingers at the front of her robes, hoping to please her mother.

“Pa… Father, tell us about Earth again. Do the humans really have white hair? ” T’Pol asked professionally, as if she spoke on behalf of her mother as well – whose curious and displeased eyes followed her daughter. Sovek glanced at T’Les then at T’Pol.

“Yes, mi-kan. Many humans have a color of hair they call ‘blonde’. Do you not wish to know more of the Earth? Its blue sky, frigid northern climates, oceans, massive bodies of water containing countless thousands of organisms not found on Vulcan; as well as tropical rainforests unlike anything on our planet?” T’Pol wrinkled her brow curiously then turned to Sovek honestly.

“No, Father, I am more curious of the humans themselves,” she remarked as her mother had strained to teach her, with professional intonation. Sovek found T’Les’ displeased gaze on him again, as if to confirm her worst fears of Sovek’s influence on T’Pol.

“Professor Solkar says they do not harness emotions as we do. He says they are dangerous,” T’Pol recited her grandfather’s words.

“They are different from us, mi-kan. They do not suppress emotion, but rather embrace it. It has lead to great suffering and injustice in their planet’s history, much like the days of Surak. They recently suffered a great War that caused great loss of life,” he remarked solemnly. T’Pol looked up with sorrowful eyes, as if she felt grief for the humans rather than disgust. Pain like that which lurked still in the hearts of so many humans who lost loved ones in the Great War, sixteen light-years from the young Vulcan.

“And now? If they still war with one another, why do you go there? Are they dangerous?”

T’Les looked up in curiosity as her husband carefully formulated a response.

“They have built ships capable of interstellar travel, as Vulcan has. They have successfully made peace and unified previously warring nation-states. They live in peace now, so short a time after a great war.”

“But how can this be, Father? I thought Vulcans fought each other for hundreds of years after Surak taught logic to us.”

“Indeed we did, mi-kan. The humans show a perseverant spirit we Vulcans do not completely possess. They are a truly fascinating species,” he replied, looking down at her. She furrowed her young brow most curiously before turning back to her father.

“I believe I will visit there one day. I would like to meet one of these… ‘blonde’ humans,” she declared precociously. Sovek fought back the smile on his lips, in stark contrast to T’Les’ very displeased and disapproving frown.
 
Warning: The end of this chapter is a little graphic (hot) but in this writer's opinion it is more of a poetic nature than a lewd one.


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Chapter 6

Day 45

The next morning, Tucker awoke with a growling stomach. T’Pol was gone. Probably meditating, Tucker thought. As he dressed and walked the beach, he found her nowhere in sight. He was hardly alone, however. A slur of powerful and curiously vivid memories kept him constant company from the moment his eyes fluttered open. He had a lustful attraction for T’Pol the moment he saw her in decon for the first time and much more after their first argument - but never did he imagine those wild dreams crashing head-on with reality. He had been with a healthy number of women before, just none anything like T'Pol. Princess Kaaitama had been the most recent and one of the more tantalizing women to share his bed but none had ever aroused him so completely that sexual excitement didn’t even begin to describe it. Last night, he recalled, it was as if she irradiated him with her most basic desires and ignited his whole mind and body like a leaky plasma conduit and then BOOM.

He shook his head, dazed for a moment with all-too-lucid recollection. The undeniable physical evidence straining the Commander’s jumpsuit turned his cheeks pink. He urged his mind to wander, to give his male reaction a chance to rest after the previous night’s olympic decathalon.

The morning was warm so he wore only his blue undershirt and the shortened uniform, chopped off at the knees. As the weather began warming up, the full pant legs of his uniform simply didn’t fit the climate. He walked down the beach but did not find T’Pol meditating near her usual spot. Growing slightly concerned but mostly curious, he turned and headed instead for the shuttlepod crash-site, or what was left of it. He kept thinking about T’Pol and the way she lost it when they became intimate the night before. He wondered if it had something to do with Vulcans' supposedly sparse mating habits. Something about sex every seven years? She sure as hell acted like it'd been seven years. Maybe it gets pent up all that time. He couldn’t believe he was still talking about Vulcans doing this but the memory was clear. T'Pol was... Jesus! There wasn't a word for T'Pol last night!

Trouncing through the underbrush in search of T’Pol, he realized he was trying to rationalize T'Pol's behavior but it was pure guessing. He knew close to nothing about Vulcan relationships, and doubted anyone did. He frowned in frustration. There were so many questions for T’Pol to answer, and he knew that was exactly what drove her over the edge during their confrontation on the beach. It was no secret between them that she wasn't a fan of confronting feelings and emotions. At some point, Trip thought, she would have to learn how if they were going to… and suddenly he was confronted with a whole other problem. Goin’ to what?

He stopped and put his hands on his hips, looking around as if the argument going on in his head was in fact going on right in front of him. Goin’ to be together? Being alone on a deserted planet sure complicates things, what if it doesn’t work out? What are we gonna’ do, avoid each other for the rest of our lives? He couldn’t deny that this was going to be rocky, but he couldn’t just turn away from it, act like it never happened, go back to Commander Tucker and Sub-Commander T’Pol, two officers trapped on a deserted planet. He couldn’t go back to that. He wouldn’t.

T’Pol was… well, he couldn’t even define what she was. She was brilliant and meticulous about her work, and even kind and funny in her own way. She was curious and clever, patient but all the while firmly set in her convictions. And now he found she was capable of passion on levels he hadn’t dare dream. Not the same as human passion, no doubt about that, he admitted. How he would deal with years of locked up feelings in between explosions like last night, he wasn't sure. But she had her feelings and despite the walls that had to come crumbling down for it to happen, she expressed them. Does she ever…

She’s… the woman I’ve never known I always wanted. With a few quirks, he confessed. He certainly never thought he would find her. Least of all in a Vulcan, he chuckled. She's just so damn thick skinned all the time...

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There was no sign of T’Pol at the crash-site and Tucker was starting to worry. He headed back for the shelter and started to wonder what to say to her once he found her. Should I bring it up, or let her? He wondered if he put the ball in her court, would she play it or simply forget the whole thing ever happened?

and what happens then, just forget about it?

As he walked, he had time to consider all the questions he had, and realized that T’Pol probably had a lot on her mind as well. He was pretty sure that interrogating her probably wasn’t a good idea. He brooded over it all afternoon with no decision. Over lunch, she sat across the fire and payed attention only to her meal. He met her eyes only once or twice, but was sure there were words there, if not spoken directly. He would give her time to decide how she wanted to deal with how she felt if she does feel anything, and will own up to it, Trip thought worriedly.

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Sitting in the lotus position, T’Pol silently faced the sea as Tucker walked up from behind near evening. He stopped several paces behind her, watching as she stared off into the distance, somehow aware that she was no longer meditating alone. A calm breeze blew in from the ocean.

“Nice night,” he offered, squatting beside her. "Sky fulla' stars, warm air, ocean breeze..." he trailed off.

She turned to face him momentarily, sparing a few moments to look on the man of whom she now had intimate knowledge.

"...Beautiful company."

She looked back to the sea just as a particularly energetic tide rolled in and reached the edges of her bare feet. She drew them closer to her, as if for fear she would be washed away.

“Ya know you’d be a little more comfortable in lighter clothes, you could trim up that uniform,” he nodded at the full length uniform she still wore, minus boots. His voice hollow, unusual, and T’Pol blinked as she lost herself in thought.

“My present uniform is sufficient,” she replied mechanically. Her eyes darted sideways.

“Besides, it appears that your tailoring skills leave much to be desired,” she slighted him teasingly. She daringly baited Tucker and was rewarded with a bright grin as he chuckled at the unexpected joke. He fingered the irregularly torn tatters of his pant legs around the knee-level. A bit of anxiety melted away as he laughed, unknowingly under her steady gaze. He tossed sand about at his feet and leaned back on his palms. The ocean lapped at them once again and Tucker enjoyed the cool water running up his legs. He thought, for a moment, that if he stared far enough up at the stars and listened only to the slosh of the ocean, he might once again find himself on the friendly Gulf-coast shores. His fantasy encountered two problems: the stars were unfamiliar and alien, and secondly; he didn't want to part with his company.

But maybe take her to the beach sometime...

In that moment he turned to see T’Pol watching him, her head turned only slightly to the side. She looked away but not before taking in a final gaze of the man, unsure of where the next sea-born breeze would blow her.

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Day 46

The sun was quickly setting as it did every night, when Trip came jogging up the shoreline with a grin ear to ear. In one hand he held a thick-wooded rod fashioned into a fly pole with a long string dangling at the end. Tossing and flopping about on the end was an impressively large fish, nearly half a meter in length and six or seven centimeters wide. The fish was heavy and the sloshing of its weight caused Tucker’s run to bob side-to-side as he approached, comically struggling to keep his balance. A human woman might have mimicked his proud smile and laughed at his amusing entrance, however, T’Pol simply looked up from her notes and raised an eyebrow.

“I told ‘ya it’d work!” Tucker proclaimed proudly as he bounded up, gaining his balance as the fish finally expired, lying still on the end of the string. He sighed proudly and jaunted over to the supply crates. He returned with a large knife, taking his fish and his silly grin to a flat boulder sticking out of the sand only a few meters from their camp. To T’Pol’s surprise and revulsion, Tucker wasted no time and immediately tore into skinning, beheading and cleaning the fish. T’Pol turned away with smug disgust and made a point to breathe through her mouth.

“It would be unfortunate if that creature contained a hose of harmful toxins,” T’Pol mused aloud, looking up for an instant before returning to the electronic notes in front of her. She punched away at the Vulcan device while Trip looked up suddenly.

“You told me that thing says it’s safe to eat the fish,” Trip reminded her with lifted eyebrows. He threw his hands on his hips, and T’Pol looked up from her work briefly. She gave him a sparing nod, one intended to be brief and even a little curt, until she noticed for the first time he had returned from his fishing excursion bare-chested. The setting sun, at a right angle to Trip’s shirtless physique cast an orange glow across his face and pockets of shadow between his ruddy muscles, still shining with droplets of sea water. T’Pol nearly cursed Surak in a moment of unforgivable rapture delivered solely by the shocking sight. She gripped the tricorder unintentionally, nearly damaging it. She blinked and once again washed away the albeit enjoyable but most certainly un-acc-ept-able bout of arousal. The syllables, no matter how well annunciated in her mind felt no truer.

”Indeed. Vulcans are quite thorough and accurate. However, since we have evolved beyond devouring the flesh of other animals, assuring the safety of consuming the local marine life was likely not a priority of the survey mission,” she quipped, being sure to avoid looking back up at him as he inevitably smiled in return.

“Very funny,” he smirked, slashing into the fish with his blade. He sawed through the alien fish, amazed at how similar its insides looked to Small-Mouth Bass.

“Well if there’s one thing I’ve learned about Vulcans,” Trip mused, lowering his voice as if addressing the mangled fish. He paused, waiting to be sure he had her attention before continuing. Her eyes raised only slightly.

“It’s that you pay painstaking attention to detail. Damned annoying at times,” he mumbled into the wind, quite sure T’Pol would hear him. “I’m sure everything will turn out fine,” he replied aloud, looking up to stare T’Pol in the face. A smile crept into his features, illuminated by the setting sun as a parting orange ray streaked across his eyes, lighting them up.

“I’ll just have ‘ta take mah’ chances I guess,” he drawled, markedly trailing off.

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Day 47 - 0315 AM

The water lapped quietly against the bronze flesh that glowed under the empty sky. T’Pol sat on the beach a good distance from their shelter, near enough to feel the ocean tickle her toes. Legs tucked into her chest, she clutched them as if for dear life while feeling the tides within her much more powerfully. She watched the horizon quietly, rays of some strange phenomena dancing in the upper atmosphere, creating flourishing spirals of light that flattened and stretched like meteorites as they disappeared over the horizon. Their light was pale, and lit across the landscape like moonlight. As if she looked up from the bottom of some endless fishbowl while the Gods traced ripples in its surface, tinges of bluish-white light decorated the beaches for miles down the shore. Here and there the light crept up the curves of her body, rigid in form but flowing in spirit. The water slurped again, coolly rushing up past her toes.

She too, lapped the edges of an uncharted sea. The tempting images of a very nearby human companion painted a shoreline always out of reach, unending as it wrapped around her thoughts. Unending like the desire for his rolling caresses that teased her; unending like the torment each time she ebbed and then receded, more tempted each time to throw herself into the current and come ashore onto him. Fear made him a rocky shoal she had never dared land, but sparks of hope bubbled to the surface: chancing to believe in something more. She shivered, knowing that a powerful surge crept just behind these docile ebbs, ready to toss her wildly onto that forbidden territory.

Sharing physical conjugation two nights past brought her only to a jagged rock; from a distance deceptively alike to the safety and comfort of his true shores, but with none of its comfort. But lust, like the rock, only pricked her in return for gripping it so hard. She was staring across the slurping sea, but in her heart it was the shore that called out, as he did when he looked at her. Its invitation decried aloud and in a breath she accepted. A sigh of relief passed her quivering lips when finally, swiftly, but softly the surge picked her up and carried her back to the shelter.

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Day 47 - 0330 AM

The interior of the shelter was pitch black, the low slurp and rush of the ocean creeping in as the only sound to be heard. Trip slept deeply after great exertion to catch his supper and his immediately following excitement.

Within his dreams, a lonely feeling captured him and he was running for the only one he knew could change that feeling… until she squeezed his shoulder.

“Commander.” He didn’t budge.

“Commander,” T’Pol echoed, louder this time. Covered in her part of the blankets, gray undershorts and tank underneath, she moved closer to Commander Tucker and leaned up to get a better angle of his face, which was turned away from her.

“Commander Tucker, please wake up,” she spoke aloud finally, in a very official Vulcan tone, betrayed only by the sweat along her brow.

“Wha-huh!” Tucker shot up, snapping about in panic, awoken suddenly from the unpleasant dream. The darkness was total but he knew that just a few inches in front of him was T’Pol’s face, though he could not see her. The familiar aroma of dry soap and desert blossom wafted across his nose, along with a sweet tinge of her natural scent that was not at all displeasing. He never could understand how she managed to maintain such a wonderful smell after being in the jungle for seven weeks. He blinked rapidly as consciousness returned more fully. As his eyes adjusted, the firelight at the foot of their shelter cast an almost ethereal glow over T’Pol, painting her a portrait of pure beauty. He rubbed his eyes with a groan, hoping to dissuade whatever it was she wanted so he could go to back to sleep. He didn’t know how strongly he could resist touching her if his heart pounded much harder in his chest. The touch of fabric withholding soft flesh was painfully well recognized as T'Pol leaned closer, contacting his arm. Tucker’s pants suddenly tightened.

“Com- Trip,” T’Pol called again, moving closer. When his nickname came from her lips so soft and slow, it was like music to a deaf man. He forgot about sleep and dropped his hands from his eyes. Daring to look at her, he saw long brown hair falling sloppily around her shoulders, crowning her natural beauty and diluting any Vulcan austerity. Her neckline shone with tiny droplets of moisture, her lips slightly parted and her eyes resting heavily on his.

She sat up, opposite the direction of his body, her legs tucked beneath her as she faced him.

“T’Pol?” he asked quietly, his voice breaking. He moved towards her. Her eyes dilated and widened as he came close enough to make out the unblinking orbs, a shock of blue against the monochromatic blackness around them. Their faces were only inches apart. Each sat up, taking anxious care not to touch the other while a powerful charge built between them like live wires, begging to reach out and arc to the other.

“I have been…” T’Pol swallowed and Trip watched the knot in her throat move as her voice broke.

“…considering our situation.” Trip blinked, awakening further as each synapse twitched with electrical impulses.

She looked away, formulating her next words carefully as she always did.

“It is reasonable to assume Enterprise will not return for us, given they likely know nothing of our existence,” she stated rather flatly, pausing for him to agree. He nodded, swallowing a knot down his throat as the extreme proximity brought the breath of her words into his own lips.

“And it is also reasonable to assume our chances of escape on our own are very slim,” she added in a quiet whisper. Trip’s face softened and he chewed his lip.

“Mmhm,” he responded comfortingly. “So?” he asked. She felt his breath in return, quivering slightly.

She blinked, looking down at herself quietly. She pulled the blanket from her legs slowly, as if suddenly shy and inexperienced. She laid a hand on his chest and pushed him down with little force. Trip responded willfully, laying his head back onto the mat. She straddled him slowly, reaching above her head to remove the gray tank and freeing her breasts into the cool air. She blocked the low firelight from Tucker’s view, backlighting her naked form in orange and yellow hues. The hot rush shot through his spine, tingling at the base of his brain until he shivered involuntarily and instinctively sat up. When he did her body came into contact with his like a hot plate against his chest. Her skin was smooth and his tickled her hairless body teasingly. Running his hands from her hips to her breasts, he paused when she moaned quietly. His fingers continued up to her clavicle, around her shoulders and finally into the small of her back as she arched to bring her naked upper body hard against his. They were silent for several moments as her hands ran up and down his chest and he explored her body. Her fingers gripped his hard shoulders as he wrapped his arms around her waist and up to her shoulders, pulling her closer. They came nose to nose in the darkness of the night, seeing each other for the first time through closed eyes; under the stars of an unnamed world, casting away shame and doubt to explore forbidden territory. She held the silent embrace interminably, but finally spoke just above a whisper.

