Thespeckledkiwi
Vice Admiral
For the first time in a few years, I actually enjoyed the holidays.
As many of you can tell, I haven't posted a lot in the past month or so, and that is partly due to the fact that I have two jobs (one of them is awesome!) and the other fact is that I've found my median.
To say the least medically, this has been a rough year for me (aren't they all). I found out that I am allergic to food dyes, I am going deaf in my right ear, they can't explain why I have dizzy spells (not due to my vision) or why I continually bleed through my nose. I am also still having great problems with my lung (I wish they removed the damn thing already). But those things, those things aren't bad, because I am happy.
I have already made my peace with those that owe me money, owe me favors. That is wiped clean. I am going to be living every day now, one at a time because -- and I know this sounds strange coming from a 25 year old - but nothing is working anymore. I can tell little by little, the struggle to keep my body at least functioning right (If my right kidney goes, I swear to the Elali, I will stab someone (I'm not allowed to own guns
)) is getting harder and harder and so I'm going to quit worrying about that.
I have already made sure what I have in the bank goes to someone, that the rights and will of my estates are secured (I do have a lot of - assets) and that everything that has been taken care of, so I don't have to worry but as I said this past year was a little rough and it -- it really caught my attention enough to make sure everything is done right.
But the greatest thing is -- the best part is, I think I finally found my peace and my happiness.
As many of you can tell, I haven't posted a lot in the past month or so, and that is partly due to the fact that I have two jobs (one of them is awesome!) and the other fact is that I've found my median.
To say the least medically, this has been a rough year for me (aren't they all). I found out that I am allergic to food dyes, I am going deaf in my right ear, they can't explain why I have dizzy spells (not due to my vision) or why I continually bleed through my nose. I am also still having great problems with my lung (I wish they removed the damn thing already). But those things, those things aren't bad, because I am happy.
I have already made my peace with those that owe me money, owe me favors. That is wiped clean. I am going to be living every day now, one at a time because -- and I know this sounds strange coming from a 25 year old - but nothing is working anymore. I can tell little by little, the struggle to keep my body at least functioning right (If my right kidney goes, I swear to the Elali, I will stab someone (I'm not allowed to own guns
)) is getting harder and harder and so I'm going to quit worrying about that.I have already made sure what I have in the bank goes to someone, that the rights and will of my estates are secured (I do have a lot of - assets) and that everything that has been taken care of, so I don't have to worry but as I said this past year was a little rough and it -- it really caught my attention enough to make sure everything is done right.
But the greatest thing is -- the best part is, I think I finally found my peace and my happiness.
