Summary : The orphaned Peter Kirk must leave his uncle's ship. But on Earth, he will face vast challenges and hardships, and only the memory of his heroes will sustain him.
Paradise Lost - The Book Of Peter
by Rob Morris
Book One - Kirks Don't Cry
DENEVA 3
Peter was never gladder than when he woke up back in his bed. The nightmare about the Enterprise and his family's death was done. It had to have been a dream. His beloved Uncle Jim would never have thrown him off The Bridge. If Peter asked, Uncle Jim would certainly let him live aboard The Enterprise, for that had been his real dream--to sail the stars at the side of his real father.
Smiling, he smelled the roasting Thanksgiving meal. Life was good, and he would never complain about it again. Uncle Jim couldn't make it, but Peter didn't mind. In fact, it might be better if The Enterprise never arrived. Something bad might happen then.
"Hi, Mom!"
Aurelan Kirk seemed deucedly confused, as though Peter had said something odd.
"Hi, Peter. Should you be up right now? You were feeling pretty sick, kiddo."
"I'm fine. I'm gonna take Marc for a walk."
"Peter--don't go in there."
"Noper! Rise and shine, big guy! 'Pita' is here to---what are you doing?"
In Marc's room, a confused Sam Kirk was running an instrument that looked like a salt-shaker over little Marc's sleeping form.
"Peter--you didn't need to come in here. Jim has already provided positive identification."
"I'm taking my little brother for a walk, Dad. He likes it when I do that."
Sam looked at Peter like he had three heads.
"Stay here, Peter. I have to call your Uncle Jim."
"Aboard The Enterprise?"
"Yes, we are-----Oh, My God. Just stay here, son. Don't go anywhere."
Sam left in a hurry. Peter waited, but then ran out of patience. He picked his little brother up, hugged him, and kissed him on the cheek.
"Oh, it's the itsy-bitsy baby, the baby, the baby--whoa--Mom must have left you by an open window--ooh, you're so cold. Gonna wrap you up--there! Oh, such a good boy. Why some people complain about having a little brother--I never will."
Holding the sleeping infant in a sheet blanket, Peter made for the
door, a proud, beaming Big Brother. What was that word Mister Sulu had used? Onii-Chan. He liked how that sounded, and he liked being one more than anything.
"Uncle Jim can't come, Marc. He's our daddy too, ya know? Cause our first daddy had some kind of accident. So we get to have two, and it's not like steps, either. But Uncle Jim won't arrive until after all of you are---he'll never arrive. He must never arrive."
As Peter began his walk, he began to hear screams. In the skies over Deneva appeared three gigantic mouths, with seemingly infinite rows of teeth. They descended, and proceeded to devour the landscape as they did. It was the great enemy of all life-Tricephalos. Everyone ran before it in abject terror. Everyone that is, except Peter Kirk.
"Be brave, Marc--Kirks don't cry. I have just one word for you, Tricephalos! ENTERPRISE!!"
With the utterance of the magic word, young Peter transformed into the full adult form of -- Captain Kirk! Sworn enemy of the evil Tricephalos.
"C'mon, Marc! It--looks--a--lot-like Someone--needs--a--good--orthodontist!"
Leaping up, the mustard-shirted hero unleashed a barrage of Phaser Vision at the hideous monster.
"Hmm--no effect. Let's try a---Tractor Beam!"
Amazingly, the infant in Peter's arms never stirred, even once.
"Fascinating. It - would - seem - that - motion - affects - the - creature. But - how- do I beat it? I need--Vulcan Girl."
As the creature came at him, Peter began to shake, and reverted to normal.
"What's going on? What is this crap? I--no--I--Must-Believe!"
Resuming the form of Captain Kirk, Peter flew directly at the three mouths, and when they clamped down upon him all at once, those mighty teeth broke. The evil creature, Tricephalos, had fallen in battle and was no more.
"Just-call-me-The-Rock!"
An entire world sang the accolades of the young hero. He was exultant, and his family proud. The UFP President presented him with a medal. Peter found it odd that this man rode in an ancient wheelchair and wore spectacles, but he was the picture of strength earned through adversity, so it was all right. He even got to meet a real King, a tall dark man named Martin of Atlantis.