“I no longer believe it is logical to continue calling you ‘Commander’.”

Trip chuckled aloud and she savored the smile the lingered. He took her mouth in his just as the corners of her lips began to curve. This time he took the initiative, boldly pushing his kiss into her before moving to her neckline, her breasts and anywhere he could reach. She threw her arms around his bare arms and pushed them across his skin until she found his neck and his head and held them against her. He wanted to touch and taste every part of her that ached in his memory and danced in his fantasies since the night she dared to call him a “Friend”.

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She wrapped her arms about his sides, taking in every warm muscle and crevice, sending wave after wave of touch telepathy to unknown centers in his brain. In agreement with her unspoken request for assistance, he reached behind her when she rose from his lap and slowly withdrew the gray undershorts. The material came off in his fingers and he tossed it aside. She returned to his lap, pulling his bottoms off in kind. She reached for his face, cradling his cheeks at special points, instinctively moving there without thought. In one swift motion she fell into his kiss once again with nothing between them but the night. She fell onto him, moved with him and into him and spilled around him like liquid flame that burned lukewarm with their love combined instead of white hot fire. He made love to her the rest of the long night with passion in his embrace and gentleness in his kiss and his touch. As she rocked with one seizing shiver of pleasure, she cried aloud to the starry night that she had chosen her t’hyla. Heaving and sweating as he pulled her to a final kiss, they collapsed on the sand with her in his arms. He may not have understood the shaky Vulcan utterance she whispered to his ear, but he was sure it must be Vulcan for something intimate
 
Chapter 7 is pretty long... I will note each post below that belongs to Chapter 7


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Chapter 7

Day 65


Three weeks had passed since Trip and T’Pol had begun exploring each other, their feelings, and the repercussions for T’Pol that would inevitably follow. It was a territory as vast, uncharted and dangerous as the Expanse across which their counterparts sojourned. The morning after that second romantic encounter, Trip had approached her on the beach. She sat nude with her knees bent and folded within her arms, staring at the bluish purple horizon when an alien flock above her head sang out in unison. It passed as she peered above, and Tucker appeared behind her. Streaks of orange light stood out against the hazel and blue that mixed together to form the early morning sky. The streaks took off across the top of the sky, looked as if they would split the globe into hemispheres and then disappeared. T'Pol's brow wrinkled curiously, but Tucker stole her attention a moment later.

He sat behind her, as nude as she, he spooned her body into his and wrapped his arms around her. His chin came to rest between her shoulder and her neck. The stubble of several days was no longer prickly but softly grazing against her skin and she leaned into him naturally, her eyes closing peacefully. Neither spoke, and somehow Trip knew it must be this way for now, that this is how she wanted it - how she needed it to be. A Vulcan, even one in love with a human, is still a Vulcan by all accounts… and speaking the feelings that burned aloud within her Vulcan heart would still sting as harshley as ever. It was a fundamental offense to her identity that she knew not how to eradicate... Only how to control... and only sometimes.

For that reason, while the time went by, Trip and T’Pol continued their arrangement, largely unspoken. Despite the happiness with their newfound union, nightly exertions and increasingly frequent morning exertions as well; Tucker was getting stir crazy. He began to find it more and more difficult to do nothing but wait for favorable weather to go inland. The pod was stripped, T’Pol’s study of the anomaly field had reached a standstill and Trip had long since given up trying to fix the power grid. He also noticed T’Pol becoming increasingly anxious. She meditated constantly, had difficulty sleeping, and was often difficult to wake in the morning. She already feared it was the coming of the inevitable - the onset of more severe symptoms of Pa’nar. She shivered in his arms as the reality punched through the serene peace and revived the dark secret he still did not know.


Day 66

He hated missing meals. In the last few days T'Pol had become increasingly distant and difficult to read. Today seemed to be no different and after an unpleasantly silent breakfast, she disappeared into the jungle after saying something about research. It was now two hours after he sat down to start lunch and still trudging through the jungle, a very irritated Tucker bit his lip in frustration as his footing failed. A jagged stone pricked angrily at the foreign object attempting to push it into the mud and Tucker's foot responded by oozing blood and toppling the Commander's body down the muddy slope. Cursing and yelling the whole way down, he came to rest several meters down the slope against a large tree. He groaned aloud and stood up, bracing against the tree for balance.

"T'Pol! Where'an the HELL are you?" he shouted between pants and grunts as he examined his dark foot, its bottom a mix of blood and mud.

"Ah, God! Just great..." he muttered, as he hopped in place, trying to maintain balance. He started back towards the beach to rinse the wound to protect against infection, cursing under his breath the whole way that T'Pol was going to get one onry, Southern talkin'-to when he found her. He stopped to rest, holding his foot in pain and bracing against a tree. He turned and let his back fall against its bark, sliding down the length of it until he was resting flat on his bottom. He let his head fall back into the bark and stared up at the tall trunk above him and the alien sun as it peered above the jungle canopy. He let out a breath of relaxation as a familiar spark lit into the base of his brain and he suddenly became calmer, and less irritated. He thought it must have been the fresh air and nearly perfect balance of temperature between the jungle shade and the overhead sun that relaxed him, but before he could think too much on the subject - there was a noise.

He looked out in front of him to see something disappear behind a tree several meter away. It was the size of a man, but he knew no reason T'Pol would be sneaking around and concealing her presence. He froze and stared blankly at the general area he thought the flash of movement had come from. He thought about calling out for her, but still something tightened in his throat and he feard for who or what it may be other than T'Pol. A tussle of leaf and branches from a different direction erupted and Tucker snapped that way to find T'Pol standing near the hill from which he slid uncontrollably. He relaxed when she appeared, composed and curiously watching her companion breath as if he had not for several minutes. A loud crash, the sound of footfalls echoed from the direction of the first movement and Tucker and T'Pol both jumped in unison. They saw nothing, and exchanged relief to have found one another before T'Pol helped Tucker back to the camp.


Day 70

One morning, Trip approached T’Pol as she meditated early on the beach. Clothing had become somewhat sparing as the weather grew warmer and the two abandoned many last respites of modesty around one another. When he knelt and took her in his arms as he had done many times before, the response elicited was starkly different. She tensed around him and shied away. He was left with his confusion as she rose from the beach, sand caking her naked skin as she left him, moving to wash the sand away in the water.

“T’Pol?” he called after her, still sitting knees folded to his chest on the sand. She ignored him, continuing into the water. He dropped his head with a groan, rubbing his eyes in frustration.

“T’Pol!” he leapt from the sand and pursued. She was already in the water as he jogged to the edge of the surging tide where it met his feet.

“What’s wrong with you lately?” She turned as if with shock.

“You know how it displeases me to be interrupted during meditation!” she snapped back, her lips quivering in anger. As she turned her body language spoke of anxiety, fear and lack of control.

“T’Pol, what…” he started to approach but she started like a cornered animal and he froze He backed up a few steps, coaxing her to move out of the water’s depth onto the sand.. His hands hung in mid air, open palmed, begging an explanation. His face contorted in hurt confusion as he stood knee deep in the water, motionless. Suddenly, the cold chill of disgrace and returning focus came to T’Pol’s face and her composure returned. Her posture straightened, the rage left her eyes and her mouth closed with clinical precision. She attempted to file past him without speaking but he grabbed her arm.

“What, that’s it? What’s wrong, I wanna’ help y-“ Trip called, but he was cut off with a yelp as she whipped back into him. Like a torrent behind a pane of glass begging to be shattered, T’Pol’s resistance to the urges inside her exploded forth the moment he touched her. She threw her arms behind his head, practically leaping into his arms and covering his mouth with hers in a violent fervor. In surprise, Tucker stumbled backwards, just clearing the waterline before he fell on his back into the wet sand. T’Pol fell with him inch for inch as if she were glued to him, cupping his face passionately but with Vulcan strength that made him mumble something under her virulent kiss. She persisted regardless, grinding her body hard against his as she straddled his sand covered body. He forced himself up against her weight and incredible strength, grimacing as she kissed him harder. As she straddled his naked body he could not help but feel intensely aroused despite his intent to resist. He struggled to rip her from him to find out what this madness was that had taken over her but a likewise powerful urge began to burn in him, too.

He returned her kiss, sparing at first only to sate her enough to press her away and demand an explanation. But in moments his body was responding to her advances and the situation spiraled quickly out of his control. Suddenly he was pulling and tearing at her just as roughly, begging for just another touch or taste to sate an insatiable hunger. She positioned herself over him and came falling onto him in one swoop, in a slow but powerful thrust. The bloodlust lit into him like a spark the moment he was inside her and the day disappeared into evening and starlight as the fire consumed them both.

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Day 71

Trip awoke, exhausted, hungry and thirsty, some time in the late evening of the following day. His memory of the past several hours was somewhat garbled but the soreness he felt all over quickly brought back a wash of recollection. He groaned aloud and turned sideways, unable to lift himself from the sand at all. He found T’Pol by his side, fast asleep with a feral tone to her breathing. Her chest rose and fell like a beast’s, and she breathed heavier than usual.

He reached across her torso, lovingly pulling her closer to him. She instinctively complied, turning into him and parting her lips against his. She awoke abruptly as the kiss ended, her carnal desires awakened as well. She lunged back into him and he groaned in frustration as he realized his mistake.

“T’Po-Wa…” he muffled against her mouth as he tried to beg for a breather, hoping to get some water and god willing a meal before the next bout of whatever the hell was going on. He had a raging headache, and lustful indulgence didn’t fit the bill for relief from aching muscles and an empty stomach. He pushed against her again, more roughly this time with all his strength as feeble as it was in contest of her superior Vulcan sinews. She must not have been holding him with all her strength as he was finally separated from her.

“T’Pol!” he cried in desperation as she was finally torn from him like glue, her muscles tight and powerful. She was breathing rapidly like an animal but the soft concern and slight fear in his eyes drug something from deep inside her and the frightening glean in her eye dissipated. Her breathing slowed and her arms loosened around his neck.

She withdrew them, and curled up by herself in the sand, turning away from him without speaking. A few moments later her chest was rising and falling with constant rhythm again. He jumped to his feet to take advantage of the lustful armistice she granted so he could replenish his strength. He needed water and bandages.

He hadn’t realized it until he started limping down the beach towards camp, but a few particularly painful scratches and scrapes on his shoulders and back ached with sand in them. His mind was clouded, pulsating like a fever and he actually turned and seriously considered running right back. His pulse was beating feverishly in his chest but he could feel a different part of him actually beating red with swelling.

I must be out of my mind!
He thought, wanting to go another round of sex like that in his condition. He did his best to put the thoughts out of mind until he could physically survive it. Something was wrong with T’Pol but he was frustratingly out of options. She refused to talk, she was more irrational than she had ever accused humans of being. He was worried, but there was a stronger instinct inside him, urging him to take care of her and await the inevitable... what he did not know. Somehow he knew this was supposed to be happening, though for the life of him he couldn’t be sure why or how. In any case, he wasn’t going to be the one calling the shots in the bedroom for a little while. He looked down to find his manhood quite incooperative to his willful attempts to quell its behavior. With hands on his hips, he tipped his face skyward and twisted his neck around causing several tight muscles to pop. He groaned with a hint of excitement mixed with ache and marched dutifully right back.

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Chapter 7 Continued

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Day 76

Several days later, Trip was sleeping late into the day when T’Pol appeared in the bright opening of the shelter. She ducked through the entrance after beholding the sleeping human for a few moments. A flicker of doubt clouded her otherwise reborn, pristine Vulcan consciousness but she soon overcame it. In truth, T’Pol felt more controlled and confident of herself than she could recall feeling since she contracted Pa’nar Syndrome. She did not understand how, but the minor symptoms that had been with her since the unpleasant event which lead to her sickness had all but disappeared in the days that she spent recovering from Pon Farr. She wondered if... no, she thought. Certainly not possible.

The sun began to duck towards the distant horizon. The trickling sunlight in the mid-evening sky scattered light across Trip’s face and he stirred. T’Pol moved to his side, brushing a lock of hair from her face in a mannerism completely alien to her. Her hair was nearly down to her back now in length, its hue a much lighter brown than when they arrived due to sun exposure. She removed his cover without waking him to reveal several fresh bruises and minor cuts. She winced at the number of contusions he had suffered as a result of her ‘condition’ and fought away the pang of guilt.

Before he regained consciousness, he groaned and sensed a discomfort in the connection to his beloved. He was suddenly aware of her remorse in a way he could not understand, as if she had reached out and given it to him and he could wrap his fingers around it. Again, he was reminded of the sensation he felt more than once when they made love. When she touched his face, he felt the snap of an electric shock and his head ached afterwards. At first it was frightening but as it increased in frequency, the pain weaned away and he thought only pleasant thoughts of their life here together. And hopes, of their life afterwards.

For the first day or so he was truly frightened for T’Pol and when she lost control. She more frequently touched and held his face after that and each time he became more confident of her improving health. She seemed more lucid each day, the uncontrolled biological imperative that drove her to take him dwindling into willed lovemaking. Desired closeness. Caring thoughts.

Now that it was over, he was sure there was some significance to the vibes he got from her when she touched his face so gently. He felt a closer familiarity with her... much closer than before, as if he had known T’Pol all her life, even as a child. He made a mental note to ask her about it, but presently his attention was consumed by a massive headache.

He turned and buried his face further into the wrapped bundle of cushioned pod upholstery they used as pillows. He had only started to regain consciousness slowly when he was more abruptly awakened by T’Pol’s clinical application of disinfectant. She dabbed only lightly but with all the bells and whistles of 22nd century technology, the constituents of field bandages changed little and the sting remained. The pain opened his eyes wide as he bucked instinctively.

“Ow!” he yelped as the light poured into his unshielded eyes. A very lucid and focused T’Pol looked down on him, bearing a visage very unlike the mad-faced, sex-crazy woman he had seen for the past three days. He blinked several times, unsure if he was dreaming. He threw his head back with a quiet sigh of relief but said nothing.

“Indeed,” T’Pol replied simply to his unspoken relief. Tucker turned looked to her again, his brows furrowed in confusion.

“Huh?” he asked in surprise. T’Pol continued dressing his wounds.

“You said ‘it’s about time she got back to normal, I couldn’t survive much more’,” T’Pol recited clinically, gleaning over an expletive or two. "And I agree with your assessment," she remarked with an eyebrow as she surveyed his injuries.

Tucker’s face contorted in even more confusion with a hint of fright. Just before he could formulate his befuddlement into a coherent query, T’Pol finished with his bandages and sat back with her hands flat on her thighs. She looked down and prepared for what she knew was her responsibility.

“There are some things of which you must be made aware…”

“…Consequences of mating with a Vulcan,” she admitted softly. The words leaving her mouth were the most intimate T’Pol had ever spoken to anyone, but she could not bid her eyes to rise above the floor, much less meet his. It was the admission of her true desire, to be his mate and to be accepted as his.

“First, you must understand I have conducted myself inappropriately. I have formalized our arrangement without consulting you and… I must apologize,” she finished quietly. Trip blinked away his befuddled expression and replaced it with warm concern. It was the look of a man who knows not what the trouble, but cares so deeply that it doesn’t matter.

He sat up and moved closer but kept a comfortable distance. He was still not sure yet of what was to come of this discussion.

“I do,” T’Pol added quickly, meeting his eyes daringly before relaxing her gaze once again. Trip turned his head and opened his mouth as if to say what just happened.

“You are unsure if I return your affection, if Vulcans are capable of feeling such things… if our-” Tucker interrupted. "If what we did is your way of…”

“Copulating, yes.” T’Pol finished quietly.

"And if what we are is..." Tucker asked, sensing T'Pol knew the last few words. She inhaled and her eyes quaked as they moistened.

"In love?" she asked quietly. "I do not know, Vulcans do..do not," she could not finish, the words she begged to utter she could not force herself to admit. Would she always be off limits to him? Would that final boundary always be uncrossable?

Trip looked down for several moments, putting together the pieces and wondering if what he suspected could really be true.

“It is true, that we have developed a telepathic connection, and it is a consequence of mating… When a Vulcan mates, there is a shared psychic bond… however I did not believe it would be possible with a human. This is why I did not warn you. Human tradition is very different, we are unused to-…” she trailed off. Tucker rubbed his chin and blew out a nervous breath. T’Pol looked up in apprehension, question in her eyes as she awaited his response. Her Vulcan mind could easily have moved into his mind and plucked his thoughts and feelings from him, but she waited for him to give them to her… desiring them to be freely offered. She also secretly feared to do so, still unsure of and unpracticed at such direct telepathic connection.

