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How Are You?

I'll echo the lack of depth... I'm just surviving.

I delved back into freelance work after leaving a misreble job I only took because my wife wanted me to. Of course we split, custody issues started, the work dried up and now I'm just trying to do something worthwhile in the overwhelming amount of time I have between projects.

I even tried to start a new career with the army only to discover both hidden facts from my childhood and spending my adult life playing rugby and wrestling had left me with a medical record which signifies I shouldn't be able to walk comfortably.

...I've always been the rock in any situation, ready to help no matter what and stay calm in situations such as my fathers breakdown leading to his dissapearing to my gran going batshit crazy with dementia after shattering her spine a few weeks ago. Helping others, having a decent life and more friends than I like... and I still feel unfulfilled.

Or maybe just bored...
 
Thanks, everyone, for all the great responses. I'm going to save this Thread for posterity when it winds down. :)

I saw a new party emerging, mainly consisting of nerds who are terribly amateurish but also incapable of the petty games normally associated with politics, who believe that substance is more important than style, who believe that reason should rule in politics. It's beautiful.
I like this. :D And it's great to see younger generations caring about and fighting for the ideal of a better world. The 60s generation was not too idealistic, but was too optimistic in hindsight; maybe we can't perfect the world in our lifetimes, but we can contribute to the building of that world. Keep flying the flags of discontent! :bolian:

I really wonder if he did. I tried for years to find out his name. I remember watching when Tiananmen Square happened and thinking 'this is going to be big, really big, scary big, whole world war ~ I thought it would be the start of the 3rd' and China squashed it like an annoying ant with ease and much distain. As a nation they scare me most.
I don't think he has made a difference sadly, anyone that wants to do it now hides behind a mask.
I think the fact that we're talking about him proves he made a difference. If we admire him here, imagine how the people who live in China, who want something better for their country, feel? Do we remember the names of the victims of the Boston Massacre? No, but their deaths inspired others to act and snowballed into the greatest Revolution in history (which, perhaps not coincidentally, we celebrate today).

Man, you really couldn't have picked a better moment for this. I feel high on optimism and it's groovy. :lol:
:D :bolian:

But because (supposedly) you or (very likely) I or any of the other millions of people might not - whether voluntarily or involuntarily - be able to act this way doesn't mean we don't contribute as well. It just has to be in the little ways then, like you said.
Right. Most of us will never be called upon to face down a tank, but we can voice our ideals and, more importantly, live up to them. Even if it just means getting out to Vote in the face of overwhelming odds or not keeping silent when you're the only voice of compassion in the room.

And facing down tanks does not always result in failure. Remember Moscow. :cool:

my goal is to get down to 200 pounds by the end of the summer which I think is an achieveable goal.
Good luck. And remember that any progress you make is more than you would have made if you didn't try. :)

We can't change others, only ourselves, so you're doing exactly the right thing. "Be the change you want to see in the world" and all that. :)
Exactly. Live the way you want the world to be. :cool:

All things considered. I would say I am probably functioning within normal parameters. :D
Well, that sure beats the alternative. :D

I feel fine.
Hmm. Maybe it's the end of the world as we know it....

Though I should say that world is the world of human society, it is not the universe or any objective reality. It annoys me when people say thats just the way the world is. Hmmm, the world is the world of human affairs and if anything it evolves so theres nothing silly about trying to fix irrational parts within it.
Human civilization arises from the Human mind which arises from biology and evolution which are governed by natural forces; so Human civilization is just as much the way the world is as anything else. :bolian:

Btw we are entering the age of aquarius according the ancient mayans and native american tribes as sea levels are rising.
Very true; the 60s Generation jumped the gun a bit on that.

That's just too idealistic. There are always going to be shits to take advantage.
There's no such thing as too idealistic. "The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible." - Arthur C Clarke. :cool:

Count Zero, I believe we can change others. You've got to keep the faith.
I believe that, too. :bolian:

I just can't see how you win against people sometimes. I hate the fact that confrontations are inevitable. And I have a fear that if I do stand up and look behind the others will have run and hid.
Sometimes you don't win. Sometimes your friends cut and run. Sometimes your allies aren't all they're cracked up to be. Sometimes you eat the bear and sometimes the bear eats you. If we want a better world, it's very important that we don't let certain death deter us. :rommie:

I'm at my aunt's house this weekend. She was a second mother to me as a kid and a friend all at once. Without her I don't think I'd have ever gotten into sci-fi. She lives alone now and I like to visit her and give her some company. We'll have fun.
That's excellent. I wish I had somebody in my family who shared my interests. :)

I was an optimist, until I discovered I'm too damn passive and depressed to accomplish anything. So now I'm just sad. :(
Aw, c'mon, you're a good guy. You're also funny, talented and intelligent. You're an asset to the world, so let yourself be inspired. :cool:

Okay at the moment. Thinking about having some lunch soon, before doing some more bike riding on a sunny winter day here in Newcastle.
You should take lunch with you and stop somewhere nice. :cool:

I have always journeyed with optimism, always, and I continue to do so.
This is one of the things I like about you, Australis; you never give up. I wish you all the best. :bolian:

RJ, you should prep your post to be entered in a certain online mag of our acquaintance. :techman:
One step ahead of you. Check it out. ;)
 
...I've always been the rock in any situation, ready to help no matter what and stay calm in situations such as my fathers breakdown leading to his dissapearing to my gran going batshit crazy with dementia after shattering her spine a few weeks ago. Helping others, having a decent life and more friends than I like... and I still feel unfulfilled.
Well, it's understandable that you would feel down after having to deal with stuff like that. I hope your father and grandmother will be okay. :(

Hopefully, for yourself, peace and perspective will come with time. I'm sure your example is comforting and inspiring to others. Good luck to you and to your family.
 
Aw, c'mon, you're a good guy. You're also funny, talented and intelligent. You're an asset to the world, so let yourself be inspired. :cool:

Thank you. But tragically, logic has nothing on low self-esteem. :shifty:

(...talented how? :confused:)
 
Aw, c'mon, you're a good guy. You're also funny, talented and intelligent. You're an asset to the world, so let yourself be inspired. :cool:

Thank you. But tragically, logic has nothing on low self-esteem. :shifty:
True, but you can work on it. And it is definitely possible to reason with yourself. Why in the world would you have low self esteem?

(...talented how? :confused:)
Er... by being an incredible 3D artist for one thing. Maybe other things that I don't know about.
 
I hope i care about peope then i let on sometimes i find myself traveling three roads of life,
sometimes its like 'well everythings ok i'm happy'
other times its like ' it's going to go tits up any minute'
while for the most part i find myself traveling along 'well better then a kick in the nuts"
at present i feel as though im going along the first road.
i dont think much about the overall world happenings very much just concentrate on my own little world. keeping my partner and family happy and get things on track and keep it there this is my world and the outer world means nothing to me or at best very little.
i alway follow the motto
dont let them grind you down.:)

mind you when it cools down a bit my outlook on life may change regarding the outside world just cant handle the heat too well
 
Well, it's understandable that you would feel down after having to deal with stuff like that. I hope your father and grandmother will be okay. :(

Hopefully, for yourself, peace and perspective will come with time. I'm sure your example is comforting and inspiring to others. Good luck to you and to your family.

Danke :) Though with my gran - and I know I sound cold to people when I say this - the best I could hope for her is to pass soon. It's been over ten years of suffering from one thing or another and it seems now her body (or mind) just won't fight as hard as she wants it to.

Though it changed my relationship with my mother significantly. I went from being the son, to almost the parent and now seem to act as therapist. I seem to always fall into the carer role.
 
as for tiananmen while most people are fascinated with the courage of the man who stood in front of the tank i also celebrate the tank commander.
other tanks according to some reports didn't hesitate to run down people.
that this tank commander took such great lengths to avoid it (first the tank tried to go around the man and when he kept on getting in the way the tank just shut off its engine),
i suspect the tank commander did this while being yelled at to just run over him.
while i wonder at the fate of the man in the road i also wonder about the fates of the tank commander and his crew.
were they punished for their act of humanity and possible defiance??


as for me..
resting after a crazy week.
 
I am evolving. I'm someone who within the last then years gone from hopeless romantic, to cynic and pessimist, to a cautious optimist with some actual hope for the future. Even though the rationalist in me should be screaming and panicking at the moment I'm actually okay. I can surely be better and strive to be so, but I'm still a whole lot better then I've been in quite a while. Not bad for a guy who wanted to off himself little over a year ago.
 
This would be why I'm seeking professional help.
Well, I'm glad you're doing that. If you don't feel good, you go to the doctor. Good luck. You deserve better than to be depressed. :)

i alway follow the motto
dont let them grind you down.:)
That is an excellent motto. :bolian:

I woke up 4 hours earlier than usual. I can't fall back asleep so here I am. Tired.
I can dig it. I've had insomnia for years....

Danke :) Though with my gran - and I know I sound cold to people when I say this - the best I could hope for her is to pass soon. It's been over ten years of suffering from one thing or another and it seems now her body (or mind) just won't fight as hard as she wants it to.
I understand that. My father's mother went into the hospital for what was supposed to be a simple procedure and spent the next year going back and forth from hospitals to long-term care facilities; she never went home again. There was definitely relief mixed with the grief. Her last year was not a happy one. :(

I keep wanting to post in this thread but I'm not even sure where to start!
Well, there, you just started. ;)

as for tiananmen while most people are fascinated with the courage of the man who stood in front of the tank i also celebrate the tank commander.
other tanks according to some reports didn't hesitate to run down people.
Yes, this is exactly what happened in Moscow. The army was ordered to attack the people and they refused. They looked around and saw their neighbors and friends and parents and teachers and students-- and they said no, we're not going to attack our own people. They chose Humanity over fascism and the Politburo lost their coup.

