Louise Hopkins had always admired Xylion. At first she had thought it was merely because as a Vulcan he had a natural tendency to understand the things that she was most fond of. Machines.
With the exception of Nora Laas with whom she had spent three years as a roommate at the Academy, Louise had always found it a challenge to get on with people and once upon a time it had nearly kept her from joining Starfleet at all and instead signed on to the Daystrom Institute.
There was something inherently complicated about people to her and very often they had the tendency to say one thing while thinking the exact opposite. Not that she was immune herself to such notions but it was especially frustrating when having to deal with others.
No such problems existed with computers, warp cores or EPS flow regulators. Or in fact with Xylion.
Vulcans were not machines however and over the years on
Eagle she had come to appreciate the differences. She had also realized that her attraction to the tall science officer went far beyond his flawless logic.
Put simply, she enjoyed his company and from time to time she allowed herself to think that he enjoyed hers.
She as an engineer and he as a scientist had plenty of reasons to work together and when they did they usually produced excellent results. And even though they were now faced with an imaginary problem in an imaginary environment, they nevertheless proved once more how well they complemented each other.
“These are without doubt the main power relays feeding directly into the antiproton release valves but we won’t be able to just cut into them considering that any attempt would most likely release the build up energy and fry everything within a one thousand meter radius to a crisp,” she said after she had completed her initial investigation of the conduits she had been studying with Xylion’s help.
“It may be possible to reroute main energy instead of cutting it off entirely.”
Hopkins shot him a look as if he had just revealed the meaning of life to her. “Of course, redirect. But to where?”
The Vulcan glanced towards the large panels above them through which they could now see that the planet-killer was heading straight towards its next meal, a world populated with millions of inhabitants who had no clue that their very existence was being threatened by a massive doomsday machine. “If the energy is redirected towards the antiproton emitters that may cause an overload but also release enough power to still seriously damage the planet.”
Hopkins nodded along in agreement. “Which means we need to redirect the energy away from the emitters and directly into the hull.”
“A logical conclusion,” he said.
“But will it be able to sustain that amount of energy?”
“Unknown. Neutronium is an extremely dense state of matter. In theory it is indestructible. However, the energy output of this device is beyond our means to measure. At this point it is impossible to estimate the effect.”
“Unmovable object meeting irresistible force,” said Hopkins with a grin.
“In essence, yes.”
“And it’s probably safe to say that once we transfer a gazillion volts of current into the hull this will quickly become a very unpleasant place to be.”
“Unquestionably.”
A chirping sound interrupted their considerations. For a moment Louise wasn’t quite sure what it meant until Xylion glanced at the communicator attached to her belt.
She quickly retrieved the small, rectangular shaped device and flipped it open with a shake of her wrist. “This is Hopkins.”
“Wesley here. What’s your status, Lieutenant?”
“Sir, we have encountered some resistance but Kuznetsov and the others were able to distract them leaving Xylion and me to work on a solution to our problem.”
“Understood. I thought I let you know that time is running out. We anticipate the device being in firing range within twenty minutes, so whatever you have to do, do it quickly,” he said but sounded neither stressed nor impatient.
“I know you thrive under pressure, Lou. Can’t ask for more pressure than this.”
This caused the engineer to smile. She wondered if Commodore Robert Wesley had really talked like that. If so, she would have enjoyed serving under him. Something to be said for a captain who not only kept his cool in a tense situation but also managed to maintain a sense of humor. “We have a plan of action, sir, which we think may work. But we expect that we will require a quick getaway as soon as we are through here.”
“Very well. Get started and we’re brining the Lady back into transporter range. Good luck. Wesley Out.”
Xylion had already removed the access panels to get to the circuitry they would need to manipulate for the task at hand by the time Louise had closed the communicator and joined him.
Hopkins quickly found that most of the systems looked satisfyingly alien as was to be expected from a machine whose origins hadn’t even been established in her time. And yet the basics were not too different from the EPS power grids on a starship.
They didn’t have much time to affect the reallocation of the immense power plant that was running the device’s weaponry and they had to work carefully considering that they were playing with immeasurable energy levels.
But Wesley had been absolutely correct. Louise Hopkins, like many other Starfleet engineers before her, excelled at working under exactly these conditions. A fast approaching, non-negotiable deadline it turned out was just the motivation she needed.
The trick for her had always been not to think about anything other than the job at hand. Not to worry about the time restraints, not to contemplate that failure would mean the certain death of millions and especially not to pay any attention to your own feelings for the man you were working with.
Unfortunately the last point was surprisingly difficult. As was usual, they worked well together. They both knew exactly what needed to be done and approached the task almost as one. Xylion would pass her the tool that she needed without her even having to point out which one was required and Louise would have the answers to the questions he hadn’t even asked yet.