“You only mate every seven years?” Trip asked, sheepishly confirming the rumor he had heard in Starfleet.

“We are capable of the physical act and the hormones which induce arousal. However, in Vulcan females, the reproductive system is not active until the mating cycle… It is called Pon Farr, or ‘the blood fever’. That is what we experienced together,” she replied in a quiet voice, the last word uttered stirring a persistent warmth in her chest.

“I’ll say…” Tucker mumbled as he rubbed a sore patch on his left shoulder with a smirk. T’Pol avoided his mischievous glance. He chuckled and felt the weight lift from his heart as he caught a sparkle in her eyes. Even his lighthearted treatment of the subject to which she attributed much embarrassment somehow lifted her apprehension.

“So… you’re saying you were fertile when we…” Trip gesticulated innocently. “Without protection isn’t there a chance you could… I mean we did a lot of..." Trip's hands became an incoherent jumble of movement as he turned slightly pink.

“A Vulcan-human pregnancy has never existed, nor to my knowledge ever been attempted… According to the Vulcan Science Directorate our genetic material is almost completely incompatible. However, after my experiences with Daniels, logic dictates that the Vulcan Science Directorate may not always be correct,” T’Pol admitted.

”We’re the first?” Tucker asked, not without a sense of pride.

“Such a hybrid would most likely not be accepted by Vulcan society, and the progenitors would be likewise shunned from life on Vulcan. Obviously our present situation precludes such misfortune,” T’Pol admitted. She was all too aware of her people’s disdain for humanity, but had only recently become aware of the reality of their intolerance hidden behind the logical arguments.

It was an opinion that was her own only not so long ago. She suddenly realized how distantly her behavior and her feelings for this human drove her from her previous identity. Were she not confined to this deserted world, her emotions for Tucker would most certainly be untenable in Vulcan society, perhaps even on Earth. But then, she could no longer imagine a life without him… So much had changed in only the two months of her last sixty-four years of life.

“So, you said you can read mah’ mind?” T’Pol nodded.

“Can I read yours? I mean I can’t hear your thoughts right now…”

“The human mind is not developed for telepathy. It is possible that after some period of time you may sense my thoughts and feelings if you cannot already, however the Vulcan mind is much more predisposed to telepathy, and we are trained to control our thoughts.”

“So is that what I felt during your ‘Pon Farr’?” Trip asked. T’Pol squinted and tilted her head uncertainly.

“I do not understand,” she replied. Trip ran a finger along his lips and licked them as he recalled the sensation.

“You don’t remember?” he asked.

“I recollect some of the events, however, the Pon Farr severely alters normal brain chemistry. Vulcans often retain no memory of these events. Perhaps for the better,” she confessed quietly.

“What did you experience?” T’Pol asked curiously and not without some concern.

”Well, whenever you would touch… my face,” Tucker motioned at his cheeks.

“I felt like you were inside my head, like you c- what?” Tucker asked, as T’Pol inhaled sharply, her eyes darting side to side.

“It is not possible,” she replied quietly, her voice shaking.

“What, what's not possible?” Trip asked in a minor panic.

“What you describe,” T’Pol informed him as her voice regained its evenness.

“Is called a mind meld, but it should not be possible. Only a small percentage of Vulcans are capable of melding, it is… it is a deplorable act of violation,” T’Pol replied, her voice shaking again. Trip sat up and came closer to her, taking her hands within his instinctively and holding them together.

“Sweetheart, I sure as hell didn't feel violated. I mean it hurt a little at first but I think that’s just ‘cause I didn’t know what was goin’ on. All of the sudden I knew things about you I never knew before,” T’Pol frowned back at him skeptically.

“Not all mind-melds are performed with such... amicable intentions.”

Tucker's brows drew together in concern and uncertainty. A moment later, a flash of the memory of T’Pol’s mind-rape by Tolaris suddenly appeared to him. His eyes shut as if the shock of the experience would render him unconscious but he soon opened them again.

“Somethin’ happened ta’ you,” he muttered between breaths. He swallowed and steadied himself before looking directly into T’Pol’s eyes. His stomach was doing figure-eights in his gut and he suddenly felt as though he would be sick. When he doubled over in agony she moved closer and leaned into his face, tickling the stubble of his face in a way she found alluring and relaxing at the same time. She paused with her cheek against his and her breath coming hot across his cheek where she felt the tranquility and calm to recount the horror. At the same time his nausea disappeared and he panted to catch his breath as the soft skin rubbed acorss his prickly jaw.

“The V’tosh ka’tur who came aboard Enterprise... I spent a great deal of time with one of them, Tolaris,” T’Pol told him.
“I knew there was a reason I didn’t like ‘im,” Trip mumbled. T’Pol looked up from his cheek very rigidly, challenging his accusation.
“What? Guys know, I knew there was somethin about the way he looked at you I didn't like. I just didn’t think Vulcans looked at each other that way,” he admitted. T’Pol sighed.
“That type of Vulcan, does, apparently.” Trip knew of the attack, the remorse and guilt T’Pol felt afterwards, as if she had allowed it to happen. It was against her beliefs, against her discipline. The worst part was that she wanted it, at first. She had attempted to turn away too late, and Tolaris refused... He snapped back again, the memory hitting him with nearly full force and knocking him back, but T’Pol reached out for him and held him steady.

“What I have done to you is unforgivable, I am sorry,” T’Pol whispered as she began to leave.

“Wait!” Trip took hold of her arm before she could flee and she turned back to reveal eyes that nearly dribbled down her cheeks with guilty tears.

“That’s not what happened here, that’s not what you did!” Trip shook his head again and rubbed his mouth, searching in frustration for the words to make her understand.

“You...didn’t violate anything, maybe I don’t know what the hell half this Vulcan stuff is and maybe I'm way the hell outta' my league here, but... it doesn’t matter, you can’t violate someone who... loves you,” he trailed off, shaking his head with his eyes steadily locked on hers. She sat back down, consenting to hear more.

“I... know things about you now that I can’t even begin to understand how I know!” he replied with a chuckle and an exasperated smile.

“Don’t believe me? Your pet sehlat’s name was Tikosh, your father’s name was Sovek and the first human you ever met was Steven Cochrane, Zephram’s grandson. You met him on your first trip to Earth with your father when you were fourteen and you had a crush on ‘em,” Trip informed her coolly. She stared back wide eyed.

"I don't understand it either," Trip confessed.

“But I don’t... have to know, I don’t have ta’ understand,” he pleaded. "You're all that matters to me, T'Pol."

“I never believed a meld… nor a bond, for that matter, would be possible with a human.”

“…with you.” T’Pol confessed.

“But you knew there was a chance… I mean if you thought about it, did you want it to happen?” Tucker asked curiously. T’Pol swallowed and met his gaze before responding.

“Yes,” T’Pol confessed before she realized the gravity of the admission.

“That’s all I needed to hear,” Tucker replied. He rose to his knees and moved closer to her. He reached out and placed two fingers on her cheek with a thumb on her chin, imparting a tender caress across her jaw, and for some reason he could not fathom, knew to continue all the way up to the point of her ear. As he reached the tip of her ear and moved forward, her lips parted. Either in greeting to his lips or at the pleasure induced by his tender touch on her sensitive ears, he met her in a slow and tender kiss. She pulled away a few seconds later and pursed her lips and watched his face as he licked his lips.

“You do not feel invaded by the bond?” she asked with a raised eyebrow, a slight shudder in her voice. Tucker shrugged and shook his head with a light smile.

“You’ve always got me figured out anyway, now I can just save time denyin’ it,” he smirked as she became austerely Vulcan once again.

“I hardly believe it would be accurate to say I have you, “figured out”,” T’Pol responded coolly. “You are mistaken if you believe our present situation implies that it will be easier to ‘get under my skin’ as you put it,” she returned icily through the Vulcan lips he had grown to know so well. He laughed heartily before lurching forward. He threw T’Pol into his arms and collapsed with her sideways onto the blankets, leaning above her with a smirk. The shocked expression of suddenly being tackled backwards as he first brought her down with him betrayed her feigned calm, from which she quickly recovered and stared at him vacantly.

“Didn’t see that comin’ did ya’?” Trip asked mischievously. T’Pol allowed her arms up from the floor to crawl up his muscular sides, carefully avoiding his tender wounds. The impassive face she regarded him with contrasted the intimate touch.

“Perhaps I did,” she replied simply, pulling at the nape of his neck down to meet her lips.

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Chapter 7 Continued

Day 97
3 Weeks Later

"I would kill for a hammock right about now," Trip mused as he rocked her gently into the gust of wind the blew in from the direction of the setting sun. Only a quarter of the fiery rob hung near the horizon, the rest threw a solid sheet of gold across the landscape that Trip was silently mesmerized by while T'Pol merely closed her eyes, listening within.

"What is a hammock?" T'Pol asked curiously, but her eyes remained closed.

"It is the only thing we need right now,"Tucker chuckled and grinned into her neck as he planted a kiss just under her right ear. She shivered and allowed a moan to escape her lips as she leaned into him.

"Except maybe a cold beer." He sighed, relaxing into her as the wind blew through her hair and scattered patches of her wonderful scent into him like candy in the air for an olefactory sweet tooth.

"Consumption of alcoholic beverages would be unwise under prolonged sun exposure, or in a survival situation such as this," T'Pol spoiled his image of the cold drought running down his throat he missed dearly at this moment.

"You kiddin'?" he outraged with a hidden smirk. "Na', some hot dogs, some burgers on the grill," he pointed into the distance to a small clearing. "It's a hell'ofa place for a barbeque, I tell you what," he teased her, thickening his accent and 'illogical vernacular'.

They sat on the warm grass that cooled as the sun's rays dimmed further and further. T'Pol was in front of him, surrounded by his arms as he leaned in close once more for an encore. His hands moved around her abdomen and one came to rest just over her lower belly. He closed his eyes and smiled into the dark, silky mass of her hair as it poked him in the face and inhaled her scent. He sighed and tickled the tips of his fingers softly against her skin as she continued to lie limp in his arms, allowing him to sway her back and forth.

"You are sure that this rhythm is soothing to the baby?" she asked, the clinical inflection of a Vulcan scientist creeping into the Mother's voice.

"Oh yeah, mommas do it all the time on Earth. Lets 'em know you're close by."

"So. Have you thought about a name?" Trip inquired.

"You certainly have," she quipped, referring to the endless cycle of baby-names that had been scrolling through his thoughts for the past several days.

"Hey, can't blame a dad for gettin' excited. 'Sides, you never told me what you think of Charles the Fourth," he chuckled. "Sounds like a King," he admired his own namesake.

"How do you know it is a boy?" she asked clinically.

"Oh, well by the way you carry it. You can tell, somethin' ma' mom tought me." T'Pol gazed back at him doubtfully with a high eyebrow. For an instant she was the Sub-Commander again and they were barbing on Enterprise. Then he was back, grinning at the mother of his child. "What?" he drew his brows together into a frown. "Callin' me a liar?" he mocked her.

"The pregnancy has progressed less than one month into the gestation cycle and even if it were several months... the 'way' the baby is carried has no correlation to its sex," she stated matter-of-factly.

"Well, believe what'chu want," he replied confidently. "We'll see who's right," he teased her with a confidently defiant turn of his nose. A few moments passed by in silence before Tucker spoke up again.

"How 'bout Roselie if it's a girl?"

"Perhaps T'Mir would be suitable for a girl," T'Pol countered, a thoughtful hint creeping into her voice. Trip looked intrigued, turned the name over in his mind a few times and looked back.

"Ya' know, I kinda' like that. T'Mir Tucker. Has a nice ring to it," he thought aloud with a reflective expression.

"It was my second foremother's name."

"Oh, you mean the one that invented velcro and changed the course a' human history?" Tucker asked pointedly. "Indeed," T'Pol replied.

"Oh that one. Hmm, right," Tucker teased her, reminding her of his doubtful reception to the fantastic story. He squeezed her close and planted a soft kiss against the back of her neck.

"I like that one," he whispered thoughtfully into the wind. "My little T'Mir," he muttered to himself as he caressed T'Pol's still-taut belly. Her belly rumbled ominously and he peered over her shoulder to reply.

"Well 'scuse me, hon! I mean our T'Mir!" he consented with a laugh.

"It was merely my appetite, not subliminal communication from a three-week old embryo," T'Pol asserted, drawing another laugh from the man in her arms.

The next several minutes passed in silence as Trip considered their past, their future, and a "little someone's" future. After sharing the Pon Farr with him, many of T'Pol's remaining defenses came down and she allowed herself to enter his mind, sensing his consent. She listened to his thoughts now as he pondered the future of the baby growing in her womb. Her fingers crept over his as they cradled the invisible life that was just taking form inside her. A gush of warmth traveled between them and into them and throughout her, surrounding the tiny creature within.

“Where ‘r we gonna’ go when we get back?” Trip wondered aloud as she leaned into him. "I don't think there'll be any place for us on Enterprise," Trip clarified. T'Pol nodded silently.

“You are welcome in my home,” she replied.

“Am I?” She sensed worry in him of the kind of welcome that could await them if they returned to Vulcan.

”My parents will let us stay with them for awhile if we have to,” Trip assured her. She blinked away an unpleasant thought she caught drifting through him and lowered her eyes.

“Will they welcome a second son?” T’Pol asked him cautiously, not wishing to delve too deeply into the possibility that his parents would reject a duplicate, as near to the one they knew and loved as he may be. He blinked several times and caught a lump in his throat.

“I don’t know,” he answered truthfully. T’Pol sensed the discomfort she had sown inside him as he suddenly began to think of his father, his mother, his sister - all rejecting him. She turned to him for reassurance.

“I believe your people would react differently than mine," T'Pol conceded with a hint of reproach for the latter. "Your parents may show compassion. They may… understand, and welcome a grandchild, perhaps. Ensign Sato once remarked how... 'lovingly' her parents came to recieve her younger sister's offspring, despite the child's unexpected birth,” she recounted matter-of-factly. Trip moved his eyes from the sunset to hers and chuckled nervously as he considered her words thoughtfully. His eyes fell away from hers as he stroked his beard-covered jaw leisurely.

“Yeah, maybe… Either way, I’ve survived with no one but you for a long time now. I think I can go a few more decades,” he chuckled, nervously avoiding the core question in his own mind. She turned back towards the sun and let her back fall into his chest as they collapsed on the grass. She rose and fell with his heaving chest while the constant *thump thump, thump thump* of his heartbeat tapped into her back. She closed her eyes and let the rhythm set the tone for quiet meditation for nearly an hour, in silence.

"You know, T'Pol... I can't figure out if I'm bein' selfish," Trip thought aloud, staring straight up at the sky as the last golden rays of light split across the sky from the unseen horizon. He turned to look at her and she turned toward, moving sideways to watch his eyes from only inches away.

"Am I bein' selfish by bein' happy about this?" he asked in a shaky whisper, terrified of the answer. “I mean, bringin’ a child into this kinda’ life of ours, unsure if we’ll ever-” he was shaking his head but T’Pol stopped him mid-thought. She strained in the odd position atop his chest and moved forward, kissed him, holding his lips against hers for an endless moment as her tongue tickled his and danced across his lip. She broke the kiss and looked back at him.

"You are not, t'hyla. You forget. I can hear inside you, I know your feelings," she reminded him in a low voice.

"You love her very much," T'Pol whispered, her eyes flickering between his lips and the bowls of blue looking down at her. "I do not believe that is selfish." Trip's brows drew together sharply in confusion but thanks to the bond it lasted only an instant. He gaped in shock and then smiled.

"Her? What do you mean Her? It's a her?! It's a HER!!" He shouted wildly, taking her by surprise as he nailed her mouth with his in a passionate kiss and then lifted her from the grass. He picked her up but T'Pol would suffer it only an instant before she forced herself down. He suddenly became white and cradled her like a broken vase on his parents' floor.

"Oh, God I forgot! Are you alright?!" he asked in a panic. "I am fine, Trip. However, please do not attempt that again." He laughed through a smile and took her in his arms and pulled her close. He stopped and blinked as if something occurred to him and his smile faded only until it spoke softly of sincerity more than jest.

“T’Pol will you marry me?” She looked back at him curiously for several moments and blinked as she processed his human sentiment. He wasted no time waiting for her to respond and dropped to one knee as he held onto one hand and brought it to his lips.

“When we get back to Earth, will you be my wife?”

abi’sha’kim-shah t’esh replied her native tongue through the bond. “Until my final breath,” she told him.

