I am an atheist, and it's been a long time coming, I think.
Huh. Well, ok.
If so, then you've either been mentally ill, or a colossal liar in the past. I don't intend that as a flame, but it is an inescapable truth.
Or he changed his mind. Again, this is not the kind of thing that should be Posted here. Make arguments, not personal insults.
Exactly (although I don't think
Chaos Descending was trying to put it as an insult).
For me, losing the faith wasn't just one massive revelation, it was a death of a thousand cuts. Here and there, little bits of logic and reason would flick at my faith and start creating gaps, until I had to change what it was I believed. This had gone on for some time, and there are some people who know it's been heading in this direction for a while. I'm pretty sure
FlyingLemons knew even though
I didn't even know yet.
I believed right up until the moment I didn't, and I have to say it was a unique experience stepping across the threshold. So there was no lying involved, no deceit, and no mental issues, unless you want to say every religious person has severe mental issues (I don't think they do), it leaves the option that I simply came to my conclusions and had a change of heart, as it were.
As I had said elsewhere, I always had trouble reconciling aspects of my faith, seeking tradition, I found it empty and repetitive with no useful purpose, so I scoured the Bible to know more. It was at this point that certain friends and family members told me that if I kept doing too much critical thinking, I would be in danger of hellfire. Yes, that is what they said, I swear. Anyhoo, finally I realized that for me the Bible didn't hold any answers. So I kept looking further and further, as much as I could take in, and when it all finally came together, those thousand cuts of reason had left me realizing that for me, God just didn't pass muster in terms of existence.
One of the examples I used to employ was the idea that I could create a brand new religion, make it any way I want to, as ambiguous and dogmatic as I wanted to, and then build my own church for that religion. I could speak with complete authority, and no one could tell me my religion was false, because my religion had the exact same level of evidence as the next religion. I could even have prophets and priests, traditions, words of meaning and prayer, and even a charity for those in need. The only difference would be that my religion was made yesterday, and the God of the Bible has a couple of thousand years on me. Other than that, it would be the very same, and I'd have the same success rate in terms of prayer, divine revelation and faith healing.
So if I could produce a religion that easily (and I could), how ineffective and poorly planned is the one put into effect by the God of the Bible, when there are literally
millions of gods in the pantheon of religion. The only reason Christianity is as powerful as it is today, is because the State adopted it as their official religion, which helped propagate it to distant lands and picked up by the locals as the State religion.
I have no problems with people of religion. Wait, I have no problems with people of religion who aren't extremists, which fortunately, means most people. It's not like I stepped through a transporter and it wiped my memory clean of my life when it was deeply involved in faith. Some people speak to me like I'm some guy who just fell off the turnip truck. I still have all of my religious knowledge, I still understand what it feels like to believe. I simply do not do so and find no need to believe. That's all.
J.