But they also worked in a very tight space together and her undeniable physical attraction to the Vulcan kept her inching closer towards him instead of allowing him as much room as possible. It didn’t help that Xylion didn’t seem to mind their close proximity at all, encouraging her further.
At one point, tackling a task that required four hands, they brushed so close to each other that their faces were mere inches apart. Hopkins had looked straight into Xylion’s emerald colored eyes and allowed herself to wonder what it be like to kiss him right then and there.
The moment lasted all but a couple of seconds and yet it stayed with her as they continued.
Hopkins’ inappropriately distracting thoughts aside they managed to do as they had set out, putting in place a procedure which would redirect the destructive energy, designed to power the planet-devouring antiproton beam directly into the massive machine’s hull.
While the energy build-up was in process – and Hopkins and Xylion could feel that it had already begun by the increasing vibrations all around them – Lou allowed herself a moment of rest and triumph, taking a seat on the cold floor and leaning against a computer console.
Xylion sat next to her.
“We did it,” she said, keeping her eyes at the latticework of circuitry, which they had manipulated for the last twenty minutes.
Xylion nodded. “The energy build up is under way and should lead to a catastrophic system malfunction within minutes. You have done an excellent job.”
She turned to look at him. “I wouldn’t have been able to do it without you.”
He looked back at her but said nothing.
Louise didn’t exactly know what made her do what she did next. Perhaps it was the fact that while she had been on the holodeck she had felt like a different person, like somebody with the self-confidence to do the things she would never have done in the real world. The truth was, it was something she’d always wanted to do and now it simply felt like the right time to finally do it, no matter that it so obviously wasn’t.
Xylion didn’t try to stop her when she leaned over and pressed her lips onto his. He didn’t even seem surprised. Instead he gave back as much as she was giving him and allowed her to put her hands around his neck and then brush through his hair, touch his ears and ultimately stroke his face while they exchanged an unexpectedly passionate kiss.
Louise heart was thumping in her chest with such force it rocked her world. She didn’t realize that it wasn’t her heart but instead unfathomable amounts of pure energy, which were causing the chamber to tremble.
Eventually she had to come up for air and when she did she saw Xylion’s face, flushed with a tint of green, betraying the pleasure he undoubtedly had felt from the kiss.
“Lieutenant.”
Hopkins turned her head to see Kuznetsov had stepped back into the control room along with Mtolo and Nora.
The Russian was wearing his semi-permanent frown which made it difficult to ascertain if he was more annoyed than usual to find his officers in the middle of a romantic episode at the most inopportune time.
The dark-skinned Mtolo on the other hand was revealing rows of pearly white teeth as he gave them a wide grin.
But Hopkins only jumped up and away from the Vulcan when she saw Nora Laas who wasn’t quite able to close her mouth. The Bajoran woman’s uniform and pantyhose were ripped in a few places, giving proof that her battle against the androids had been the most challenging one. And judging by the state of her dress she had eventually gone in close and personal with her opponents, something that had come hardly as a surprise to anyone. She had however not expected to see
Eagle’s chief engineer eagerly making out with their Vulcan science officer.
“Laas, it’s not what you think,” she said quickly, her face turning a deep shade of red and her voice taking on a panicked edge. She was completely ignoring the other two officers as well as the increasingly precarious vibrations, which were forcing everyone present to struggle to maintain their balance.
The Bajoran raised her hands. “It’s alright, Lou. It’s just that … I had no idea you two … you know. I feel really silly now. I shouldn’t have imposed myself on your simulation – “
Louise quickly shook her head. “You didn’t. I mean it’s not like that. I can’t really –“
“We need to get out of here, now!” Kuznetsov interrupted sharply.
“Maybe I should just go,” said Nora.
This statement confused the first officer, which only added to his already significant annoyance. He reached for his communicator. “We’ll all go.”
That’s when the computer consoles all around them began to explode.
But Hopkins was still focusing on her friend. “Laas, you don’t have to go, really.”
“Watch out,” Mtolo warned and pushed the Bajoran aside when part of the ceiling began to collapse.
Nora landed on the ground and cursed herself for not paying attention to her surroundings anymore. Considering what she had walked into perhaps it was somewhat understandable. Hopkins has tried to warn her to expect the unexpected but nothing could have quite prepared her for this. “Computer, pause program.”
“No, don’t.”
Regrettably for Louise
‘no, don’t’ was not a command the computer was programmed to recognize and so the entire simulation stopped abruptly with every fragment coming lose from the ceiling suddenly stopped in mid-air, every explosion and plume of smoke frozen in time and Kuznetsov and Mtolo standing as still as stone statues.
Nora picked herself up again. “Sorry Lou, I know this is cheating but you guys had me so distracted I nearly got knocked out,” she said with a little smile as she curiously looked at the razor-sharp shards of ceiling which were now suspended just above her head. “You know what? I’m just going to leave you two alone,” she said but when she looked back at her friend she found her starring down at the floor, refusing to make eye contact.