The golden sun still warmed her back as he pulled her into a hug. He couldn't recall ever having simply hugged her. And it felt good. She, too, was unused to that form of affection from him and when he pulled away she watched him curiously, finding wonder hiding behind yet another unseen corner in his ocean-blue eyes. He moved in close and kissed her forehead, cradling her cheeks gently and then leaned down to meet her lips. She returned the kiss, pulling him into her but retaining the slow and soft embrace that sent slithery waves of warmth throughout her chest. He pulled away only an inch. The sun crept lower, dimming the ambient light and for an instant, obscured him from her view as her eyes adjusted. He leaned against her forehead.

"I'm gonna' get you an' our daughter home. That's a promise," she heard him whisper through the darkness. And T'Pol believed him. They both did.



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Day 136
1 month later

It was early one morning when T’Pol awoke unpleasantly. Her head was swimming with nauseating motion as she rose from her bed. Beads of sweat trickled down her face, pleated her gray tank against her skin and wetted the hair around her neck. The cold sweat only made her queasier, and she calmly exited the shelter as Trip stirred in his sleep.

But her Vulcan dignity immediately left her along with the previous night’s meal as she wretched over a boulder barely a few meters from the shelter. Trip came to her side, rubbing his eyes and still sporting his Starfleet blues when he heard her vomiting. He was used to it by now.

“Hey T’Pol,” he called quietly, letting her know he was there as he rubbed a hand across her back. Up and down, back and forth he caressed her comfortingly - trying to remember the solid rhythm his dad claimed set his mother at ease during the same trying time. He wet his dry lips as he winced at the thought once again. The worry that lurked in the back of his mind about this whole thing ever since the first sign, perked its ugly head once again. Just then T’Pol stood erect, cleaning herself up and going to the ocean to wash the taste from her mouth in dignity.

“I am aware of your feelings about this, Trip, and I share them,” she replied in frustration. Returning to the camp, she filed past him. She went about preparing breakfast as he sat down opposite the fire, a distance from where she had vomited moments before. He was thankful she usually managed to make it far enough from the camp to smell it. He folded his arms and looked at her in frustration.

“I can’t hide how I feel from you so we might as well get it out in the open. I’m just not sure that bringin’ a baby into life on this planet is the right thing to do!” Trip called out, yelling not at T’Pol but at his own frustration.

“There hardly seems to be anything we can do about it now,” T’Pol replied sternly. He rubbed his head from front to back, messing the short golden hairs out of alignment. Although T’Pol had opted to allow hers to grow unchecked, Tucker had kept his short with a scissors from the medic kit.

“I don’t blame you,” Trip replied warmly. He sensed the fear in her; fear that perhaps he blamed her for not warning him about Pon Farr, or for telling him the that chance of pregnancy did exist. Then again, she had not lied… it was unthinkably rare. Any doctor on Vulcan or Earth would have called it impossible. She looked up momentarily from the cooking fire as a warm breeze blew in.

“Soon it will be the optimal time to move into the forest and begin searching for the device causing the anomaly field,” T’Pol ignored the issue. “The climate is nearing its warmest period, if we wish to find the anomaly and possibly send a distress signal, we must depart soon.” Trip sighed.

“We’re not goin’ anywhere while you're carryin' our baby, hun,” Trip assured her “How long do Vulcans carry before uh… delivery,” Trip asked, nervous of the grimey details.

“Thirteen months,” T’Pol replied quietly.

“Wow, lot longer’n humans,” he mused, chewing his lip. “So that means if we stay here, have our baby, then it’ll be back to about the right time for the warm weather, since this planet has a fourteen month annual cycle right?” T’Pol nodded. "The time will be slightly further into the warm season, however, we should have sufficient time to search a large area of the island."

Trip continued. “And then go find this device thing and then get the hell outta’ here.”

“You are assuming the pregnancy survives to term,” T’Pol replied quietly. She had stopped preparing the meal and sat on her knees facing the fire, her eyes planted so firmly upon its dancing tongues she did not notice when Trip came up behind her. His arms circled her warmly and he set his chin upon her shoulder, breathing in her pleasant scent and kissing her neck.

“Now don’t be talkin’ like that."

"I am having difficulties..."

Trip eased her around to face him and found her face turned towards the sand. Finally she met his eyes and he found hers swimming with wetness and he drew her closer.

"I believe the hybrid pregnancy is altering my hormones in an unusual manner, for Vulcan pregnancies... I am having difficulty controlling my emotions and I fear..." she barely finished before she began to weep openly. Trip took hold of her somberly and held her. He could be sure she was telling the truth, and that the human physiology within her was drastically affecting her normal suppression techniques. Although she embraced him on occasion, allowed him to cuddle her and be the Human he had to be, there were tradeoffs as well, and she meditated routinely. They still made love passionately (less frequently as the baby neared), but she still had not forsaken the techniques she had practiced for twice as long as Trip lived. His strength, in fact, supplemented her control at times, allowing her to use him as a blow-off valve for the primal emotions that built up as a natural consequence of the Vulcan nature brewing within her. It was not the conventional method any Vulcan would approve, in fact they would certainly shun her behavior as grossly offensive. But it is how she learned to cope out here, and with it came his love. To that she clung feverishly in times of need, more soulfully than she ever clung to his lusty embrace.

"Whatever happens, sweetheart, we’ll face it together," he whispered into her ear as he planted a kiss on its pointed tip.

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Day 328

7 Months Later


It had been almost ten months since Commander Tucker and Sub-Commander T’Pol were stranded on the empty planet with the anomaly field surrounding it. Those titles were all but forgotten now, their relationship having leapt from professional to intimate during their first few months and now to Mother and Father. Husband and wife. T'hyla and ashayam.[/I

When she first gave in to the desire she had to express her emotions for Tucker, T’Pol was sure it must be the isolation from her people and their ways that allowed her to commit such a departure from emotional abstinence. But to admit so would be to admit that her Vulcan training only suppressed what was already there, that constant vigilance was required to hold at bay the powerful emotions like love, lust, sorrow and hate. She knew these things to be true, and when she meditated they were brought more clearly to the surface than ever before. It was during meditation, that T’Pol felt that she finally understood the true struggle of Surak and the birth of his ideas. The dual nature of the Vulcan spirit had been suppressed in her training, silenced but not-so-effectively within this particular Vulcan female. Her emotions were out, dancing in the light of day instead of cowering in the depths of darkness as they had for so long.

She wondered if this revelation might ever find its way to her people... it was a foolish thought. More likely she would never return to Vulcan, even if they were to find a way off this planet. She had been touched by the new creature whose rounded dwelling protruded from her belly - her child, the first Vulcan-Human hybrid. She would find a way from this place, she had to. She refused to allow the child growing within her, the miracle fruit of one human’s love and her frightfully powerful returned affection.

Just then, her eyes snapped open in horror as a shot of pain arched from an unknown source within her - touching her womb and her soul. Her eyes fell abysmally dark, surpassed only in its aching blackness by her heart as it filled with sorrow.


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Chapter 7 Continued

Day 329


Trip was tearing through the forest near sunset, searching desperately for the mother of his child, who had disappeared during meditation the evening before. Nearly fifteen hours had gone by that he had been searching nonstop, with no food or rest. He was panicked, frightful and his mind too densely packed with intense worry for her sobbing cries to be heard through the bond. Just as he stopped, doubling over with his hands on his knees in exhaustion, the fog in his heart cleared and a cry pierced the silent twilight of the underbrush. It was in his mind more than in the air, a desperate and sorrowful wail with no end. He turned to one side, his eyes fixed on an arbitrary direction from which the cry in his heart seemed to emanate.

He took off running once again, the fatigue separated from him and left there on the forest floor for him to reclaim at some later time. The cry was too deep, too terrible and painful for the tired sinews to give in and collapse as they so desired. But the pain in his knees, his lungs, was rapidly becoming too great with every passing branch and scraping thorn. Just when his body could almost stand no more, the trees on either side of the forest floor seemed to arch and he found his wife.

Sobbingly beside herself, she lay in the grass with her gray tank covered in sweat, her bottom half unclothed and covered in greenish-copper blood, but with no wounds. He gathered her in his arms, her eyes so filled with tears she almost did not recognize him and pulled the bloody bundle in her arms tighter to her chest in alarm. His eyes became fixed on T'Mir's bloody skin as T'Pol's fingers slid over it. He looked over its motionless body in despair, crying out for his daughter as T'Pol buried herself into his neck and cried aloud. Their silent baby, its eyes shut in peaceful rest eternal, remained at rest but embraced its Father.

He collapsed there beside her, his cheeks white as sheepskin and eyes brimming with pools of disbelief, and sorrow. He took her in his arms and her cries became quieter but muffled by his chest, and she clung to him, sheltering their daughter between their loving bodies. The shock was total, consuming him so completely that his mind was clear enough to reach out to T’Pol’s with total acceptance; feeling and knowing all that she did. The bond was complete; sown tight with barbs and never to be broken apart again.

It was an act wholly impossible for his human mind to have performed only a day ago, but driven forward resiliently like the persistent anguish of a grieving father - and the persistent love for his grieving wife.

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though my eyes they cannot see
i know there's someone watching me
salty pain moves down his cheek
only a hint of storming sea

my momma cries herself to sleep
and daddy's pain goes down so deep
thank you for the chance to feel
the end is close but do not weep

i do not have a wound to heal
there is no pain for you to steal
i see now both the parts of me
my momma's sturdy strength of steel
my daddy's warm embrace to feel

i cannot stay it's time to go
before i do you have to know
how much I'll miss the ebb and flow
i saw the love between you grow

before i do you have to know
before i do you have to know
goodbye.
 
Jeeze T'Pol cant catch a break EVER !

She must be cursed.

I am enjoying the story but would a tiny bit of happiness kill the poor girl ?
 
Chapter 8

Day 331


Trip stood over a tall cliff, watching the sun begin to rise over the distant horizon. The warbling image of the early morning sun rose over the trees from inland, casting a fiery light over the landscape. He stood on the precipice and quietly watched as the sun rimmed the tree line, sending a warm gust across his face. Inside him, there was a place that was once no larger than the tiny bundle they buried in tear-stained blankets. After losing a daughter he barely knew with a love he had somehow always known, an expansive void like the valley before him stretched for miles in that once-tiny place in his heart.

It’s amazing, he thought. That such emptiness could exist where once there was no room for anything, and now there was but painful nothingness; the crater of a father’s unending love plucked out of the ground and tossed away, leaving behind only barren ground. A quiet wind moved the clouds and Lovers, carrying a whisper of hope that after many bitter seasons, the salt-stung hole that T’Mir left behind could be replenished and bear a beloved offspring once again. T’Pol appeared silently behind him.

There was a flash of light and then an image of his own father standing over his mother many years ago, holding a blue-eyed baby girl as a jealous but awe-struck young boy hopped nearby to get a look at his new baby sister. Another tear fell.

Trip wanted to bury her somewhere beautiful. While returning to the pod’s skeletal remains for one last component, happened upon this beautiful place. The orange hue of the bathing light highlighted the streaks on his face as the morning breeze tossed his hair. He pushed the strands from his eyes as his wife approached from behind. She wore the altered uniform he had offered to make for her.

"It is unfortunate the proper robes and candles for a fitting ceremony were not available." Tucker closed his eyes when T'Pol's hand fell upon his shoulder.

"Don't matter... it was beautiful. I had no idea that Vulcans… It was beautiful," he told her as he nodded decidedly. His voice cracked as an invisible wound seized on the tender word. "She was beautiful."

"Yes. She was," T'Pol confessed as she stepped into her mate, her arms going around him to grasp his fingers in her grip softly. She buried her face into his back and relaxed into his body, letting him hold her up under the tremendous weight tugging on her. He turned to find how incredibly different this woman was to the one who walked the corridors of the Enterprise ten months earlier in much the same garb. A strong chemical imbalance of hormones still ravaged her system, keeping her expressions more human-like than was her custom, in the wake of the loss of T’Mir.

Her hair, long and sandy brown, was tied into a single tail. The mixture of colors in her eyes now shared their residence with many emotions, some of which she had only begun to cope with, to accept, to overcome and to embrace.

She wondered how long the confidence would last after her body regained its proper balance, and if she would retain the deeper understanding of these emotions she had gained in compensation for suffering their wrath.

Loss, pain… most potent were these as they pricked at her heart, as it was so unused to defending itself from the onslaught. She held steadfast to the hope that she might retain the ability to safely embrace emotions, just as confidently as she embraced Trip on the cliff. She wondered if they would be driven away by the powerful Vulcan need for order and logic. After all the experiences they had shared on the island, she now believed that if she failed to retain this ability; if she could not be the affectionate wife Trip needed - they would be lost from one another when her control returned. A gulf as vast as the one before them would open, with one on either side, never to share this closeness again.

They looked at one another, met in a soft touch of lips, then cast their eyes below in unison at the fresh grave of their child. Without words, T’Pol allowed her hand to fall at his side and take hold of his. As he held her, he cupped her face in his hands amid the toil of several dark strands that danced across it in the music of the wind. Her face went limp into his hands, his hardened fingers somehow soft as velvet against her cheeks, her ear tips, and all along her neck as he held his wife. She met his lips in a practiced, well known connection. As his lips caressed hers, her thoughts returned the gentle touch.

They did not speak of how T’Pol ended up in the forest that night, or why she had not gone to him when she knew something was wrong. Since the loss, Trip’s ability to sense his wife’s emotions was much stronger. He knew she could not yet bear to speak of the tragedy or her loss of control and the wailing cries. He didn’t care that it seemed un-Vulcan, or that it was different from the T’Pol they both knew ten months ago. He knew only that she would need him more than ever for awhile, though how long, he couldn't be sure. Time was irrelevant. Escape was irrelevant. All things, it seemed, once relevant in the eyes of the Vulcan Sub Commander, drifted away with the last cool breeze as the air warmed and Trip pulled her tighter.


Day 336

It was near the middle of the night and light drops of rain were still dropping loudly but intermittently on the roof. Trip awoke slowly and deliberately, made aware of T'Pol's absence in a dream. He was able to pull himself out of the dreams now when T'Pol was involved, though the experience was still a bit disorienting. He blinked several times, lifted himself up and saw that the fire had been extinguished and the rain had begun to pass. He glanced aside briefly and indeed, T'Pol was missing. Throwing on his only pair of pants, he took off out the door into the dark-morning. Glaring at the stars above, he was sure it was no later than four or five by Earth standards. The stars were only partially masked by the dark violet coverlet of morning and he looked about several seconds before his eyes acclimated to the darkness.

The ocean rushed in the background as it always did, and the sound was so habitually expectant that he filtered out its slurping noises as he trotted down the beach. She was not visible anywhere near the shelter but he was not worried - not yet. It was the third or fourth time he had awakened with slight alarm to find her missing. At first it caused him a mild nightmare, but the second time he was distinctly aware that she had risen and left in some distress in the middle of the night.

When he didn't find her where she preferred to meditate, he became worried. Then he felt a twitch in the back of his mind and took a dozen more steps. Looming just inside the haze of a low-lying fog, T'Pol's form suddenly came into view as she sat on the sand near the edge of the slurping water. His shoulders relaxed slightly with relief and he went to her side as she faced the sea.

“Would you like some company?” Trip asked as sat opposite her. She did not respond for several moments as he watched her from across the sand. He chewed his lip and stood up, moving around her, seating himself behind her. He squirmed through the rough sand until his chest was against her back and her could reach around and lay his fingers atop hers. With her against his skin he could feel the heat beating through her as she relaxed into him and swallowed away a rising tide of emotion down her throat.

“It can’t be easy for ya’.”

“I do not know if these feelings will ever leave me,” she whispered, her eyes closed. His hands moved up to surround her body as he buried his face into her neck and kissed her in the crook of her shoulder. She shivered slightly as the wind blew into them while he squeezed her.

She pulled gently from his grasp and turned to him. “Will you meditate with me?” Tucker looked at her with slight confusion.

“Of course. Why wouldn’t I?” She pursed her lips and fluttered her eyes away from his the way she did when she was unsure of his willingness to agree to something.

“What I have in mind is not ordinary meditation.”

“Like what?” Trip asked curiously.

T’Pol rose from the lotus position and moved beside Trip while he watched. She sat beside him, facing the opposite direction with their faces a few feet apart.

“Now, place your fingers like this,” she showed him on her own hand. She stretched out her index and thumb as far apart as possible and curled her little finger in slightly. As she moved his hand to her face and placed her fingers on his face, the two began to move closer as if on autopilot.

T’Pol’s lips began to form words in Vulcan but the ambient sound in Trip’s head dropped off to nothing as he focused on her eyes. He eased himself forward, sliding closer to her until their faces were almost touching. Her lips moved faster, repeating the same mantra. The sound of her voice traced along an interminable edge, coming closer as they fell closer together. When he expected to feel the velvet of her lips against his, he paused as if on the edge of a cliff and plummeted suddenly as he moved through her! He panicked but suddenly came to a halt and the falling sensation dissolved as he looked around and found nothing but white. Perplexed, he turned round and round like a child in an unfamiliar store before his mother could return to his side.