"Hate, my young friend. It is Hate that you face down. Conquer it-and be Free At Last."
Peter bowed before The Great Man.
"I Will, Your Majesty."
Something was wrong, and Peter knew it. But life was good again--again?--hadn't life always been like this? Like the time he liberated Khan's Death-Camps? Forced The Klingons and Romulans to hold fair and free elections? Granted, it wasn't all fun and games. Sometimes, the burdens of being a cosmic hero made him feel like he was going to crack wide open. He also wondered why he was still holding Marc--and why the baby was still sleeping. Then---reality began to shift in horrid ways.
USS ENTERPRISE
"McCoy to Kirk! Get down here, Jim--Its Peter! It's an emergency!"
"Bones, can it wait?"
"NO, IT SURE AS PURPLE HADES CANNOT WAIT! GET DOWN HERE, CAPTAIN! I'll call a psych hearing if you don't. I've already sent Spock up to replace you. Hurry, Dammit!"
Kirk got up, and turned to Uhura.
"Nyota--come with me. If something has happened to my boy---I'll need you. I need you--even if something hasn't."
"Jim?"
"Yes?"
"This is why I wait for you."
Not hand in hand, but certainly side-by-side, the two went down to the Sickbay. What they saw frightened them.
"Jim--Thank God. He's ready to shake apart."
The three looked, and saw Peter, eyes red with tears, holding a small blanket. In it--was the dead body of his infant brother.
"Keep away, Uncle Jim. Somehow, the transport aboard Enterprise killed Marc. But, if we beam back down, I can transform and restore him to life. Then maybe Mom and Dad, too."
"Hello, Peter."
"Hi, Aunt Nyta. Keep back."
"I will."
Jim attempted to lurch forward, but Peter pulled out a test tube that his tired mind saw as a phaser.
"Unc--please. I know how to use this. Just beam me back down. I can't stay here anyway. They said so."
"Peter--Deneva is under quarantine. You have to go to Earth--live with Grandma."
Uhura looked at the small, still form of Marc Kirk.
"He's beautiful, Peter. You must have loved him a lot."
"I still love him, because he's my baby brother. It's my job to protect him. I just have to be brave. I can bring him back, then find Tri---then find out what caused this. Auntie--you are so beautiful."
"Peter, your arms look tired. Can I hold him for you?"
"He's not heavy. I can hold him."
"Just--here!"
Uhura grabbed the tube.
"Peter, this isn't a phaser. It doesn't even look like one. Can you be brave without it?"
"Of course I can. I----failed him, Auntie. Marc is gone. My little brother is----"
As Peter began to shake further, McCoy whisked the body back to Sickbay.
"No! Bring Him Back! Don't take my baby away! I helped take care of him--I was there when he arrived. Marc--please don't go. Your big brother needs you. I---I'm not going to cry--Kirks don't---"
He started sobbing, and cried into Uhura's shoulder. She held him, and spoke words of comfort. Carefully handing the boy off to Jim, she stayed and watched the heart-wrenching scene. Jim spoke words that were meant as much for himself as for the boy. Harsh words, but words that were, in the end, quite necessary in a harsh reality where the good guys didn't always win.
"Your Brother Is Dead."
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SICKBAY
"What do you want me to say?"
The flippant, off-putting manner of the eleven-year old boy when offered help confirmed for McCoy what Jim already had : Peter was The Captain's Son.
"I 'want' you to say whatever's on your mind, and show some respect to this ship's Chief Medical Officer. Balance the two however you see fit."
The mannerisms were as eerie as the boy's appearance. Though lanky, and with dark hair from his mother's side--it was as though someone had cloned Jim just in case the real one went missing. Which, when Leonard McCoy thought about it, might not be a bad idea, given Kirk's recklessness.
"You want what's on my mind, Doctor? Fine. I Want My Life Back."
Bluntness was not a quality lacking in the Kirk family. Then again, The Doctor was fairly certain his own family had invented the attribute while holding a 'revenuer' at rifle-point. For the moment, he gave as good as he got.