“I’m sorry, Commander,” she told Xylion who was standing a few meters behind the engineer. “I shouldn’t have interrupted in the first place,” she added, clearly feeling embarrassed herself by this situation.
Then she turned around. “Computer, exit.”
Immediately a large door appeared were moments ago there had been nothing but solid wall. She took two steps towards the exit and then stopped.
Something had been very out of place and she couldn’t quite put her finger on what it had been. Her instinct had been to make a quick getaway but now she felt the urge to find out what exactly had startled her.
She turned around again and spotted it instantly.
Xylion was not moving at all. Not even an iota.
“Louise?”
She looked up at her very slowly, her face bright red in shame. “I’m sorry.”
Nora approached her. “He’s part of the simulation?”
She nodded.
“Oh, Lou.”
“I know it’s wrong. I really do. You have to believe me, it didn’t start out with him being any part of this. At first I wasn’t even the chief engineer, just another crewman on Commander G’arv’s staff. But after a while I kept changing things. I took his place and I made the crew respect me and look up to me and it all felt so good that I thought, why not add somebody else whose respect I wanted so desperately? I know I went too far,” she stammered.
“I don’t understand, it’s not as if you are not respected on
Eagle.”
She shook her head. “But it’s different here. When I’m out there,” she said, pointing towards the doors, “I always feel this anxiety and that fear that people don’t really believe in me. Especially when I’m not in engineering. Maybe it’s nonsense, I don’t know but I just can’t get the confidence to say what I think. In here I don’t have that problem.”
“I think I understand. But putting Xylion into your fantasy? A real person you work with? There is something very wrong with that."
She didn’t say anything to that.
“You like him, don’t you?” she said.
Louise nodded. “A lot, actually.”
Nora sighed. “Leave it to you to fall for the most unattainable person on this ship. Might as well have a crush on the captain while you’re at it.”
She shot her an icy look.
“Sorry,” she said quickly. “But, Lou, you can’t do this. It’s extremely disrespectful and probably in violation of half a dozen regulations, if not laws, to re-create a real, living person on the holodeck and do … you know, do what you did.”
“We’ve never done anything –”
Nora cut her off. “You’ve done more than you should have.”
“I know,” she said, her shoulders slumping visibly.
Nora hugged her friend and Hopkins didn’t resist, in fact seemed to be grateful for the gesture of the stronger woman taking her into her arms. It was not something she was accustomed to from Nora Laas who possessed plenty of emotions but usually very few of the sympathetic or comforting kind.
“Listen, you don’t have to tell me how hard it is to have feelings for someone who you are not sure has the same feelings for you,” said the Bajoran after they had separated again. “But not too long ago our situations were reversed and you came after me while I was trying to hide away in a holodeck, afraid to show my feelings openly. You gave me some good advice back then and perhaps it is time to return the favor.”
Louise looked at her. “That was different. I wouldn’t even know where to start with my problems.”
“Start by not using all your time living in a fantasy world. Start by talking to somebody about your feelings. And I don’t mean just your feelings for Xylion. You also have to open up about your anxieties and confidence issues. You owe it to yourself and those who rely on you that you do whatever you can to have the confidence to do your job right.”
She nodded slowly. “Can I talk to you?”
Nora smiled. “Of course. But I gotta tell you, this stuff isn't exactly my field. Maybe you should also talk to a counselor. There is no shame in that and they are trained to deal with exactly this kind of thing.”
Louise looked around the holodeck and the frozen faces of the holographic people around her, including the one she had been kissing passionately just moments before, her mind completely and conveniently ignoring the fact that he hadn’t been real. She looked upwards towards the viewports to see the graceful lines of the
Lexington on fast approach but now, like everything else around them, stopped dead in her tracks.
She sighed. “I supposed I should try it your way,” she finally said as she looked back at Laas.
“What about all this?”
“Computer,” said Hopkins and then waiting on the telltale trill, which would indicate that it was ready to receive instructions. “End program Hopkins-One and delete.”
The computer beeped in acknowledgement again and within seconds the artificial world around them had dissipated to be replaced by a black room entirely covered in a yellow grid pattern.
“I’m going to miss Wesley and Lady Lex but I think you're right. It’s time to leave the past where it belongs, abandon fantasy and face the real world. For better or worse."
Laas gave her a good-natured clasp on her back as they walked towards the exit together. “And look at the upside. We get to wear proper uniforms again.”
“I actually liked those. Maybe I could petition Starfleet to bring them back.”
Nora gave her the evil eye. “Don’t even think about it.”
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Stay tuned for the tenth and final story in the series:
‘And A Star To Steer Her By’
featuring characters from DarKush’s Dark Territory, Galen4’s Star Trek: Intrepid and TheLoneRedshirts Tales of the USS Bluefin.