Last October a close-but-not-very-close friend of mine passed away from cancer. When he was admitted to the hospice I had a kind friend drive me to see him because I wasn't sure what to expect or how well I'd handle it (my only frame of reference was when my grandmother had passed from cancer decades earlier). I usually rely on humor as one of my coping mechanisms, so during the car ride I was trying to keep things light at least as much for my driver's benefit (though she didn't know him as well as I did) as my own, but there were still moments where in the middle of laughing the reality of the situation would hit me and I'd start to choke up. In the end, I'm glad that happened in the car and in moments when I was alone or talking with my parents on the phone, rather than in front of my friend or people who had enough to deal with as it was.
Last month I was driving past the hospice for the first time since my friend had passed away, and even just doing that rattled me a little bit because of the memories it stirred up.
Just saying, with more words than my earlier post I guess, that I entirely understand how Kirk could appear upbeat at the end of TWoK and seem downbeat at the beginning of TSFS, especially since, as noted, Carol, Saavik and David had been shipped off and Kirk had had more time to process his own grief, which doesn't necessarily make it hurt any less in the relatively short term.
Last month I was driving past the hospice for the first time since my friend had passed away, and even just doing that rattled me a little bit because of the memories it stirred up.
Just saying, with more words than my earlier post I guess, that I entirely understand how Kirk could appear upbeat at the end of TWoK and seem downbeat at the beginning of TSFS, especially since, as noted, Carol, Saavik and David had been shipped off and Kirk had had more time to process his own grief, which doesn't necessarily make it hurt any less in the relatively short term.