“Trip.” He turned to find T’Pol, but she was different. Superficially, the woman before him could easily have been the T’Pol he knew a year ago on the Enterprise, with the same uniform, haircut, and stern veneer. But she wore another anomalous, more shocking feature – the closest measure to a smile he could imagine on her. He marveled at how remarkably becoming the quirk of her beautiful lips was for T’Pol. Trip looked up. “What is…” he began, turning round once again with an overwhelmed grin. T’Pol moved forward, her lips enlivened by the child-like wonder he exuded and the warm glow it stirred in her, even here, in the non-physical.

“This is where I go in my mind.”

He turned around to meet her. “In your mind,” he echoed doubtfully. She pursed her lips expectantly and moved closer to him with a taunting eyebrow. He took the invitation and moved into her lips immediately, luxuriating in the vivid infusion of her affection for him. Her wishes came to him like whispers in distant corners of an empty room. The echoes of singular, disciplined thought were perfectly coherent, discernable as each individual desire and emotion crept through.

She held the back of his neck and broke the kiss reluctantly, her eyes trained on the flick of his tongue over the lips she so enjoyed as she drew away. Suddenly, a piercing cry rang out far louder, uncontrolled and desperate from somewhere indiscernible. Its nature was quite clear, however, that of a child; a frightened infant, alone and despondent. Trip looked round but T’Pol simply winced and held a finger to her temple and swayed as if fatigued.

“T’Pol?” Trip asked in concern as he caught her easily.

“I am alright,” she assured him. “But there is a reason I have brought you here,” she braved.

“I need your help,” she confessed as she looked to the floor. He forced her eyes to his with a gentle finger at the base of her chin and kissed her forehead. Without words, she cradled his neck and his hands were drawn like electricity to her cheeks, tracing the length of her jaw and her ears. After several moments she allowed his hand to claim hers and fall to her side.

“There is something I must show you.” And with that they disappeared into a memory, and began to heal.



Day 365


The nights grew cold again and the storm season began anew just as it had when they first arrived. Since T’Pol’s pregnancy was lost at nearly mid-term, they were now back in the peak of the climatic period of rapidly approaching sunsets and dropping temperatures. Heavy rains made the forest wet and boggy, even dangerous, as Tucker discovered one day when he slipped and was nearly pulled into a mud pit. The two relied now solely on food from the forest and journeying there for the vegetation and small game from which they fed became difficult and dangerous. T’Pol grew concerned when the plants she had been cultivating for safe consumption became scarcer with each passing storm. Trip still refused to eat only a vegetarian diet, and thus was forced to scavenge for what game he could find as the weather turned sour. He began to suspect the wildlife knew something he didn't. It was possible they were migrating inland.

It seemed that the particular species of plant they had found to be safe for consumption were as periodic as the storm season, and became more difficult to locate. It was a long and difficult season. T’Pol’s guilt and sorrow over the loss of their daughter never fully healed and she became increasingly distant once again. She could not help but awe at the unwavering diligence Trip gave her immediately after the loss, when she came to bed each night, quiet and dispassionate. She lived up to the charge of her race with perseverance despite the onslaught of emotions that were both pleasant and heart-breaking, and they assaulted her without arrest.

Since T’Mir’s death, T’Pol had not lost control to her emotions, but she largely credited the fact to the growing frequency of melding sessions with Trip. They were meditating together as well, but the potency of relief born to her on the wings of the melds was unmatched. After the first occasion, they began melding earlier in the evening immediately after mealtime, since it irrevocably led to passionate, longwinded love-making afterwards. It was a shot-in-the-arm to their sex life as well as an exceptionally effective therapy for T’Pol’s grief. Trip was hurting too, but the battered human heart finds ways to bear the burdens of bereavement and bide its time until the barren blinds break through to a bright future, with bitterness forgotten. But for a Vulcan, it was not so easy, so instinctive.

She lived the life no Vulcan ever dreamed, or for that matter, one none would ever want to. A life within the arms of a human, embracing emotion and logic was hardly part of her assignment briefing when she joined Enterprise. He listened and touched the memories of her past and the hopes and fears in the recesses of her mind. He made love to her when she needed to remember the shelter of love and devotion, and to forget suffering and dejection. Still, there was a remedy to the malady that plagued the Vulcan’s heart and its weight tugged at her stronger as each day passed and their chance of rescue or returning to Enterprise neared.

How she longed to hold another Tucker child.

Day 499

5 months later


For over a year now, he awoke and laid eyes on the same damn cold, gray walls and thick sand. The heart and soul of a beautiful woman by his side may have made the days challenging while fruitful, and the night delectable beyond dream. But a Starfleet engineer could only go native for so long. He lazily caressed T’Pol’s light chestnut strands between his fingers.

He could also feel her powerful heartbeat, warm and constant in its pattern; her naked body beating against his. She sighed in her sleep, breath tickling across Trip's hair-covered abdomen as he stroked her cheeks and explored the alien's intriguing ears. As the sun rose, he was unable to tear his eyes from the tiny piece of ocean-blue sky that peered through the shelter-door. He longed to lay eyes on the real one again, and it was almost time to sink his teeth into that challenge.

It had been over a year since they had a real mission, an objective, a path. He hadn’t realized how important the regimental life of an officer and explorer had become to him; how deeply within him the Starfleet life was woven.

‘Indeed’, T’Pol might say, he mused inwardly. He had been in Starfleet for almost 15 years and on the move every second of it.

The day they had waited for, the day they would set out to find a way home, had finally arrived.

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During the last few months, the state of T’Pol’s ability to control while still accessing the emotions associated to T’Mir improved. Her guilt over the loss of their baby waned and due in no small part to access to Trip's mind. His disorderly and often obnoxious thought-patterns were frustrating at first. They often progressed from meditation and melding straight to the bedroom or, for lack of patience, just to the sand or even, in bouts of frolicsome experimentation, into the ocean. Trip even suggested the mud once, but after spending that evening on the sand – alone – it remained only once.

Over time, however, T'Pol was able to use his comparatively chaotic mental state as a touchstone for strength. She took the role of logic, and he of emotion and expression. In this very Vulcan-Human thematic role-play, she found solace and strength renewed as she had not known since the days of her self-assured youth, before she met a certain blonde engineer. But no such union would have stood had either invariably held to those two idyllic monoliths. On the contrary, the beauty of the trade hid in its gray-tones; where T'Pol ended and Trip began during the most successful of melds was often indeterminate. Where T'Pol indulged in him, Trip held her steady.

A bonded pair, perhaps more irrevocably than any two Vulcans had ever been or could ever be. She soon found trust that any time she wavered he would not let her deviate too far. She learned to treasure moments of affection, while never letting go of her spirit, nor losing her identity.

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When she felt strong enough, though Trip objected, she insisted on sharing his burdens as well. T’Pol argued that it was the logical response to his constant assistance, and she yielded herself to him eagerly. Through shared meditation and telepathic contact, she shared his pain, heartache, and homesickness. They had a child, born of their bond as much as of their biology, and she was gone now. None could have suspected the impossible, that an unaided pregnancy would be born of her first Pon Farr - a rare event even for Vulcan couples, not to speak of a Vulcan-Human hybrid. It was no coincidence that thoughts began to surface in Trip’s dreams, new desires fostered in an equally powerful nest of his de facto wife. Motivated by the loss of their daughter and the approaching warm season, they both began to commit to the hope that they might one day create another gentle new life in a more appropriate and safe environment – on Enterprise.

For many months, an unspoken understanding existed between them whereby Trip knew T'Pol secretly dreaded the return journey as much as anticipated it. He felt it during meditation, and saw it through the dreams they shared. The revelation of the bond gave T'Pol a more subtle venue in which to show herself to him, to reveal her Vulcan heart, in both its pride and insecurity.

She was unsure how their relationship could be integrated into the world of their past, and frankly he too was at quite a loss. In the months since their daughter’s death, however, T’Pol’s anxiety to return home, to face her mother and her people with her new mate - was replaced by a stronger motive. The desire to mend old wounds, and look again upon the face of a miracle child born of unspoken bonds won out over fear.

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Chapter 8 continued...

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Day 501

On the second day of their journey into the leafy inland, T’Pol climbed a hill crowned with several trees. The jungle canopy below the hill had significantly lessened further inland and was almost nonexistent save a few tall trees. The sun they were so unused to was warm on their backs and instilled a sense of nostalgia marred with uneasiness. The warmth was almost enough for T’Pol to picture the Vulcan sky once again...

She reached the top of the hill, looked out amongst the low-lying lands ahead of them and was about to turn to Trip when something caught her eye. She turned quickly to track its movement, but an errant lock of her long hair fell in front of her eyes, obscuring her vision.

“Trip!” she called behind her. He came running quickly up the slope, the gear slung behind him, clanging and chattering as he ran. He found her peering out over the ledge at what appeared to be nothing but an open clearing.

“What? It’s beautiful, but I don’t that’s why you called me up here,” he panted.

“I thought I saw someone across the field,” T’Pol declared. Trip looked on and she continued to comb the view with her eyes until resolved that whatever she saw eluded their sight. T’Pol resisted a frown as Trip tugged at her fingers, insisting they continue on the uncertain journey. She resisted, narrowing her eyes into the distance stubbornly. The sun was creeping towards the horizon and the air was noticeably warmer at the hill’s crest.

“We can camp here for the night,” Trip acceded. “You keep starin’ out there and I’ll just fix supper,” he muttered with a bit of irritation as he dropped the heavy pack and rummaged through its contents.

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Near dusk, Trip was making his way back to the camp where he and T’Pol would rest for the night. Slung over his shoulder was a badge of pride, bobbing somewhat grotesquely through the air as he marched. Triumphantly goose-stepping towards T’Pol’s shocked and disgusted reaction to what he caught for dinner; Trip's smile could not have been more reminiscent of a teenager holding his very first catch. Impaled on a sharp wooden spear was a dead rodent, not unlike the one he tried to capture the first week on the planet when he became hysterical. T’Pol doubted he was of any clearer a mind if he had any delusions that she would put part of that carcass in her mouth.

He trudged through one final row of bushes to find T’Pol sitting by a low-burning fire under the open sky. The sun, distantly setting more slowly this time of year, lent only a dying glow of orange to the sky as it bid the contented pair below good-night.

T’Pol crinkled her nose.

“Unfortunately, the bond has precluded any such ‘shock’ or ‘disgust’ for which you may have been hoping,” T’Pol informed him coolly.

“Do me a favor and never lose that charm of yours, a’right, darlin’?” He responded with a smile.

She looked up thoughtfully to consider the request.

“I will endeavor to remain as charming as possible,” she replied.

Trip laughed aloud and slapped the animal on the dirt across the fire from T’Pol enthusiastically, drawing an irritated gaze as mud slung up from the point of the spear.

“Sorry,” he confessed shamefully, as she brushed a chunk of mud that landed on her leg.

“So, what you think that was that you saw,” Trip asked automatically, as if it had been on his mind before he returned.

“I am unsure. I can only be certain that what I saw moved on two legs and was very quickly out of sight.”

“Mueller, then?” Trip asked as he strained to pull the animal from the large pointed weapon. T’Pol winced and crinkled her nose as the flesh tore, spraying Tucker’s hands in blood.

“Highly unlikely. As you observed, it is very difficult to distinguish the safe vegetation from that which causes hysteria and delusion. He would very likely not have survived this long.”

“Yeah,” Tucker agreed as he pulled out a sharp hunk of metal and grasped the home-made rubber grip he made from the pod’s materials and began skinning the animal.

"But, are you gonna' tell me it's indigenous and the Vulcan survey team just missed a local population?" Trip asked, shaking his head. T'Pol did not respond but Trip sensed a flinch of defeated logic, if only for an instant. He smiled in triumph before he tore back into the beast.

“I suppose it could be a rescue party,” he added light-heartedly.

“They would have signaled sooner, and would have no need to mask their presence from us,” T’Pol countered.

“But Gary always was a pretty thorough officer. I wouldn’t be surprised if he read that report a’ yours and learned what not to eat,” Tucker mused to himself, carefully preparing his meal. Just then, a sudden crack such as a snapping twig broke the silence and drew panicked glances between Trip and T’Pol. Before even her Vulcan reflexes could react, he was among them.
 
Chapter 9


“Commander!”

The dirt and mud-covered man lurched toward Commander Tucker and embraced him. Still in shock, Tucker stiffened instinctively and looked to T’Pol who quirked an eyebrow.

“Commander, Sub Commander, you’re alive!” he exclaimed, looking from one to the other.

“We could say the same for you!” Tucker joked jovially, smiling uneasily as the primitive looking man in front of him came into focus and Tucker again recognized the muddy Mueller as the young ensign he once new. His clothes were tattered and dirty, as were Tucker and T’Pol’s, but his looked as though they had seldom been cleaned or removed. His hair was long and raggedly unkempt, falling down to his shoulders and colored the same as the mud clinging between the strands.

“What happened to you after the crash, I guess you ended up… inland?” Trip asked timidly.

Trip chewed his lip uneasily and briefly met T’Pol’s warning gaze as the ensign hesitated. Gary began to explain. Trip sensed from her thoughts she was not completely convinced the ensign was harmless. Tucker hid his own apprehension well enough that T’Pol was at first concerned that he was too readily receiving the Mueller’s return.

Hoshi’s death at the end of a phase pistol was yet to be explained. If the ensign had indeed been responsible, whether of a sound or disturbed mind, it would be unwise of Trip to openly interrogate a disturbed man who may still be armed.

T’Pol squinted, focusing on her link to Tucker’s mind from across the fire as Mueller explained several key events of the past year of his survival. Tucker listened more than spoke, a piece of advice T’Pol had attempted to communicate to him telepathically. It was the first opportunity to test such ability and she was doubtful it would prove successful. However, as Tucker began to follow her silent suggestions – allowing Mueller to offer what information he wished and avoiding pointedly suspicious lines of questioning – she nearly allowed a smile of triumph. It stirred great satisfaction in her chest that welled up into a charge of affection through the bond that Trip felt acutely. For the first time it seemed that perhaps the vast chasm between Vulcan and Human may prove not so impassable.

She dutifully smoothed the upturned corners of her lips as Trip turned to her. As was her custom, she hid any outward trace of the happiness it gave her to realize the bond was just successfully tested. He turned an eye on T’Pol curiously when he felt her through the bond, but quickly returned his attention to the ensign who was busily telling stories of his survival.

When Gary was finished, the trio talked lightly of their theory on how they came to be here and what had happened to Lieutenant Reed. At T’Pol’s suggestion, Tucker fibbed that they had never found Hoshi’s body, but assumed she had perished in much the same manner. Mueller appeared to accept the news of their “duplicate” theory rather well, without the panic or hysteria T’Pol had worried might follow if he were not entirely mentally stable.

Tucker proceeded to explain he and T’Pol—he and the Sub Commander’s – plans to find and attempt to disable the device creating the gravitational distortion field around the planet.

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Day 503

Two days later, the newly reunited trio of the Enterprise crew trekked deep within the thick, muggy underbelly of the forest canopy near noon. Both Tucker and T’Pol were trying to keep an eye on Mueller’s behavior while not acting too suspiciously. Meanwhile, their own typical behavior had to be altered considerably.

Trip hadn’t realized just how confining the regulations of their lives aboard a starship had been. Only hours after Mueller had rejoined them, he immediately realized that intimacy was on hold at least until they could be sure there was no danger of being discovered by him. He was soon to discover, however, that T’Pol considered such indulgences absolutely out of the question no matter how far away Mueller seemed to be; and that the risk was too great. She argued that their only hope of maintaining control of their lives when they returned was to reveal their relationship on their own terms – if ever. Were Mueller to find out, once they returned and he were debriefed, the relationship between them was bound to come out, and the Vulcan High Command would surely remove her from the Enterprise immediately, to speak nothing of the humiliation of it being revealed through a Starfleet report. Tucker was relieved to hear her speak of how strongly she insisted upon continuing their relationship when they returned, and though he was not sure how they could ever be intimate as second and third command officers of a starship, he acceded that the argument was moot for the time being. Still, were they to escape the binds of their professional responsibilities, they would never change the way both Vulcans and Humans would spurn a mixed couple.

The next day, all day, and that evening, Tucker realized that he was so used to the most seemingly innocuous nuances between he and his beloved that were absolutely not acceptable in the company of a fellow officer. At least, that’s what T’Pol kept telling him. But the weight was bearing down on her as well. As effectively as she hid the outward craving for intimacy, every now and again Trip could feel a powerful shot of arousal through the bond. It seemed to T’Pol that perhaps the usually expended sexual drive she had grown used to expressing was now building up within her psyche and reaching out to touch her beloved’s libido telepathically.