"I'm CMO. You want miracles, speak to Scotty. You want help dealing with crippling mental anguish, you talk to me."
Again, the parallels were evocative of time and reality travel. Peter's face was a fountain of mounting defiance. He would be dragged into the light, kicking and screaming, punching and gouging--if even then.
"Why Am I Here, Doctor?"
McCoy was fighting a losing battle to maintain his objectivity. Something about the boy caused people to react as though they were speaking to his father. In other words, he was being a little pain in the ass to Leonard McCoy. He clicked his padd-sheet one page, and read from it.
"Why? Young Master Kirk wants to know why he's here? Alright. I Quote : *Subject has recently endured war-trauma. This resulted from having to kill former classmates in the defense of his own life, utilizing a phaser he claims was in someone's personal collection. Further, this subject has endured the death of his entire immediate family, including an infant brother whose care and feeding he was often charged with. Subject exhibited extreme anger and obvious rage when informed that Starfleet would not allow him to live aboard The Enterprise. Subsequently, subject suffered a complete nervous breakdown, withdrawing into a delusional world in which he was a hero, fighting a monster called Tricephalos. Subject stole infant brother's body, believing it could be restored to life.* Should I go on?"
But when he saw the boy hanging his head, his face the mask of a lost soul, Leonard remembered at last. Peter was not his father. The arrogance gone, the boy spoke. His eyes were those of one who had beheld The Devil itself.
"Doctor--they all died because of me. Tricephalos sent out his spore to find me. Those were his cells that killed everyone or made them insane. He's the Beast Of Revelation, and he wants me!"
McCoy smiled inwardly, for even this delusion was better than complete withdrawal.
"Big' Un, is he?"
"A megameter, all around."
"Oh, I imagine he's much bigger than that."
"What?"
"Well, if those things were just castoff cells, the monster itself must be the size of several star systems. Kind of makes you wonder why no one's found him yet."
Peter's features softened.
"Er--he can change shape and size?"
"Maybe. Or maybe you can change your own shape--to one capable of dealing with all this."
Again, Peter was blunt.
"I Need That, Too, Doc."
Sensing an opening, Doctor McCoy went for broke.
"Peter, you know that this Tricephalos isn't real, don't you?"
Peter Kirk sat and thought about telling McCoy the truth as he knew it. But nothing good could come of that, so he let it go, and said what his makeshift therapist wanted to hear.
"Yes, Doctor. But it helped to see The Enemy as something I could hurt back. I'm sorry I worried everyone. I know we'll have more of these sessions..."
"And we're having more of this one. Sit down, young man."
In another inherited gesture, Peter turned around, slammed down his fist, and his features became like wrought iron.
"Why?! Why, Doctor? When we get done here, I'm sure you'll feel a whole lot better. But my Dad, my Mom, and my little heart will still be DEAD! Yes, I went nuts! What would you do if your family was taken for no cause you could understand? What if the baby you held in your arms and took care of since he was born had to be pulled out of your arms? You think my parents took care of him? They were good people, but there was a reason I nearly starved when I was a baby! Mom nearly suffered a genetic crash while carrying Marc. Guess who had his DNA extracted to supplement? Do you understand my connection to that angel?"
McCoy knew all too well about Deneva's *special system* of labor, where the adults sat back from all responsibilities, using the snake-oil illness *Colony Founders' Exhaustion* as a catch-all excuse.
"Peter? Are you all right?"
"I-I just need my supplements."
"What supplements? I have your medical records, and they listed nothing."
Peter thought about it, but seemed dazed.
"Well, Copper, for one. I have a Copper deficiency."
A thought sparked in The Doctor's mind.
"Peter--I may know of a -rare- procedure that can cure that deficiency. But what is the other supplement?"
"Why? Is Anything Wrong?"
"No. Just the curiosity of an Old Country Doctor."
Peter assented.
"Triflouperazine."
A blood test would later confirm McCoy's hypothesis. For now, though, he put his hand on Peter's shoulder, and spoke in comforting tones.
