Anyone here attempted suicide?

[Rii]

the worst I would do is lock myself up and shun myself away from the people I know.

That's me, I don't have the courage to attempt suicide. I don't think I even have the courage to face my psychiatrist next week. I spent ten years with him as a kid, now I get to walk back in and tell him that he's the first non-family member I've conversed with in a good eighteen months now.

 

[Kail]

Thank you everyone for sharing your stories. I'm glad you are all still here. I hope things get better for everyone who is suffering. I urge you to talk about your feelings with someone close to you. Suicide is not the answer, and as some have pointed out, is DEVISTATING for your surviving friends and family. They would be tortured with guilt over not having helped you. Please try and stay positive.

 

[Emher]

I tried to crash my car once but I wasn't a very good driver at the time and I failed.

No, I'm not joking and yes, it is kind of funny, I know.

I thought about that at times when I was feeling crappy. You want to know why I didn't? I didn't want to destroy my car that I love so much. Says quite a bit how I bond with my things, and how much of a car guy I've become.

In the end it's a good a reason as any though, and just another reason to buy an even nicer car that I've payed for myself.

 

[FordSVT]

I tried to crash my car once but I wasn't a very good driver at the time and I failed.

No, I'm not joking and yes, it is kind of funny, I know.

I'm rather certain it's the most ironic thing I've read in about a month, so that's something.

 

[Lookingglassman]

I ate sushi once. Does this count?

 

[darkshadow0001]

the worst I would do is lock myself up and shun myself away from the people I know.

That's me, I don't have the courage to attempt suicide. I don't think I even have the courage to face my psychiatrist next week. I spent ten years with him as a kid, now I get to walk back in and tell him that he's the first non-family member I've conversed with in a good eighteen months now.

I've never even gone to a psychiatrist. I've just gone to my doctor and he's given me some pills to help, but they don't really seem to help since I seem to keep getting mood swings. I think my thing is I know deep down it's wrong to commit suicide so I just keep going but if I feel down I usually just keep to myself.

 

[MeanJoePhaser]

I ate sushi once. Does this count?

No, that's just plain stupidity.

 

[Thespeckledkiwi]

I don't know how to address this thread without setting off a shit storm, but I'll try.

I don't believe in suicide. But I have contemplated death and killing myself almost daily. It is not an obsession, it is something that I think about when I have nothing else to think about. Death doesn't scare me. What scares me, is simply not controlling my own destiny.

I am not very healthy. I understand that and I've worked hard to keep myself going at times. That terrifies me as well, dying because I can't control my health. So what can I do? Kill myself, so I don't die a very agonizing death. Like losing what is left of my lungs or simply getting a genetic disease because I don't know my family history.

I have already drawn up my will and what to do after I am gone. My friends know what to do. I think many of them understand and accept my decision. Will they be sad? Yes but that is more of a reaction than anything.

 

[RJDiogenes]

^^ I hope you continue to fight to maintain and improve your health. I wish there was something that could be done about your lungs. I certainly understand your aversion to suffering and dying an unpleasant death, but while there is life there is hope....

 

[Thespeckledkiwi]

^^ I hope you continue to fight to maintain and improve your health. I wish there was something that could be done about your lungs. I certainly understand your aversion to suffering and dying an unpleasant death, but while there is life there is hope....

It's not just my lungs. When I heard that I was already going deaf in my right ear (I'm 25, and already going deaf) and the fact that I am missing -- body parts (tonsils aren't important but still! Come on!)...That really freaked me out more than anything.

I do appreciate your concern but it is nothing to be concerned about. Life and death are simply day and night.