She had grown unsuitably accustomed to his open affection and to the liberty of showing some of her own in return. The abandonment of even simple contact was profoundly unsettling to her. She had been satisfied with the balance attained before the return of Mueller, before the return of reality. She believed she had conquered the darker parts of herself and rationed out the fruits of their relationship, to sate an illogical Vulcan hunger once in awhile had seemed to be sufficient for both her sanity and her sense of worth as a Vulcan. Now she found it tremendously difficult to resist openly taking Tucker’s hand or sharing his bed. Had they really been so intimate that she had become addicted?


Day 505

How will I continue to function in Vulcan society with these feelings…she wondered inwardly as they moved further into the forest. Trip glanced over his shoulder at his beloved on cue and his image instantly bore itself into her subconscious. He appeared over her, naked, beaded with sweat and assaulting her with hot breath on the side of her neck as he buried his face into for one final-- She shook away the memory but barrages of similar erotic imagery made it difficult to refocus from the delusion to a more important matter.

On the previous night, Mueller went missing. They found him just a few hours later as he came limping back into camp with a torn uniform and blood oozing from an open wound. He was dazed looking and spoke little as T’Pol dutifully administered a first aid kit for which they had found little need since the Pon Farr episode had passed. She blinked away another potent memory, previously buried in her subconscious, resurfacing as she tended to the blood-soaked flesh.

While T’Pol bandaged his injury, Tucker looked intently at Mueller, whose eyes lay unfocused against the whole of the greenery that surrounded them. He seemed to be looking everywhere, and nowhere at once. Tucker eyed Mueller with hands on his hips and paced over dry mud.

“Where’d you go?” Tucker asked, trying to hide the interrogative tone in his voice. Gary’s catatonia continued for one long moment before Tucker opened his mouth to ask again. T’Pol felt his temper rising as she dabbed the man’s wounds with disinfectant, but before she could even turn to him a warning glint, Mueller turned.

“Uh, ahm, well, I was uh,” he stammered, blinking erratically as if being roused from a deep trance.

“I’m sorry, I was hunting this morning for breakfast when I tripped on a log and fell into a ditch. I hit my leg on a rock on the way down,” he explained, glancing at the Sub Commander dispiritedly.

“I never was the best at it,” he confessed, a bit of levity breaking the stone lines of his jaw. “My father hates guns, never let me hunt a thing in my life,” he laughed nervously. Trip returned T’Pol a doubtful frown as the man turned his back from him to give her access to the bruise on his neck.

“Then it is fortunate your skills have improved. To have survived so effectively only on the flesh of animals,” T’Pol remarked cunningly.

“I’m sorry, Sub Commander, I forget how offensive to you our eating habits can be,” he turned over his shoulder to Commander Tucker with a grin. Tucker’s frown lit up instantly as he forced a smile and nodded knowingly. He moved around the camp to look Mueller squarely in the eye.

“Hell, I wouldn’t touch that green shit, I told her,” he scoffed. T’Pol played along and turned a characteristically intrigued but disgusted eyebrow up along with her nose at the comment.

“I would not expect you to understand the habits of an enlightened species, Mr. Tucker,” T’Pol prodded him expertly. He almost laughed, then decided it would be appropriately in-character, so he indulged.

“Enlightened, my ass. You taste that crap, Gary? Tastes like someone’s old shoe,” he mumbled, kicking a clot of dirt up as he paced away, pretending to lose interest in the exchange while listening for Gary’s answer. The young ensign blinked unsurely as T’Pol finished up.

“Oh yeah, it’s disgusting, I tried it the first day, uhh… it didn’t agree with me if ya’ know what I mean,” he lauded with an anxious smile.

“Now uh, if I may be dismissed sirs, I think I left some of my things in the forest,” he said hurriedly.

“Sure, go get ‘em,” Trip responded as the man’s back disappeared behind a rustling of leaves. He turned on T’Pol ominously and they agreed silently.

“Somethin’s wrong,” Trip told her, taking the opportunity of the man’s absence to take the tiniest respite with T’Pol in his arms if only for a few moments. Her eyes softened as the tips of her fingers traced unknown notes of Vulcan music on his face. But she resisted the relief it gave her, pulling them to her side and resuming a stern and decisive countenance.

“I believe he is concealing something,” T’Pol announced finally, slipping back into an official posture. Tucker nodded.

“I agree,” he said, shaking his head. “But I haven’t a damn clue what it is,” he sighed.

“Have you seen the phase pistol?” T’Pol asked pointedly. Trip sagged onto a boulder and shook his head.

“Neither have I,” she responded.

“We should assume it is still in his possession,” she warned. “If we should locate the weapon, and the opportunity presents itself—“ she paused as Trip’s jaw snapped up beginning to object.

“We should take it,” Trip echoed the Vulcan’s forthcoming sentiments.

”Only then will it be safe to question him regarding Hoshi’s death.”

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“Commanders?”

The tall young ensign called out into the clear night of the forest while a rumbling settled in the distance. He was sure the storm was approaching as the lightning grew nearer and nearer, now shaking the very ground. A crystal-clear column of blue and white fire struck the ground and towered into the sky above the tree line over the valley. The rain fell thick and heavily, like a heavy blanket bearing down on him while the heavens thundered above. There was a tussle in the bushes and he turned to find nothing but a shadow upon the floor as the starlight of the naked night bore down on him under the pelts of rain.

“Gary…” came a voice from above and his chin shot up to answer only to find a curtain of rain above him, stinging his eyes and weakening the ground beneath his feet.

“Gary!” the voice called out again, this time from every direction at once. He turned round and round in panic, looking for the disconnected voice he recognized with paralyzing disbelief.

“You’re dead! I had to… I had to!” Suddenly she appeared, and for an instant he was sure she would take him with her.


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Gary awoke in a cold sweat and found the world swirling about in a green blur. In the corner of the blurring madness was a distant voice, and a few moments later he connected it with the face looming over him. He focused on it, and the trees began to slow and suddenly he felt the ground under his feet. His muscles ached for want of rest, though he was sure it was late morning and he had just awakened. Commander Tucker’s disembodied face then revealed his body, the forest around him and a dispassionate but investigative pair of Vulcan eyes on him as well. They helped him to stand, but he rebuffed their concerns as he shuffled off to make breakfast.

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Day 507


“That’s the third time,” Trip warned as they each nibbled at the evening meal. The fire cracked and fizzled in response while T’Pol opted for a non-vocal response. She merely nodded around her canteen and let slip a dose of the apprehension through the bond that she felt in regard to Mueller’s behavior.

“Yeah,” Tucker muttered as he picked at a piece of meat and scowled at it.

“Me too,” he replied. A sense of intrigue filled T’Pol as her Vulcan eyes fluttered in curious contemplation and she lifted a high eyebrow. She was unsure how far Trip’s mental capacity could allow their telepathy to continue to advance. He clearly understood her thoughts and feelings almost as acutely as if she had spoken them into fully-formed words. Her mind wandered until a tickle at the base of her neck hailed the coming of Trip’s attention on her. Curious, she thought…perhaps it is his mind’s primitive way of unconsciously calling on its mate.

“You’re thinkin’,” Trip teased her, his lips parting into a minor smile. She nodded and wrapped the apprehension back up neatly into an isolated corner of her mind for future reflection.

“I am concerned that our fresh water supply may prove insufficient now,” she said, referring to the new presence of their lost crewman. While relieved to have found another survivor, the tension and uneasiness in the air when Mueller was around was undeniable. T’Pol sensed something disturbing when he was close but could not identify the source. Trip just plain didn’t trust him, and though T’Pol hardly put any stock in a human’s “gut feeling”, it was not without a bit of irony that she could not in fact logically justify her own anxiety around Mueller, save for the obvious suspicion of Hoshi’s death. But still, Vulcans did not experience illogical fright or, as humans had put it, “chills”. Somehow, Mueller’s presence seemed to defy the rules.

Perhaps Vulcans do get ‘gut’ feelings, she pondered. Or perhaps Tucker’s were simply rubbing off on to her. Due to her connection with Trip’s mind, she was aware of the sexual similarities to that euphemism, and it was a cold reminder of just how little intimate contact they had experienced since the ensign rejoined them. She pushed away the illogical urge to have Trip tonight, deciding to wait for the opportunity for a sufficiently private venue. Her attitude of abstinence had already given way to a compromised agreement with her flaring appetites, and she decided that indulging in private would be acceptable. They were, after all, bonded mates. It is only logical.

He took a mouthful of broth and nodded approvingly, tipping his spoon to T’Pol. She gazed back attentively, drawn from her reverie.

“This is damn good,” he said, surprised.

“I am pleased you enjoy it. It is my mother’s recipe for Plomeek broth. I am restricted to limited ingredients given our circumstances, of course,” she confessed. Trip froze wide-eyed with the spoon just on the edge of his lip.

This is Plomeek soup?” Trip asked incredulously.

“Yes,” T’Pol answered with an eyebrow. “Are you surprised to find it agreeable?” she asked with an edge.

“Well… Yes!” He paused, turning his eyes down to meticulously spy the contents of the spoon.

“I just always thought it was…” T’Pol raised a challenging eyebrow as Tucker felt out an acceptable response. He mentally slapped himself as he realized that every uncouth reprisal of Vulcan cuisine that he considered but did not speak was undoubtedly being broadcasted across T’Pol’s mental loudspeaker anyway. He looked up to find her still drilling him with an inquisitive stare.

“Well, Vulcan food doesn’t have the greatest reputation. Most say it’s bitter,” he said. T’Pol finished her own broth and set the field utensil aside as she anxiously lifted the pot of leafy, green plants from their perch over the fire. She had encountered a new type of vegetation deep in the forest and was testing her creation on Trip.

She found the culinary art of experimentation to be quite fascinating, and personally fulfilling. For the past several months they had now been sustaining themselves on combinations of fruits and vegetables that the Vulcan survey had reported safe to eat. She even felt a little surprised at the revelation of an apparently hidden talent for developing a wide variety of meals out of Spartan ingredients, and Trip had often complimented her.

She pulled a small, firm stalk of a green plant from the steaming insides of the bowl, plucking at it with a pointed utensil and quickly dropping it onto Trip’s plate. He looked up in surprise. T’Pol sat back and watched him expectantly.

“You want me to go first, huh?” he asked with a laugh as a smile broke his lips.

“I once overheard a conversation between Chef and the other cooks in which I learned it is customary on Earth for the preparer to offer the first taste to another.” Trip chuckled in response. An eyebrow shot up immediately.

“I also learned that it is usually considered an offering only made to one entrusted not to insult the chef,” she informed him with an edge. He laughed loudly as he took the green stalk on a fork as steam rose from it. He placed it warily between his teeth and sucked it into his mouth. His face lightened.

“Wow-Ah!” he gaped as the steaming vegetable stung his palette. He swallowed it quickly to relieve the pain.

“Mmm,” he mumbled as his lips and tongue pulsed painfully.

“It’s delicious,” he exclaimed. “Just a little hot,” he chuckled. “We could really use some butter. It reminds me of my grandma’s steamed broccoli,” he said as he took another stalk from the pot and chewed on it.

“Reminds me of Thanksgiving,” he remarked quietly. T’Pol’s darted her eyes guiltily as she sensed homesickness through the bond. She was silent several moments before looking up to find a forgiving pair of blue eyes on her.

“Don’t worry about it,” he whispered as he leaned forward to plant his lips on hers. A long and desperately desired kiss seemed to last until the evening light had faded, and then as it broke, vanquished the gap between their lips again with a dozen encores. They broke to find T’Pol’s back was against the ground with Trip over her, unknowingly having migrated from chaste kiss to missionary stretch. Trip got up and she followed, straightening a displaced lock of hair that fell across Trip’s face. She exhaled sharply and Trip frowned apologetically.

“Trust me, I know,” he agreed. “It’s really hard,” he confessed, sheepishly running a hand through his sun-stained golden hair.

“I suppose that’s one advantage to him disappearin’ at night for hours on end,” he mused. “Gives us a little privacy.”

“Perhaps. But without an assurance of when he will return, it is dangerous to…” she trailed off, but Trip got the idea. He nodded and they returned to the meal.

“It is also troublesome,” T’Pol added. Trip nodded with a frown as he leaned into a stump and tore a bite out of another stalk of T’Pol’s Island Broccoli.

“Tell me about it. Something’s going on with him. He’s not the same person I remember. He was never… reclusive like this,” Tucker muttered quietly.

T’Pol evenly distributed the remaining stalks from the pan, now cooler to the touch, between her own plate and his.

“Do you think it’ll be like this when we get back?” Tucker asked, changing the subject. T’Pol considered asserting that she had no idea what he meant, but in truth she was well aware he spoke of ‘us’.

“Assuming we get back,” T’Pol amended. “Our respective positions on Enterprise would require a degree of…”

“Secrecy.” Trip finished for her. She turned her head in his direction and swallowed the knot in her throat as she searched for the words.

“I was going to say ‘restraint’,” T’Pol said quietly. He squinted back at her and she flinched under the scrutiny, moving towards him.

“Do you mean, if we get back, we’re not going to be together? I thought…” he asked in disbelief. She looked up at him from a few inches away. His mouth hung open slightly and she resisted the urge to simply silence his concerns the most gratifying way her lips knew of.

“How can you say that after everything we’ve been through, after—“ but he was cut off when she touched fingers to his cheek and her forehead to his.

This is where I go in my mind…

The words echoed with familiarity even as everything else fell away. The meld was sudden and unexpected, causing Trip to swoon and nearly fall, but T’Pol grasped him firmly. Their consciousnesses moved away from the waking world around them. When he came to and found T’Pol leaning over him, he expected to sit up and find the surroundings painted with sterile white as ever before when they entered this place.

Instead, he was surrounded by thick, green grass and a wide meadow. On either side of them, a mile of open grassland stretched until it met a lush border of green forest. He blinked absently and took T’Pol’s hand as she pulled him up. The ground was uneven and sloped downwards. His eyes followed the dirt at his feet down the meadow as it landed on a clear pond, with a young boy standing near it, cradling a wooden pole as a thin string of cord bobbed around in the water below.

As T’Pol guided him forward he turned to speak to her, but when he found almost a smile there he merely gaped and turned back to the pond with a finger outstretched.

“Isn’t this…” he muttered softly to himself. He searched the tree line and expectantly beheld a plume of gray smoke as it rose from a medium-sized, but old-fashioned, dwelling on an empty field. A single road led up to the door and an elderly man was making his way from the mailbox back up to the door.

“I know this place,” Trip said finally as they continued walking towards the pond. Her lips turned up slightly and she turned to hide the surreptitious birth of a smile.

“I thought these were all places from your life?” he asked. ‘This looks like Earth.”

“Your grandfather’s farm, I believe,” she said, gently reaching into his mind. In the distance an elderly woman with a rigidly sculpted hairline of aged brown and a middle-aged looking face came through the door of the home and embraced the elderly man. As Trip quickly made his way up to the young boy, he failed to notice the woman near the home embracing the old man, and the startlingly out-of-place feature about her.

When he made it up to the dock he called out for the boy, who didn’t respond. He jogged closer to him but the boy was still oblivious to his presence or the creaky thuds of his footfalls on the dock. A loud whistle rang out from across the meadow and the young boy cringed and held his ear painfully. Tucker gaped as the boy removed his fingers from the injury and revealed a very pointed ear. The boy certainly bore a resemblance to Trip, with an identical nose, mop of blonde-brown hair and blue eyes.

“What’s goin’ on here?,” Trip said as he pointed at the boy. T’Pol stood near Trip as both pair of eyes followed the boy when he dropped the pole and bounded up to the home, to his parents. T’Pol made it to his side and he looked back at her in confusion.

“It is an illusion, we cannot interact with them,” she responded.

“But this seems so real,” he said.

“It is from your mind instead of mine. Your memories of this place are quite vivid,” she said, almost reverently.

“But this didn’t happen, I don’t know these people. That kid looks like me and this looks like my grandpa’s farm but he looks…”

Trip gazed into the distance just as the young boy bounded up to the house and embraced his father. As Tucker looked on, he instantly recognized the boy’s mother and turned on T’Pol with a smile. She moved forward and stopped him with a finger on his lips.

“Before you speak, there is something else I want to show you.”
 
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Chapter 10


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Day 507


“I definitely don’t know this place,” Trip muttered. As they moved around a wide fountain, he admired the decorative tile marked with Vulcan symbols.

“This place is not real,”T’Pol explained. “It exists only in my mind.” She strolled up to his side just in time to catch the look of shock on his face when a young girl emerged from the home. Trip guessed the short, brown haired girl looked about five years old, but he wasn’t sure if his appraisal could be accurate, given the pointed tips of her ears. She dutifully toted a doll under her arm with a thin sheet of blonde hair and blue eyes that opened and closed as she hoisted it under one arm. Trip laughed as he watched the young Vulcan girl cradle the baby to her side while she ran past, barely dodging Tucker’s leg and clearly unaware of their presence. As if her proximity to his apparitional presence set off paternal alarms, a proud twinkle lit up his eyes as he recognized his unborn daughter.