"Kid--you are one tough number, just like your Uncle. But that toughness can only carry you so far. Talk to Jim. He loves you, and needs you--just like Marc did. Remember, he lost his older brother, too. And he thought of your Mom like a sister. We've all faced moments like this. I myself---"
Peter interrupted.
"Doctor, it wasn't your fault. You couldn't have known."
"What wasn't my fault? And you shouldn't interrupt."
"What you just said about your Father."
"Er--I--what did I say, Peter?"
"You started cursing about how, a month after you took your Father off life support, they found a cure for his condition. But you couldn't have known in advance--any more than I could have known about the spores. Is that what you were trying to tell me? That it's okay to feel bad, but not guilty?"
Totally unnerved, McCoy manufactured a smile.
"Smart boy. Now, have a turkey sandwich, and get some sleep, alright?"
"Yes, Doctor."
"Peter?"
"Yes?"
"How about Len?"
"Alright--Uncle Len."
A tiny bit of his burden lifted, Peter left for food and rest. But McCoy's burden increased tenfold.
"McCoy to Bridge."
"Is he alright, Bones?"
The second time that day, McCoy said familiar words of urgency.
"Jim---You better get down here. Bring Spock."
In this matter, Captain Kirk showed no hesitancy. He and Spock were there within five minutes. First, 'Uncle Len' spoke of Peter's silent burden.
"I talked to them till I was blue in the face, Bones. It took the end of a world to end that slavery, and that makes me sick. That's why I'm ignoring Starfleet and keeping him aboard under emergency rules. I'll make it stick."
Spock questioned this choice.
"Captain, the hostage potential of so vulnerable a resident is enormous."
"If the Klingons contemplate taking my boy, I'll aim where it counts. I made a promise to Sam. I intend to keep it, even if he and Aurelan never kept theirs."
With that settled, McCoy relayed his next bombshell.
"Captain, Commander--Peter suffered from a pronounced Copper deficiency - which I cured via an amino realignment patch I surreptitiously placed on his shoulder. It's a common procedure--but he was never offered it. Also--he read my thoughts upon physical contact. Spock, will you view my findings?"
Spock nodded, and indeed looked the tests over.
"Hastily done, but essentially correct, Doctor. Indeed--it is fascinating."
"Gentlemen--since this concerns my flesh and blood, I'd like to maybe know what you know."
"Sorry, Jim. It's just all so hard to believe."
"Bones---"
"Alright. Here goes."
McCoy breathed in.
"Jim--That Boy Is A Romulan."
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KENYA, 2250
"Upenda, darling. Would you like your grandmother to tell you a story?"
"Grandmother, I'm fourteen."
Upenda Nyota Uhura dearly loved her mother's mother, but she still treated her like a child.
"Ah, I see. My Upenda is old enough to take a lover, but too old for a good story."
"Oh, God. Father told you?"
"Oh, more like he yelled it. Was this Jimmy Kirk worth raising your father's blood pressure? Not that I mind seeing that, ya know."
The girl giggled, as she did each time she thought of her hero on Tarsus Four.
"Grandmother, he was like a warrior of the old stories--I had to be his first, or have him as mine--but I got both."
"The old stories, ya say?"
Nyota, as she preferred to be called, conceded.
"Alright--tell away."
"Oh, many thanks for the charity, 'Princess Hump'."
Nyota gulped. Her grandmother smiled.
"That Brianna Kirk, she thinks she's the devil. She called me, and say you should never come back. Her Jimmy fears her, too. She'll come to a bad end."
"Grandmother, Jimmy hates me. Wants to kill me for not telling him how old--or how young I am."
"PHeh! To me, that is all but a declaration of engagement. When he said that, the wedding became inevitable."
Nyota grinned, happy for this moment.
"Please tell your story, Grandmother. I always love them."
"Alright, I will."
The great woman gestured broadly.
"Once, There Was A Great And Hungry Snake. He Was Called The Violator Of The First Places. He Ate Whatever He Liked, And He Liked Everything. He Liked Eating So Much, He Grew Two Extra Heads Just So He Could Take In More. Now, When He Came To The First Places, There Was A Ruckus. Old Shellback, He Flew Out, To Tell Him No. Old Rainbow- Wing, She Also Flew Out To Tell Him No. Her Sister, The Great Batira, Or Darkwings, Went With Them To Tell The Snake No."
