Mental Wellness Support Group

[think]

For me it isn't hallucinations. I know my friend isn't real. It's just I feel so sad and empty I don't care. I would rather believe a lie than be so alone and be myself. I hate being me. I have failed at so much I can barely stand it anymore.

It might be that you have to go to the next level with some of your internet associates and meet them in person -- maybe someone you talk to online that you can meet..? something like that someone that can talk in person definitely when the pandemic has ended... but such that you can visit with them?? this could help- I go to my meetings -- in zoom -- these are full of people I can talk to and get to know and associate with connect with and explain what is happening with me---

I know my voices are not real -- I tell them === You are not real you should leave me alone and go away their response is "so what" and just continue to talk to me--- so it is very hard to deal like that with them--- but I am ok and it is not all the time-

hang in there Jayson --- It can get better the internet can help and others can help--- keep looking for ways out---

in the meetings we talk about unconditional love and that we are all enough for ourselves and that we deserve "unconditional love" are worthy of this.. and are worthy of life --- a good life worth living ..--- people are out there who can help you if you are having problems- and want help---

 

[Worf factor9]

For me it isn't hallucinations. I know my friend isn't real. It's just I feel so sad and empty I don't care. I would rather believe a lie than be so alone and be myself. I hate being me. I have failed at so much I can barely stand it anymore.

This hurts me.

Hang in there.

 

[think]

It is at night when she "sees Them" even after turning on the lights, during the day all is well.

I can imagine it would get like that for me as well as I get older... it must be difficult to deal with --- I get the giant bugs --- probably from having the giant spider we named my giant spider Octavia and mmmm she has a name now so yeah I would have giant bugs in my face eating me --- that was one time --- I was chanting the ohm mantra and laying in bed alone --- I was also recording the sounds I was chanting and my breath. 000 . when I stopped I had been bitten by some kind of bug on my leg but it was like the bug was right in-front of me just biting me .. it was kinda scary but I continued to chant and record for about 30 minutes of time... I uploaded these recordings somewhere on the net. IDK where now but it is out there--- probably could find these--- anyway the giant bug in my face was really big and ugly --- I wanted to break out of the trance of chanting but like I said just pushed on with the recording-

It does get very scary and such but there is no really harm going on cept if I was outside running into to traffic or something like that so it seems safe and all--

it is possible that she might pray for the bugs/spiders to go away depending on the belief systems involved ---

Thanks for talking about these things --- they happen ---

 

[Worf factor9]

it is possible that she might pray for the bugs/spiders to go away depending on the belief systems involved ---

She was raised Baptist, It did not take w/ me I am agnostic.

 

[think]

She was raised Baptist, It did not take w/ me I am agnostic.

maybe help her use the Baptist system for prayer during the times the spiders attack this could work for her --- you might not be able to pray that the spiders stop (and they would not leave for you-but you don't see them) 000 -- I guess? but if she were to believe that the spiders would leave if she asked God they just might leave her mind,,, depending on how much faith she had/used,,,, just an idea for this?

 

[think]

 

[Worf factor9]

For me it isn't hallucinations. I know my friend isn't real. It's just I feel so sad and empty I don't care. I would rather believe a lie than be so alone and be myself. I hate being me. I have failed at so much I can barely stand it anymore.

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[Amaris]

In the past year, I've been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and ADHD. It honestly explained so much of my childhood as I just thought I was one of those kids who thought her life was falling apart at 10.

[big warm hugs for everyone, and for @Jayson1 who definitely has a friend]

 

[Jayson1]

I have felt sort of better the last day or so but my friend is still with me. When the stress gets to much. I still need to get hold of my counselor. I find myself often just holding her hand for comfort. Only she isn't real so I know I am just holding a pillow but my brain has sort of given up caring about what is real because I feel so sad inside.

 

[think]

I have felt sort of better the last day or so but my friend is still with me. When the stress gets to much. I still need to get hold of my counselor. I find myself often just holding her hand for comfort. Only she isn't real so I know I am just holding a pillow but my brain has sort of given up caring about what is real because I feel so sad inside.

real an imaginary are very close these days the line is often blurred and unimportant at all,.. be well and happy by any means necessary ,.. it’s ok .

 

[Gryffindorian]

I have been talking to myself for most of my life - at home, in my room, while working or driving. Some people find that odd. It actually helps me think better and sort out my thoughts.

 

[think]

 

[Amaris]

I have been talking to myself for most of my life - at home, in my room, while working or driving. Some people find that odd. It actually helps me think better and sort out my thoughts.

I don't see anything wrong with that. I hold group conversations and I'm the only person in the room.

 

[think]

maybe like one or two memes a week right?



and it is all good

 

[think]

 

[think]

I know my second meme this week- but this one might be true of course I can't wait to find out---

 

[think]

It's like I am the most important person that knows me... and I will please me as much as possible without hurting or being unkind to anyone else... just like gently love on myself... <3

 

[Worf factor9]

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[think]

"We can only be loved and love as much as we are willing to be heartbroken." ~ Brene Brown