What's the most bitter and twisted you've ever been?
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That would be when the woman who raised me, my grandmother, passed two weeks before my first semester's end at college, and I had to put the funeral together because her children and husband were too drunk.
So, I drove 2 1/2 hours one way for every other day for almost three weeks straight while studying for finals, being an arbitrator in the family, and making the arrangements needed for suck things as happen when one dies.
Yeah, I hated everyone.
On a side note, that's when I took a hiatus from posting here and dropped my admin green.
So, I drove 2 1/2 hours one way for every other day for almost three weeks straight while studying for finals, being an arbitrator in the family, and making the arrangements needed for suck things as happen when one dies.
Yeah, I hated everyone.
On a side note, that's when I took a hiatus from posting here and dropped my admin green.
everyone is terrible phases usually once a year. The past few years have been especially difficult and I was getting to a pretty bad place, but I think I've gotten out of it fairly well. I don't think "bitter" suits me. Or most people, for that matter.
You'll get through it, i'm sure.
You could be bisted and twitter!
I don't know that I will this time. A lot is changing and not for the better.
You'll get through it, i'm sure.
You could be bisted and twitter!
I don't know that I will this time. A lot is changing and not for the better.
Hugs!
Admiral's post sobered me up, I admit.
I'm in a position now, I was in ten years ago, in a rerun of it. Last time, I flunked it, this time I hope I pass. I hope I don't have to go back to square one again and try again in ten years. My grandad thought he was going to be recognised right till the day he died!
Some people are vindictive beyond belief. I've said some bad things about people,usually when provoked, but dear me!
I'm in a position now, I was in ten years ago, in a rerun of it. Last time, I flunked it, this time I hope I pass. I hope I don't have to go back to square one again and try again in ten years. My grandad thought he was going to be recognised right till the day he died!
Some people are vindictive beyond belief. I've said some bad things about people,usually when provoked, but dear me!
Whenever I post in TNZ!
You know, there's something to be said for learning from your mistakes and the mistakes of others.
As long as you can learn and move forward, you're less likely to repeat. I'm sure you'll be fine and things will turn out better than you expected.
Good.
It's hard, sometimes.
I'm still pretty bitter toward most of humanity, and it's been nearly 10 years...
I should drink more coffee. Coffee makes everything better.
It's hard, sometimes.
I'm still pretty bitter toward most of humanity, and it's been nearly 10 years...
I should drink more coffee. Coffee makes everything better.
Rett Mikhal
Captain
I would also have to say my freshman year of college. I expected college to be a place of learned people wanting nothing more than to learn, but instead it was all just people expecting to get something for nothing and party all day.
So I turned to hating everything. Man, did I hate everything. I hated sunrises, sunsets, the sky, the ceiling, the stars. Nothing was beautiful to me except negativity, especially people failing. I would walk around campus with my mp3 player constantly on, wearing sunglasses even at night just to avoid listening and looking at people because they all disgusted me. I wouldn't hold doors for people and would get pissed off when they wasted time holding the door for me. People would ask me to help them with something and I'd just keep walking. I made it my mission to put as much criticism into the world as possible, never talking about what I liked and only what I hated.
In my mind no one deserved any happiness because at one point or another everyone was stupid and hedonistic. No one ever thought about the consequences, even minor echoes of consequences, their actions had. The 'me' generation deserved to suffer, a lot, so I took it upon myself to spread misery. Negativity gave me hope and positive energy weakened me.
In short, I was this guy:
A lot of bridges were burned during those times. I think I finally broke out of it when I made my cousin, who is more like my little sister, hate my guts.
Course, I still haven't fully gotten out of the "if you aren't pissed off, you're not paying attention" mentality. It's a hard habit to shake. I've shifted more to the neutral end that I don't like excessive hatred, but still don't like excessive joy, either. Call me Vulcan if you must, but I still believe in knowing every action has consequences and hedonism is the root of all evil.
So I turned to hating everything. Man, did I hate everything. I hated sunrises, sunsets, the sky, the ceiling, the stars. Nothing was beautiful to me except negativity, especially people failing. I would walk around campus with my mp3 player constantly on, wearing sunglasses even at night just to avoid listening and looking at people because they all disgusted me. I wouldn't hold doors for people and would get pissed off when they wasted time holding the door for me. People would ask me to help them with something and I'd just keep walking. I made it my mission to put as much criticism into the world as possible, never talking about what I liked and only what I hated.
In my mind no one deserved any happiness because at one point or another everyone was stupid and hedonistic. No one ever thought about the consequences, even minor echoes of consequences, their actions had. The 'me' generation deserved to suffer, a lot, so I took it upon myself to spread misery. Negativity gave me hope and positive energy weakened me.
In short, I was this guy:
A lot of bridges were burned during those times. I think I finally broke out of it when I made my cousin, who is more like my little sister, hate my guts.
Course, I still haven't fully gotten out of the "if you aren't pissed off, you're not paying attention" mentality. It's a hard habit to shake. I've shifted more to the neutral end that I don't like excessive hatred, but still don't like excessive joy, either. Call me Vulcan if you must, but I still believe in knowing every action has consequences and hedonism is the root of all evil.
I think that I'm growing more bitter with each passing year. But it's a petty bitterness, and I don't take it too seriously. It's greed really- I want more. More. MORE! I also wish that things in real life worked more like they do on television. But that's neither here nor there. 
I have interests and I enjoy things and I'm a huge fan of certain things so I'm not a total jerk.
I have interests and I enjoy things and I'm a huge fan of certain things so I'm not a total jerk.
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Amaris
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It has really been a crapshoot up to this point for the last 10 or so years, but emotionally, I'm doing much better even as my circumstances continue to degrade.
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