Now, Nyota was hooked.
"Did they stop the snake?"
"Well, That Snake, He Was So Hungry And Angry, He Ate The Hearts Of Old Shellback, Rainbow-Wing, And Darkwings. They Fought Him Anyway, But Fighting Without Your Heart, That's Bad. With Them Dead, He Came To A Great Valley. There, Ape-Fish Fought Him, Though To No Avail. Ape-Fish Was Eaten, Too. That Snake Rejoiced, For Ape-Fish Was The Only One Who Could Ever Stop Him. But The Snake Was Stupid, And Ape- Fish Hid A Sickly Whelp From Him. When That Snake Tried To Eat The Whelp, Ape-Fish Said, 'That Is Not My Whelp, Snake. That Is Only The Rock, And Snakes Do Not Eat Rocks.' "
The story had an eerie timeless quality about it to Nyota, like stories that retold real historical events.
"The Snake Said, 'I Do Not Eat Rocks, For Though I Gnash Stars Between My Teeth, Surely I Would Find That Upon That Rock Shall My Mighty Teeth Break. Toothless, I Could Even Be Slain. But I Will Mark That Rock, That I May Know It, When I Come Back For More Food.' "
"What became of the whelp?"
"Oh, That Whelp Was Plenty Smart. He Knew The Snake Was Chaos, So He Married Him A Daughter Of Order, And Humans Are All Of Their Line. The Snake Will Return, And So Will The Whelp, Bearing The Name Of The Rock. But The Snake Will Strike First, Leaving Its Mark. When That Day Should Come, Only One May Persuade The Rock To Live And Break The Snake's Teeth."
"Who, Grandmother?"
"Why, Freedom Of Course. The Rock Will Have Lost Much. Only Freedom Can Help Him Then--By Being Free No Longer. That Snake Has Brothers And Sisters, Whom He Keeps For Extra Food, But Still The Fools Love Him, For He Is Hate, Too. When They Strike The Rock, Only The Memory Of Good Things Like Freedom Will Keep Him Alive. Then, The Rock Will Find The Rock, And Find That They Are Both Children Of Mighty Kings Who Ride In A Great Angel. Together, They Will Slay The Great Snake, Whose Secret Name Is G'dra!"
And when the story was done, Nyota awakened aboard The Starship Enterprise, many years after the loss of her beloved grandmother. She was charged with a clarity of purpose that excluded details but was heavy on perspective. She dressed, and walked to the guest quarters where Peter Kirk stayed while aboard the ship.
Paradise Lost - The Book Of Peter
by Rob Morris
Book One - Kirks Don't Cry
DENEVA 3
Peter was never gladder than when he woke up back in his bed. The nightmare about the Enterprise and his family's death was done. It had to have been a dream. His beloved Uncle Jim would never have thrown him off The Bridge. If Peter asked, Uncle Jim would certainly let him live aboard The Enterprise, for that had been his real dream--to sail the stars at the side of his real father.
Smiling, he smelled the roasting Thanksgiving meal. Life was good, and he would never complain about it again. Uncle Jim couldn't make it, but Peter didn't mind. In fact, it might be better if The Enterprise never arrived. Something bad might happen then.
"Hi, Mom!"
Aurelan Kirk seemed deucedly confused, as though Peter had said something odd.
"Hi, Peter. Should you be up right now? You were feeling pretty sick, kiddo."
"I'm fine. I'm gonna take Marc for a walk."
"Peter--don't go in there."
"Noper! Rise and shine, big guy! 'Pita' is here to---what are you doing?"
In Marc's room, a confused Sam Kirk was running an instrument that looked like a salt-shaker over little Marc's sleeping form.
"Peter--you didn't need to come in here. Jim has already provided positive identification."
"I'm taking my little brother for a walk, Dad. He likes it when I do that."
Sam looked at Peter like he had three heads.
"Stay here, Peter. I have to call your Uncle Jim."
