Condolences to the family.
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. It's a horrible illness, that has many and varying symptoms. Thoughts of ending your life are common and you find yourselves planning for it. I realised that I needed help when I found myself standing on a bridge ready to throw myself in. As I stood there I thought of my younger brothers and sisters and my god-daughters. The thought of missing out on them growing up changed my mind. I am so glad that I did. Life is too precious to throw away.
Since then I have sought help. From family, friends and my fantastic Doctor. I still take my anti-depressants and have regular group counselling sessions. I'm not cured, but I don't feel the way I did before. I have a newe vigour and a different outlook on life.
If any of you feel that you are suffering from depression, seek help. Don't bottle it up. There are people out there who love you and care for you. You may not think it but there are. Go to your doctor, talk to your family and friends. They can and will help you. If you need someone to talk to that you think understands, please private message me.