“Daddy!” she shouted aloud. A familiar hearty laugh broke out in response and Tucker turned to find himself with an extra pip on his collar and a few more lines in his face, picking the girl up and swirling her about as a gorgeously un-Vulcan smile erupted from the girl’s lips. He hoisted her onto his shoulders and marched towards the house.

Trip turned to T’Pol who watched distantly at first until his attention brought her out of the trance and she blinked through an emotional assault and her breathing fluttered. She waited, hoping that he would understand.

“You want another chance,” he whispered as his throat tightened slightly. T’Pol looked to the floor, still unsure of how to respond. A stir of warmth in her belly tickled the corners of her lips as she felt his smile, though her eyes were still glued to the floor.

“You don’t even have to ask,” he told her quietly as he took her waist in his arms and planted his lips on her forehead. She sighed in relief, as if the closeness of his telepathic presence even in this fictitious plane of existence somehow removed the prying eyes of her own Vulcan guilt. It let her settle into the admission that she indeed wanted another child.

“When we get back,” he whispered as he pulled away from her, holding her gently by the shoulders.

“A lot of things are gonna’ change,” he said with raised eyebrows. “But not this,” he shook his head, pulling her hand to his chest. “Not ever.”

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Jungle


The skies were alight with orange and purple flights of fire as glowing streamers shot across the evening darkness like a summer storm on Earth. The fantastic lightshow in the evening and dawn skies that were native to this planet and its relativistically unruly environs was exploding forth like never before, marking some unknown hallmark event.

Unlike a thunderstorm, the cracks of light crossed the sky alone, not accompanied by thunderous shocks through the evening air. The bolts came silently, but still a gentle humming beneath the dirt seemed to resonate throughout the entire planet. The exotic blue and green flames shot quickly and quietly like bolts of lightning, but then oozed across the sky like the phenomena Trip and T’Pol had witnessed before. Only this was different.

Even Mueller knew that, as frantically out of his mind as he was. And he congratulated himself for it.

I’ve done it! The mad voice echoed over and over in triumph.

He panted through the forest, crying out in a mixture of revel and lunacy, while winds raged between the trees and the sky shattered above. A stream of blood steadily trickled its way down his cheek from an open wound with signs of burnt tissue around it.

Sacrifices, sacrifices… “Sacrifices must be made!” he panted, tripping and adding a crooked nose to his already blood-streaked face. He cursed them aloud as branches and twigs snapped into his face while the fiery display continued above. It was as if the year-long mystery lightshow were finally coming to a dramatic conclusion.


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In another part of the jungle, Trip and T’Pol lie on the sand, oblivious as they explored untouched realms within while the world without quaked around them. Trees were downed, the shell of dark purple around the planet cracked and black spilled in, beginning to transform the sky into empty space. The hills in the distance seemed to thrum forebodingly.

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It wasn’t enough to feel like an earthquake, but as Mueller tore through the leaves and wiped the blood from his eyes, he was shaken more than once from his footing, collapsing to the jungle floor on open grass, taking in a wide expanse of the thunderous sky.

“Finally!” he laughed aloud as he sprung up on two knees and spread his arms wide into a torrent of hot wind. He took off again without thought of direction. Soon he was turned around and heading straight back towards the camp.

“I’ve finally destroyed you!” he shouted into the wind as he came upon a clearing. He was startled out of his triumphant trance by the maniacal cackling of thunderous response above. He looked up and found a moment’s sobriety in the gentle recession of the invading blackness, the relinquishment of the night’s despairing cold, and a sudden drop in the humidity around him. The sun emerged and cast new light on darkened shores, raising alien blossoms long lost to the depths of time from their timid roots. The night rumbled away, receding like a tired sea after an exhaustive storm. Day broke, the sun rose and lit the sky a fantastic blue like that of the Earth and the trembling abated.

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“This is Vulcan…” Trip announced as he turned to T’Pol.

“Indeed, though you have never been here,” T’Pol interjected. Trip shot her an amused glance before returning his eyes to a wide expanse of orange-red soil and seething natural springs.

“Fire Plains…” he pointed in front of them. The scenery suddenly changed and T’Pol’s brow furrowed with interest. He had adjusted to the telepathic space very adeptly.. Memory by memory, he scrolled through parts of her life and shared them with her, through them touching a deep, long-forgotten part of her. A familiar sight materialized before her and she was intrigued at his choice.

“Your garden,” he pointed as he turned to her. She nodded. A new sight appeared.

“Mount Seleya,” she offered him as he struggled to form the words, his eyes lifting to take in the massive monolith of rock they stood immediately below. He turned back.

“I was gettin’ there!” he snapped playfully.

“How bout this one?” he asked flicking his tongue between his lips and throwing his arms around his telepathically-uniformed shoulders. The scenery changed, this time to something T’Pol hadn’t imagined he would root out of the recesses of her memory. It was a time and place she had not known since she was a child, when her great foremother T’Lin first told her of the Vulcan Rites of Bonding. The caves inside Mount Seleya appeared around them.

The walls were lit with torches circling the room, towering up several meters into a blackness. The ground, the walls and nearby adornments were far more elegant than he had seen Vulcan style exhibited before.

“Certainly not what I would have expected,” he snorted as he surveyed the room.

“Do you know this place?” she asked curiously, testing his telepathic acuity.

He shook his head while chewing his lip, as if the answer was buried under rubble but he could sense it near.

“This is a bonding chamber,” she informed him. He turned on her, loosened his arms down to his side and moved towards her with a boyish grin. The coy smile hiding behind the Vulcan mask shined through like the Sun being hidden by a mere space rock, glowing around its edges while the brilliance behind was unmistakable.

“I didn’t know all Vulcans did that as part of the bonding,” he smirked as she let slip an errant image of the ancient use of this place.

“We have not always resisted our emotions,” T’Pol reminded him coolly, though a sting of self-consciousness reminded her that she had partially regressed to that time. She reminded herself that she had found balance, whereas ancient Vulcans had failed and fallen into violence and war.

His fingers lazily crept around her slender hips and pulled her towards him, the nimble body moving willingly against him as he planted his lips onto hers. She reciprocated eagerly but a few moments later forced herself to relinquish his embrace. He searched her eyes for a long moment and found nothing but dream-like peace as he drowned in a sea of brown on hazel.

“Open your hand like this and move your two fingers together,” she instructed him.

“What like a meld, I thought we were already in here?” he asked, referring to the strange mind-space T’Pol brought him to when they melded and meditated together.

“This gesture is not for melding, it is a Vulcan greeting of one’s mate to another, and it is considered our only acceptable form of affection to show in public. Most offworlders do not recognize it as an affectation of intimacy,” she stated matter-of-factly.

He chuckled and moved his fingers the way she instructed, with the index and middle joined together but separated from the rest of the hand, touched together to the tip of hers. He winced as they made contact, expecting a surge of electricity or some similar feeling now that he was beginning to expect the strange telepathic effects of these Vulcan rituals.

Instead, there was nothing. He frowned disappointedly but T’Pol’s eyes remained affixed to his and her lips parted slightly as she exhaled and slowed her breathing to focus on Tucker. Suddenly her fingertips began to beat lukewarm, then hot, then steaming! Somehow the warmth leapt from his fingertips immediately to the junction of his shorts and he choked and almost lost his balance and began to crumple to the floor under an unexpected wave of pleasure.

T’Pol grabbed him and met his lips passionately, tugging him to the floor with her. The fire in him became cooler and sustained as he pulled her down on him to the mat that lie on the floor. It was only then as he pulled himself off the heavy-breathing T’Pol that he realized two tall candles in holders flanked them on either side and a large gong hung several feet in front of them. The gong rang out and he looked up to see a visage of himself there, in regal Vulcan robes that seemed to become him, if a bit large. He watched in wonder as a woman emerged from nothingness as an apparition of T’Pol, dressed not in bland Vulcan robes of Earthy colors, but a staggering violet wedding dress. The imaginary T’Pol approached her would-be t’hyla and they stepped to the side, kneeling in front of one another and meeting their hands together at the two-fingered greeting. Trip remained on the mat beside T’Pol, watching their wedding play out before them.

“Will you be my mate, forever, t’hlya?” the real T’Pol asked him as she reached up and held his cheek in her hand, running her fingers over the ruddy stubble of his jaw. He looked down at her from the imaginary fantasy playing out and smiled. As her hand went flat against his skin and firmly moved from his neck down to his chest, the muscles beneath her palm rippled and flinched nervously. Her eyes widened while her hands roamed his chest, awakening a presence within her as her eyes grew cloudy with desire while she awaited his response.

“Of course. I love you, T’Pol,” he answered.

“This thing that happened to us,” he looked down.

“It’s changed me, forever. I don…” he stopped, shaking his head.

“I don’t know what’ll happen when, or if,” he stammered.

”We get back to the Enterprise. But I want to be with you for the rest of my life,” he whispered before meeting her lips again. She pulled away.

“This is my Vulcan heart, my Vulcan soul, and this is our way. Then we are bonded as one, never parted again.”

“Does that mean I can finally hear you say you’ll love me for the rest of my life?” Trip asked with a smirk, half-joking. She had still never used the words and part of him begged it to be now, if never again.

She sprang up at him, clutching his abdomen and pulling herself up to meet him. She was straddling his lap now and he leaned forward to feel her against him. He recognized the hot rhythm of her pulse against his skin and looked down to find their tele-uniforms had disappeared. Unable to lift his eyes from her golden bronze body, he trembled as she traced the edges of the “rocket tattoo” with her fingertips, temptingly close to an area than began to throb powerfully against her thigh. The heat was almost unbearable but she struggled to focus on answering his question first as her hands hungrily went up his neck and stroked his hair.

“No,” she confessed. He looked deflated before she leaned up until her lips tickled his perfectly rounded ear.

“As I will most likely out-live you, it is logical to assume I will love you for the rest of mine,” she whispered matter-of-factly. She kneeled her naked body over his and knowingly situated her hips in the right place. A shiver rode down her spine as the tip of him lightly tickled her sensitive bud and she kissed his ear. T’Pol shuddered as Trip touched her lips with his and she sank down onto him with a gasp.

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Day 508


Jungle


As the sky grew lighter, the warming rays of the sun began to peek over the horizon and trickle down the faces of Trip and T’Pol as they lie sleeping. Soon after becoming intimate within the mind space the night before, both realized they desired more substantive intimacy and broke free of the mind meld. In moments, any concern for discovery by Mueller was thrown to the wind along with any last remnant of caution. Making love for the rest of the night, they rested easy in each other’s arms, clothed in little else than the thermal blankets they had taken from the shelter on the beach. They had been lucky enough for their part that the evening had hidden their location from the wandering Mueller, but that luck was finite.

As Tucker was dressing, T’Pol rose and started a fire to prepare the morning meal. A moment later, however, Mueller emerged from the underbrush. The rustling startled T’Pol’s sensitive ears, who turned to inspect the disturbance. When Tucker turned to see what held T’Pol’s intense glare, a cold stroke of terror froze him in place for an instant. Déjà vu.

The fear wadded up in his belly and tightened his throat, reminding him of the same fear that drove him cowering into the trees in hysteria the first night on the island. It was only because Tucker stood before him a different man, now, that something warm flooded the frozen fear and melted it away. It was an intoxicating potion, mixing only as borrowed Vulcan fortitude and native Human ferocity could.

If not for that hot infusion of focus and strength, he may not have acted as quickly or as decisively as he did in the moments that followed. There was no reason to fear Gary Mueller as they had known him, years ago. But as Trip looked at the handful of phase pistol, he realized just how much had changed in all this time. Wild-eyed and unforgiving, Gary’s face contorted, begging for forgiveness as his grip on the weapon tightened. Trip’s fingers began to twitch with trepidation.

Near the stone… on the ground.

The pistol went up, its line of sight leveling not on Tucker but a beloved target to his side. Trip’s fingers flinched and he ducked, dove, and grasped through the mud at his hunting companion. With all his might he put the spear into Mueller’s chest as he squeezed the pistol, firing a hair’s breadth over T’Pol’s shoulder and singeing a patch of skin. His arms went limp as he dropped the pistol and collapsed to his knees. T’Pol cried out as the beam hit her, but it was superficial and only slightly painful. Rolling onto his back, Trip panted anxiously as the adrenaline pooled in him. Glancing at T’Pol, he sensed that she was okay and turned his eyes back to the sky as he realized what he had done.

T’Pol watched Mueller fall to the ground, writhing and gasping, as his mind broke the bonds of madness and finally escaped the island to find peace.

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The Conclusion....
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Epilogue

Day 509

Bridge

“Captain, we’re picking up a very faint distress call. It has a Starfleet signature, but…”

The Captain’s chair swiveled to meet the eyes of the chief engineering officer as he punched away at the console, entering several commands.

“Commander?” he inquired. It was unlike his chief engineer to have trouble evaluating a simple distress call.

“The security protocol doesn’t recognize the signal’s carrier wave,” he explained with detachment as he squinted in confusion at the readouts in front of him. The Captain mused to himself as he squinted in thought.

“Could it be an old code?”

The engineer shook his head uncertainly.

“It would have to be pretty old,” the engineer responded doubtfully as he continued to clean up the transmission.

“There’s some kind of chronometric interference, sensors are having trouble isolating it.”

“There,” he declared.

“It’s coming from the fourth planet of the Beta Tauri system. It’s audio only.”

The Captain nodded. “Put it through.”

“Shuttlepod two to ---rprise, this is Com----r Tucker! We’ve lost engines and ma--- power is failing –not en--- injuries. Need em--- beam --- now! Tucker to Enter------”

The Captain stood with alarm and his face turned white. The bridge sat rapt with silence as a few knowing faces made ghostly stares at one another in disbelief.

“That’s all there is, Captain. We can’t respond,” the engineer informed him.

“A Shuttlepod?” Ensign Tackett at Ops asked in disbelief.

“Time to arrival at maximum warp?” the Captain interrupted.

“Approximately fourty hours, sir,” the helm officer responded.

“Sir, that system takes us almost back to Earth. The Shenandoah is just a few hours away at—”

“No.” The Captain responded firmly. “I think it’s only appropriate we find out what—or who, may be down there, ourselves,” he said as his mind wandered and contemplated the possibilities.

“Set a course,” he ordered, breaking his reverie.

“Aye, sir. Maximum warp.”

“Engage.”


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“I am as responsible as you,” she insisted. The breath of her skin tickled him as her cheek pressed against his chest. She rose and fell with the rhythm of his breathing as the afternoon air blew across the patches of naked skin that peaked from the corners of the blankets.

“The hell you are!” he countered angrily, though the loving stroke of his fingers through her hair didn’t miss a beat. There was a hint of consolation in his voice as his fingers stopped and rested at the base of her neck. The warmth of her breast beat against his cooler human skin as she tightened her grasp around his torso.

“I touched your mind and you acted impulsively because of me. It is the only logical explanation for your behavior and the blackout you suffered afterwards.”

“That’s ‘horshit, T’Pol. I killed… I did what had to be done because he was out of his damn mind, I saw him raise the phase pistol so I moved.”

“You began to move before he raised the pistol, and humans are not capable of sensing such premonitions. The only logical—”

“Screw the goddamn logic, T’Pol, ok? It was me, I did it, not you! It was my choice,” he insisted as he turned down to her and softened his voice. He felt bad for shouting at her and kissed her forehead.

“I’m sorry. But I won’t let you beat yourself up over this.”

”You’re not a violent man,” she insisted, looking up into his eyes. “Without the influence of mind-altering psychotic agents or a telepathic influence, I don’t believe you’re capable of taking an innocent life,” she stated matter-of-factly.

“How can you be so sure?” he asked.

“I am Vulcan,” she responded. He couldn’t help but roll his eyes at that one.

“To protect you, you’re damned right I am capable,” he insisted firmly. “Besides, he wasn’t about to be innocent.”

He took her chin and leaned up to her but she was out of reach. A few inches away from his lips, her eyes watched his with slight amusement as he strained to lift himself up but could not under her weight. When she was satisfied, she crossed the remaining gap with her lips.

“Anyway,” he murmured, a long moment later. The soft texture of her lips broke their hot seal against his mouth and moved down his chin. He chuckled as she ventured further south, until she came to his muscular lower abdomen and opened her mouth wide.

“Wait a second,” he begged in between gasps. She looked up with an innocently curious stare that was even harder for his anatomy to ignore than the soft breasts that were tickling his thighs right about now. She had a terrible way of getting to him just when he least expected she could, with passion she could only borrow from his human libido. He groaned through the disappointment of desisting and pulled her up to meet his eyes once more.