"Aboard The Enterprise?"
"Yes, we are-----Oh, My God. Just stay here, son. Don't go anywhere."
Sam left in a hurry. Peter waited, but then ran out of patience. He picked his little brother up, hugged him, and kissed him on the cheek.
"Oh, it's the itsy-bitsy baby, the baby, the baby--whoa--Mom must have left you by an open window--ooh, you're so cold. Gonna wrap you up--there! Oh, such a good boy. Why some people complain about having a little brother--I never will."
Holding the sleeping infant in a sheet blanket, Peter made for the
door, a proud, beaming Big Brother. What was that word Mister Sulu had used? Onii-Chan. He liked how that sounded, and he liked being one more than anything.
"Uncle Jim can't come, Marc. He's our daddy too, ya know? Cause our first daddy had some kind of accident. So we get to have two, and it's not like steps, either. But Uncle Jim won't arrive until after all of you are---he'll never arrive. He must never arrive."
As Peter began his walk, he began to hear screams. In the skies over Deneva appeared three gigantic mouths, with seemingly infinite rows of teeth. They descended, and proceeded to devour the landscape as they did. It was the great enemy of all life-Tricephalos. Everyone ran before it in abject terror. Everyone that is, except Peter Kirk.
"Be brave, Marc--Kirks don't cry. I have just one word for you, Tricephalos! ENTERPRISE!!"
With the utterance of the magic word, young Peter transformed into the full adult form of -- Captain Kirk! Sworn enemy of the evil Tricephalos.
"C'mon, Marc! It--looks--a--lot-like Someone--needs--a--good--orthodontist!"
Leaping up, the mustard-shirted hero unleashed a barrage of Phaser Vision at the hideous monster.
"Hmm--no effect. Let's try a---Tractor Beam!"
Amazingly, the infant in Peter's arms never stirred, even once.
"Fascinating. It - would - seem - that - motion - affects - the - creature. But - how- do I beat it? I need--Vulcan Girl."
As the creature came at him, Peter began to shake, and reverted to normal.
"What's going on? What is this crap? I--no--I--Must-Believe!"
Resuming the form of Captain Kirk, Peter flew directly at the three mouths, and when they clamped down upon him all at once, those mighty teeth broke. The evil creature, Tricephalos, had fallen in battle and was no more.
"Just-call-me-The-Rock!"
An entire world sang the accolades of the young hero. He was exultant, and his family proud. The UFP President presented him with a medal. Peter found it odd that this man rode in an ancient wheelchair and wore spectacles, but he was the picture of strength earned through adversity, so it was all right. He even got to meet a real King, a tall dark man named Martin of Atlantis.
"Hate, my young friend. It is Hate that you face down. Conquer it-and be Free At Last."
Peter bowed before The Great Man.
"I Will, Your Majesty."
Something was wrong, and Peter knew it. But life was good again--again?--hadn't life always been like this? Like the time he liberated Khan's Death-Camps? Forced The Klingons and Romulans to hold fair and free elections? Granted, it wasn't all fun and games. Sometimes, the burdens of being a cosmic hero made him feel like he was going to crack wide open. He also wondered why he was still holding Marc--and why the baby was still sleeping. Then---reality began to shift in horrid ways.
USS ENTERPRISE
"McCoy to Kirk! Get down here, Jim--Its Peter! It's an emergency!"
"Bones, can it wait?"
"NO, IT SURE AS PURPLE HADES CANNOT WAIT! GET DOWN HERE, CAPTAIN! I'll call a psych hearing if you don't. I've already sent Spock up to replace you. Hurry, Dammit!"
Kirk got up, and turned to Uhura.
"Nyota--come with me. If something has happened to my boy---I'll need you. I need you--even if something hasn't."
"Jim?"
"Yes?"
"This is why I wait for you."
Not hand in hand, but certainly side-by-side, the two went down to the Sickbay. What they saw frightened them.
"Jim--Thank God. He's ready to shake apart."
The three looked, and saw Peter, eyes red with tears, holding a small blanket. In it--was the dead body of his infant brother.