I am evolving. I'm someone who within the last then years gone from hopeless romantic, to cynic and pessimist, to a cautious optimist with some actual hope for the future. Even though the rationalist in me should be screaming and panicking at the moment I'm actually okay. I can surely be better and strive to be so, but I'm still a whole lot better then I've been in quite a while. Not bad for a guy who wanted to off himself little over a year ago.
Very good indeed. We're glad to have you still with us. Remember, sensitivity is not a weakness, it's a strength. :cool:
 
I will say that aside from my own petty problems that I continually worried about the state our world is in...think about how humanity is really two sided at best. We have the capacity for love and creativity (look at all the amazing things that we've accomplished) but also we like to torture and kill each other as well. I realize that I am lucky to be living right now and despite all the fucked up things that I've had to deal with in my own life there are people out there who have nothing at all...and I feel for them. These reasons above all others are why I'm such a big Star Trek fan, watching Trek at such a young age inspired me and gave me a chance to see there is hope. I just don't know if our current generation has the ability to see past all these relatively mundane concepts that keep us bounded and fighting with each other.
 
How am I?

Let's see...Growing up I had fun wherever there was fun to be had. I was myself in high school, which didn't get me a lot of friends, but the ones I did have I had fun hanging out with. It was still hard to find other people whose personality gelled well with mine, but I was happy with life.

After high school I hung on to that laid back way of life and that was, I guess, the start of things changing for me. I had a sudden bout with depression and cancer all within one year a few years ago. Never having any real problems in my life didn't prepare me for that. After I got through both I started looking at things more seriously. I was becoming more bitter with the world and everybody in it. I moved out of my parent's house and things got worse when money became tight for me. And up until late last year the optimism and happiness about life that I used to have in abundance was draining quickly.

But two things turned things around for me. Back in December my grandfather died. It was a hard time for my family, but it brought us closer together. I realized just how nice it was to have people like that in my life. And then this past June my brother and his wife gave birth to twin daughters, making me an uncle for the first time. Once again, my family is closer now than ever and it's made all the petty problems I had with the world seem so stupid. I know there will still be hardships in the years to come, but I know I'll get through it having my family close by.
 
These reasons above all others are why I'm such a big Star Trek fan, watching Trek at such a young age inspired me and gave me a chance to see there is hope. I just don't know if our current generation has the ability to see past all these relatively mundane concepts that keep us bounded and fighting with each other.
It may take a number of generations, but we'll get there, inching along a bit at a time. When you take the long view, you realize that Humanity hasn't really been down from the trees for very long; we've done remarkably well and doing better all the time.

But two things turned things around for me. Back in December my grandfather died. It was a hard time for my family, but it brought us closer together. I realized just how nice it was to have people like that in my life. And then this past June my brother and his wife gave birth to twin daughters, making me an uncle for the first time. Once again, my family is closer now than ever and it's made all the petty problems I had with the world seem so stupid. I know there will still be hardships in the years to come, but I know I'll get through it having my family close by.
I'm sorry to hear about your Grandfather, but I'm glad to hear things are looking up for you. Hopefully, your two Nieces, like my Niece and Nephew, will have a better world to live in.
 
I am evolving. I'm someone who within the last then years gone from hopeless romantic, to cynic and pessimist, to a cautious optimist with some actual hope for the future. Even though the rationalist in me should be screaming and panicking at the moment I'm actually okay. I can surely be better and strive to be so, but I'm still a whole lot better then I've been in quite a while. Not bad for a guy who wanted to off himself little over a year ago.
Very good indeed. We're glad to have you still with us. Remember, sensitivity is not a weakness, it's a strength. :cool:
Thanks. And I only hope that more people would realise that.
 
as for tiananmen while most people are fascinated with the courage of the man who stood in front of the tank i also celebrate the tank commander.
other tanks according to some reports didn't hesitate to run down people.
that this tank commander took such great lengths to avoid it (first the tank tried to go around the man and when he kept on getting in the way the tank just shut off its engine),
i suspect the tank commander did this while being yelled at to just run over him.
while i wonder at the fate of the man in the road i also wonder about the fates of the tank commander and his crew.
were they punished for their act of humanity and possible defiance??


as for me..
resting after a crazy week.

Very true, never really thought of it that way. And I pretty much don't think it would have gone unnoticed and unpunished:(
 
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