“What do you think happened to him?” he asked, derailing the steamroll of her advance. She blinked for a moment. Due to the bond, he heard her thoughts and the ordered intellect that came into focus as she re-Vulcanized provoked an attraction as powerful as her amazing curves.

“His face was covered with severe plasma burns, and his uniform was torn and burned,” she recounted as he nodded. “Therefore, it would be logical to assume he was present during a power surge in some kind of equipment.”

“There’s not a piece of ‘equipment’ in sight. So where in the hell…?” he wondered, shaking his head.

“Wait!” Trip exclaimed.

“Do you think he could have found the field generator?” Trip supposed.

T’Pol lifted an eyebrow in surprise.

“It is possible. It may be the only logical explanation for the readings I took, in fact,” she replied.

“What do you mean?”

“This morning my scanner picked up higher particle readings than normal from the field generator, while we were burying Ensign Mueller. They seemed to emanate from his body, but I believed the source to be from within the ground at the time.”

“And if he found the generator and was exposed to the tachyon radiation,” he continued. “He could’ve carried traces back with ‘em,” he smiled.

“Well that’s great, you can follow the stronger readings and we can find the outpost and hopefully send a distress call, right?” T’Pol’s less-than-enthused reaction sapped his spirits immediately after asking.

“The field readings seem to have disappeared completely. I thought perhaps my scanner was malfunctioning,” Trip nodded expectantly.

“However, its self-diagnostic appears to indicate it is functioning correctly. The only logical conclusion based on the ensign’s injuries and the other evidence, is that he indeed found the field generator and disabled it. By any means necessary, from the appearance of his condition,” she replied soberly.

Her eyes darted away from his as he scowled and an upwelling of anger prepared to burst. Instead of rebuke, she acted before he exploded in anger for Mueller and took his bearded cheek in her hands, kissing him.

He took her lips in more ferociously than before as his anger with Mueller bubbled out and he rolled T’Pol over, planting her arms above her head. He couldn’t believe the bastard Mueller.

His sick, deranged rampage could cost us any chance of escape! The bastard!

He kissed and sucked the bare skin between her breast and shoulder before moving back to her face. She nearly smiled as his eyes fell on hers, he paused, and the anger sizzled away, leaving only passion and love behind. He took her kiss, teased her tongue more slowly than before, but the languishing intensity made up in duration and intimacy.


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Jungle

Day 510

“It is still possible that I may retrace his movements from the camp back to his previous location,” T’Pol informed her mate as they strode through the low grass in a valley rimmed by waist-height jungle foliage.

“I thought you said the field was gone?”

“I cannot track his movements based on the radiation he encountered as it has dissipated. However, I can track his movements manually,” she replied as she searched the grass under them.

“You mean like a tracker?” Trip asked in surprise. Somehow, knowledge of that talent hadn’t come through the bond or the meld sessions.

“Yes. I have not always worked with the Science Directorate,” T’Pol informed him casually as he quickened to return to her side. She knelt at a stump, moving her eyes through the dirt and grass expertly before standing.

”This way,” she insisted.

Damn. Dad’s old bird-dog’s got nothing on my woman… Trip thought with a smile.

T’Pol turned curiously.

“Bird dog?” Trip laughed as he looked skyward for a way to explain.

“Well back in the old days, humans used to hunt with dogs called blood hounds. They’d sniff out a scent and take a hunter right to the prey.”

“Canines on your planet have a more acute sense of smell than humans?”

Trip nodded. “That’s how Porthos always knows you’re comin’ a mile away,” he laughed. Her eyebrows insisted she was not amused.

“Hey I think ya’ smell good!” he pleaded.

“To return to the subject of your inquiry,” she countered. “I was trained as a security officer by the Security Ministry before my posting on Enterprise.”

“Huh. How come I never saw anything about that in our,” he moved his hands near his head.

“Melds,” he used the word unsurely.

“It is not a period of my life I am fond of recalling,” she admitted. Sensing his misstep, she stopped and turned back to him.

“One day, I will show them to you. I promise, t’hyla.” His lips turned up slightly and he regained his jovial saunter up to return to her side.

“Regardless,” she replied. “You always expressed more subconscious interest in my childhood, I thought it more favorable to the bonding experience to show you those memories first.”

“And you did have a lot of ‘em.”

“I am, after all, thirty-two years older than you.” She informed him coolly.

“That would make you…” Trip did the math.

“Sixty-six years old on my next birthday,” she replied.

He stopped dead in his tracks.

“I can’t believe you told me that,” he gaped.

“What do you mean?” she asked nonchalantly.

“I’ve been tryin’ to get you to tell me your age since we left space-dock. Why now?”

“To Vulcans, some information is considered ‘intimate’.”

He nodded thoughtfully. “Intimate,” he repeated. He baited her with a cocky smile but she merely turned and resumed her way down the trail as he tailed her.

“Who’d a thought?” he mused.

“Indeed.”

“Hey, look!” Trip pointed to a metal surface a hundred meters away as it caught the sun and glinted for a split second.

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Day 511


A crash followed by a loud metal clang echoed through the small chamber. T’Pol winced and touched her ear in pain.

“Sorry, hun.”

Trip kicked the component and cursed at it, hands on his hips in defeat, as he looked over the gaping, black hole in the console at the center of the room. It towered up from the center and connected with the ceiling five meters up, while the rest of the small control room was empty. A single door opened to the room and was stuck halfway open where Mueller had apparently left it. The console was completely dead and the only illumination in the room came from the rays of sun that poured in through the doorway.

“The thing’s hopeless. Even if I had a clue how this stuff works, I doubt I’d be able to fix it. He really did a number on it,” he mumbled tersely.

“The technology is indeed, perplexing,” she acceded. He shook his head again, wiping a bare arm across his forehead in a futile attempt to relieve himself of the perspiration beading across his brow. The season was warming up once again and the need for sleeves had disappeared months ago when the first heat wave came. His beard, while easier to manage with the rudimentary survival tools they had, made the excessive heat in the tiny control room unbearably irritating to his skin.

“It’s like a damn oven in this tin can, I’m gonna’ get some air,” he sighed, exiting the control room. T’Pol followed him out. The sun came down on them like a spotlight, but even the lukewarm breeze felt like an arctic blast after an hour in the cramped, unventilated control room that had been abandoned for millennia beyond count.

“What in the hell do you think they were doin’ here, anyhow? Think there was some sorta’ civilization, or some kind of outpost?” he wondered aloud.

“It is an intriguing curiosity,” T’Pol agreed, squinting into the sun-swept horizon. There was a long pause before either spoke.

“I wanted to take you home,” Tucker said, quietly. T’Pol turned to look into his eyes but he continued to stare out over the landscape. She stood rigidly at his side, hands clasped at her back as if still on duty, observing ‘the Commander’ as if still on the bridge of the Enterprise.

“I mean my home,” he clarified. T’Pol sighed almost imperceptibly and moved closer to his side.

“I, too, was eager to show you my home on Vulcan.”

Tucker turned round to face her, startled from his thoughts when she touched his arm. He reached out, allowing his fingers to delve into her chestnut brown hair as it fell down to her back, cupping the nape of her neck and pulling her closer.

“I suppose if I had to find a person to spend the rest of my—”

“Trip!” T’Pol called out as her eyes spotted something over his shoulder. She pulled away, pointing down the valley several meters. A trio of silvery transporter halos fizzled in and out of phase, leaving three men standing in the brush looking up at Trip and T’Pol. The three men paused for a moment, pulling out handheld scanners and inspecting the readouts before proceeding. As they approached, T’Pol instinctively tensed and her posture became slightly defensive.

“Commander Tucker?” the man in the front asked.
“Yes,” he answered quizzically.

Trip and T’Pol shared a curious look.

They look human, T’Pol sent him. Tucker nodded and turned to whisper back before he opted for the silent mode that, for him, required more concentration.

Except his eyes… Trip added, referring to the leading officer, whose strange blue eyes drew their attention.

I don’t recognize their uniforms, either, Trip thought, as they neared. He appears to be he senior officer, T’Pol mentioned, noting the three round pips on the dark-skinned, blue-eyed man’s collar.

They almost look like ours… Trip thought. The away team stopped a few paces away

“Not that I’m not glad to see you all but do ya’ mind if I ask… who you are?” Trip asked with a congenial smile, slapping his hands together.

The lead officer hesitated, then tapped a device on his chest.

“Captain, we’ve found the survivors of the shuttlepod. I think you better come down here yourself.”

[[”Very well, Commander. I’m on my way.”]]

A few moments later, another transporter halo appeared and fizzled away, leaving a distinguished looking, older man standing in its place. He moved forward with an anxious smile and extended his hand towards Tucker. What Tucker heard next came out with an English accent not all that dissimilar from Malcolm’s, but lighter.

“Commander Tucker, I am Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the…” he paused, sparing a look at T’Pol who watched curiously.

“…Of the starship Enterprise.” Trip took his handshake unsurely, gaping in confusion while T’Pol arched an eyebrow.

“Has Captain Archer been relieved of command of the Enterprise?” T’Pol asked, doubtfully. Picard paused a moment.

“Not exactly,” he answered cryptically. T’Pol discarded the question as a more pertinent one piqued her interest.

“How did you detect our presence?”

“We heard your distress call,” an ensign spoke up from the away team.

“But we sent that transmission when we crashed, almost… two years ago,” Tucker replied. The away team shared a look that fell back on the captain.

“Commander, there is much to discuss, but perhaps we should return to the Enterprise first for any medical attention, a change of clothes?” Picard offered. Tucker shared a look with T’Pol before nodding to the captain.

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“I can’t believe it,” Trip muttered, staring into the star field as points of light blew by.

“Twenty-three-eighty-one,” he repeated once again.

“I wouldn’t believe it!” he snorted. “But here we are,” he gestured at the 24th century guest quarters around them as he turned to face T’Pol.

“On a Starfleet ship, two hundred years after I was even born!” T’Pol came to his side to comfort him as he turned to gaze out the port hole again. After beaming up to the Enterprise-E, they had been given civilian clothes and basic medical care, although the chief medical officer was impressed with their state of health.

“Commander LaForge believes that the chronometric generator trapped our distress call into a temporal loop. When Ensign Mueller destroyed it, the signal propagated in the present.”

“I should be down in engineering, marveling at these engines,” Tucker sighed as he turned to T’Pol.

“But, I wouldn’t even know where to begin,” he said, helplessly.

“Indeed, we could hardly resume our commissions,” T’Pol replied with a hint of humor in her voice. It brought a smile to his lips as he paced the room.

“Everyone we ever knew is dead and—“ suddenly the door chimed.

“Come in,” Trip replied. Captain Picard forced a courteous smile as he entered with a pad in one hand.

“Commander,” he addressed Tucker. He opened his mouth to correct himself but paused. “T’Pol,” he greeted her. T’Pol was taken aback before the captain stepped forward.

“You see, I’m just not sure what to call you,” he confessed to T’Pol. She lifted an eyebrow and Tucker perked up curiously.

“I was wonderin’ about our ‘previous lives’,” he joked half-heartedly.

“Yes, well, I thought you might, so I took the liberty of doing a little research,” he inhaled awkwardly as he prepared a practiced explanation. He handed them the pad.

”I realize this must be all very overwhelming,” Tucker nodded. Picard continued.

“Commander LaForge has a theory on how you may have moved through time,” he began. Tucker nodded, cutting in.

“Somethin’ about a chronometric particle field and temporal displacement,” he looked to T’Pol for a clue.

“I guess some ancient race left the iron on and we got stuck in a time displacement field?”

“Essentially,” Picard nodded through a slight grin.

“Fascinating,” T’Pol replied with a candid eyebrow.

“As for your lives, I’m afraid there’s a lot missing from our history books. Starfleet lost a great deal of information about your era when the Romulans attacked San Francisco in 2157. It was a,” he paused. “It was quite a tragic loss of life. Immediately after the war ended, the Federation came into being and many historians worked to preserve what they could from the past but, from what I understand, much of Starfleet’s database was irretrievable and only what was on hard copy could be recovered. We still have bits and pieces, but many personal details were lost. We found that, at one time,” he paused.

“There was a holographic record of your lives up through the signing of the Federation charter but it was…” he shook his head. Tucker looked on quizzically.

“Well it was total fiction, none of the facts matched actual events, it seems some holo-novel author composed a facsimile of the NX-Enterprise for historical review but the characters were simply made up,” he recounted.

“Somebody wrote a book about us?” Tucker asked incredulously.

“I don’t think you want to see it,” Picard warned him affably.

“However, it seems that many things pertaining directly to the Federation were recovered through historical interview and research. But personal records, detailed mission logs, much of this information was never recovered and consequently…” he broke off. “We don’t know for sure much about what happened to either of you after about 2154. The last official log from the Enterprise recovered was one of Captain Archer’s.”

“What did it say?” Trip asked. “I mean about us,” he corrected. The captain steeled himself as he recalled the log.

“It is a record of your commission as a Starfleet Commander,” he gestured at T’Pol. She met Trip’s gleeful gaze as his lips played into a smile as he goaded her telepathically.

Looks like we finally got to you, huh?

Apparently.

I guess I do really grow on you, don’t I?

Outwardly, T’Pol ignored Trip’s tele-proddings and reminded him that the captain stood in front of them, still reciting what history of their era was still known.

“What happened to the Enterprise, weren’t her databanks safe if they weren’t on Earth during the attack?” Picard grew more sullen.

“Unfortunately, the Enterprise did not survive the war. It was destroyed under the command of Captain Reed at the Battle of Cheron. At that time the war was going very badly for us, until then, of course,” Picard replied. Tucker and T’Pol looked back quizzically and Picard realized they knew nothing of the outcome of Cheron.

“Well, Captain Reed was posthumously awarded the Starfleet Cross for gallantry in combat when he—“Picard paused.

“There is a great deal for you to catch up on and…” he trailed off. “I should leave you to it,” he replied quietly, turning to leave. Tucker began to thumb through the data pad.

“Thank you, Captain,” T’Pol turned. Picard stopped to face them.

“For finding us.” The captain nodded.

“Oh, I almost forgot,” he added, bringing an uncharacteristic smile to his stoic face.

“We were able to track down a living relative,” he informed them.

“Your granddaughter’s name is Celes Tucker. She’s a linguist teaching Vulcan at Starfleet Academy,” Picard told them with a slight grin. Tucker balked and furrowed his brow.

“Did you say granddaughter? Aren’t there a few generations missing there?”

”No, not exactly,” he replied cryptically. “She is Vulcan,” Picard continued. They nodded and he turned to exit.

When he was gone, T’Pol turned to Trip as he was already anxiously paging through the scant pages of history left for them to piece together their old existences, friends, and family. He stopped on something, and his mouth began to drop and slowly turned into a smile as his eyes drew down the page.

“Perhaps you wish to share with your mate what information you have found, t’hyla?” T’Pol asked as he hogged the pad. He laughed, handing the pad over to her as he rested his chin on his fist and watched her scan the page.

“This is from Captain Archer’s personal log,” she noted.

President Archer’s log, you mean,” he laughed, shaking his head. “It’s just a little something Jon mentions being late for. Something of ours,” he baited her.

“Indeed.” She continued down the page until she reached the operative line and read it to herself once again. Still perplexed, she looked up to Trip and found a sparkling pair of blue eyes just waiting for her to ask. She waited, hoping he would volunteer the information as she clearly read the words aloud through the bond.

“What is a ‘baby shower’?” she demanded.


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Starfleet Personnel Service Records -- Declassified


Lt.Cmdr Gary Mueller (RET): (2120-2188) – Decorated officer of Starfleet, served aboard the Enterprise until 2153 when he transferred to the NX-02 immediately prior to the Delphic Missions. Awarded the silver star for bravery following the Siege of Romulus. Retired from Starfleet after the War. Treated for schizophrenic psychosis. Died of neural hemorrhaging during a post-traumatic stress episode brought on by capture and torture during tour of the Romulan War.

Lt. Hoshi Sato (RET): (2128-2227) – Decorated officer of Starfleet, accomplished linguist, awarded Starfleet Legion of Merit for revolutionizing linguistic systems. Served Earthside during the Romulan War as chair of the Linguistics Department at the newly formed Starfleet Academy, teaching Romulan. Retired in 2161 to raise a family with her husband, Admiral Jonathan Archer. Passed at the age of 99 of a heart attack while teaching in native Kyoto, Japan.

Elizabeth Ann Tucker (DEC): (2127-2152) – Daughter, sister. Architect killed during the Xindi Attack on the Florida-Caribbean Region in 2152. Her name is one of 7,135,255 on the Tower of Tears Monument on the grounds of the Kennedy Space Museum, built in memory of the lives lost. Built April 5th, 2163 with the motto inscribed, “subsisto devoveo conitor ad astra – Facing sacrifice to reach the stars.”

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