Dirty Little Secret

[thestrangequark]

I have a dirty little secret. I love smoking. I smoke about a pack every couple of years. That's all. In fact, I can count on one hand the number of packs I've smoked in my entire life. About once a year I get a major hankering for some cloves, and buy a pack. I indulge guiltily for a week, either out my bedroom window with the fan blowing and a bunch of scented candles to mask the smell, or on a long walk so that no one I know will see. Nobody knows! Then I lose the ciggies before they become a habit, and that's that. I don't crave them again for years. I'm smoking for the first time in two years, and, god, I love it. That delightful and gentle buzz, the way the sweetness lingers on my lips...ahhhhhh. I feel so guilty, but I must admit that I even enjoy the guilt just a bit!

Share your dirty little secrets!

 

[RoJoHen]

What a silly little smoking habit you have.

My dirty little secret...um...

I'll have to think about this.

 

[AstroSmurf]

I secretly love clothes. I can't really afford to go buy what I want (being a starving artist sucks sometimes) but I catch all the new styles and looks in the fashion mags. I may not be all into it like Holdfast but I know my designers.

For example: I am nuts about the new Gucci winter sweaters, Prada winter coats and this blue velvet suit by Roberto Cavalli. I even saw a couple of pieces from Vivienne Westwood's winter show on the 18th that I wanted! And Burberry showed some amazing things on 17th. They did a several coats that combined 1940 aesthetics with modern fabrics that were tasty. I also want this quilted royal blue long jacket from Armani. Oh and Dolce & Gabbana (who I don't usually like) have made some fantastic chunky knit sweaters this season.

(I will also admit that I have been secretly wearing BSG dog tags under my clothes for almost a year. First it was Apollo, then it was Helo, now it is Adama.)

 

[Gryffindorian]

I think I've mentioned this before, but I have had some sort of physiological anomaly. At some point, I used to have this strange odor following me around everywhere I went.

 

[DBR]

I try not to miss So You Think You Can Dance.

 

[The Boy Who Cried Worf]

I never quite understood the smoking thing. I know people say they get a real buzz from it, but it seems like such an unpleasant habit to have to endure until you get to the god part. I mean with booze you can start off with fruity drinks, get drunk, and enjoy being drunk so you want to do it again. Drugs have a very immediate effect. But with smoking doesn't it take awhile to get the hang of it? All that smoke and smell?

I did used to smoke for awhile when I was around 16. I had my social anxiety really bad and I was trying to go to college at the same time. I felt very awkward standing around before class with people around me so I thought if I was smoking I would look busy and adult at the same time. I never quite mastered the inhaling part and it didn't last long.

 

[Jetfire]

I think I've mentioned this before, but I have had some sort of physiological anomaly. At some point, I used to have this strange odor following me around everywhere I went.

Swampass?

I tend to not keep many things secret...my family doesn't really know I drink...mainly cause they get all bent out of shape about people who do...yet they can smoke all they want and no one can say a thing.

 

[Deckerd]

I watch You've Been Framed.

There. It's out in the open in all its shame and depravity.

 

[RJDiogenes]

Every Strawberry Spring, I go out walking in the fog....

 

[Tiberius Jim]

I...uh...I...


listentoladygaga.

 

[Emher]

Well that's about the most acceptable form of smoking I've ever heard. I hate smoking with a vengeance but that's almost like what I do about once a year or so when I get a craving for say peanut butter and jelly sandwiches or bread with looots of cream cheese. I eat that a bit intensively for about a week or so, and then I'm back on the more-healthy-eating wagon.

As for more pressing dirty secrets, it's actually akin to Flux' secret. I listen to some stuff at times that I only listen to when by my own or in headphones on the bus. Like a few tracks by Snow Patrol, assorted female singers that sing the kind of music they play a lot of on Grey's Anatomy...and Avril Lavigne. Granted I don't even dare listen to the latter on the bus in case someone hears me

It sounds terribly silly I know, but I'm kinda trying to hold on to the shred of public manliness I have left.

 

[jamestyler]

I love Moulin Rouge.

 

[Deckerd]

Oh that's worse than my dirty secret.

 

[MetalPants]

I enjoy pain.

 

[Misfit Toy]

I like Pants On The Ground.

 

[CommanderRaytas]

I...uh...I...


listentoladygaga.

Oh my God, I was gonna say the exact same thing!

To someone like me, that is really shameful. Don't tell my friends.

 

[Tiberius Jim]

I...uh...I...


listentoladygaga.

Oh my God, I was gonna say the exact same thing!

To someone like me, that is really shameful. Don't tell my friends.

If people see her albums on my mp3 player, I tell them my girlfriend uses the player from time to time and added her collection.

 

[O'Dib]

Ah, I remember when smoking was my dirty little secret. Bumming a cigarette off a stranger when on long bus voyages to visit relatives abroad; Stealing a cigarette from my cousin's pack and keeping it until when I was alone at the empty apartment they had set me up in. I am amazed that you've had this approach to smoking for years without it ever turning habitual. I tried to go back to casual, but every break would end with me going back to full-blown smoker. I'm on meds for quitting now, and once the month-long therapy is complete, I cannot picture ever being able to light up again without picking the habit back up. I envy you, tsq. Such variety in what one can inhale.. Cigarettes, rolled tobacco, pipes, hookahs.. Sigh, at least I figure I'll be able to puff on a cigar or cigarillo occasionally.

 

[CommanderRaytas]

I...uh...I...


listentoladygaga.

Oh my God, I was gonna say the exact same thing!

To someone like me, that is really shameful. Don't tell my friends.

If people see her albums on my mp3 player, I tell them my girlfriend uses the player from time to time and added her collection.

Haha, that's a good one. I am coming to terms with the fact that I find her "music" kinda fun. The good news is I really hate the new stuff, the duets she's sung with Beyonce and who known what that rapper chic is called. Gah! *shudder*

I'm usually proud of what I like even though I get a lot of shit from people for it, but Lady Gaga.... well, even I am a little embarrassed by that.

 

[iguana_tonante]

I enjoy the occasional cigarette, too, while partaking in a night of hard drinking: that means maybe once a month or less. So I don't think I was ever in danger of taking the habit.

As for my other dirty little secrets, they are secret for a reason...