"Keep away, Uncle Jim. Somehow, the transport aboard Enterprise killed Marc. But, if we beam back down, I can transform and restore him to life. Then maybe Mom and Dad, too."
"Hello, Peter."
"Hi, Aunt Nyta. Keep back."
"I will."
Jim attempted to lurch forward, but Peter pulled out a test tube that his tired mind saw as a phaser.
"Unc--please. I know how to use this. Just beam me back down. I can't stay here anyway. They said so."
"Peter--Deneva is under quarantine. You have to go to Earth--live with Grandma."
Uhura looked at the small, still form of Marc Kirk.
"He's beautiful, Peter. You must have loved him a lot."
"I still love him, because he's my baby brother. It's my job to protect him. I just have to be brave. I can bring him back, then find Tri---then find out what caused this. Auntie--you are so beautiful."
"Peter, your arms look tired. Can I hold him for you?"
"He's not heavy. I can hold him."
"Just--here!"
Uhura grabbed the tube.
"Peter, this isn't a phaser. It doesn't even look like one. Can you be brave without it?"
"Of course I can. I----failed him, Auntie. Marc is gone. My little brother is----"
As Peter began to shake further, McCoy whisked the body back to Sickbay.
"No! Bring Him Back! Don't take my baby away! I helped take care of him--I was there when he arrived. Marc--please don't go. Your big brother needs you. I---I'm not going to cry--Kirks don't---"
He started sobbing, and cried into Uhura's shoulder. She held him, and spoke words of comfort. Carefully handing the boy off to Jim, she stayed and watched the heart-wrenching scene. Jim spoke words that were meant as much for himself as for the boy. Harsh words, but words that were, in the end, quite necessary in a harsh reality where the good guys didn't always win.
"Your Brother Is Dead."
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SICKBAY
"What do you want me to say?"
The flippant, off-putting manner of the eleven-year old boy when offered help confirmed for McCoy what Jim already had : Peter was The Captain's Son.
"I 'want' you to say whatever's on your mind, and show some respect to this ship's Chief Medical Officer. Balance the two however you see fit."
The mannerisms were as eerie as the boy's appearance. Though lanky, and with dark hair from his mother's side--it was as though someone had cloned Jim just in case the real one went missing. Which, when Leonard McCoy thought about it, might not be a bad idea, given Kirk's recklessness.
"You want what's on my mind, Doctor? Fine. I Want My Life Back."
Bluntness was not a quality lacking in the Kirk family. Then again, The Doctor was fairly certain his own family had invented the attribute while holding a 'revenuer' at rifle-point. For the moment, he gave as good as he got.
"I'm CMO. You want miracles, speak to Scotty. You want help dealing with crippling mental anguish, you talk to me."
Again, the parallels were evocative of time and reality travel. Peter's face was a fountain of mounting defiance. He would be dragged into the light, kicking and screaming, punching and gouging--if even then.
"Why Am I Here, Doctor?"
McCoy was fighting a losing battle to maintain his objectivity. Something about the boy caused people to react as though they were speaking to his father. In other words, he was being a little pain in the ass to Leonard McCoy. He clicked his padd-sheet one page, and read from it.
"Why? Young Master Kirk wants to know why he's here? Alright. I Quote : *Subject has recently endured war-trauma. This resulted from having to kill former classmates in the defense of his own life, utilizing a phaser he claims was in someone's personal collection. Further, this subject has endured the death of his entire immediate family, including an infant brother whose care and feeding he was often charged with. Subject exhibited extreme anger and obvious rage when informed that Starfleet would not allow him to live aboard The Enterprise. Subsequently, subject suffered a complete nervous breakdown, withdrawing into a delusional world in which he was a hero, fighting a monster called Tricephalos. Subject stole infant brother's body, believing it could be restored to life.* Should I go on?"
But when he saw the boy hanging his head, his face the mask of a lost soul, Leonard remembered at last. Peter was not his father. The arrogance gone, the boy spoke. His eyes were those of one who had beheld The Devil itself.
"Doctor--they all died because of me. Tricephalos sent out his spore to find me. Those were his cells that killed everyone or made them insane. He's the Beast Of Revelation, and he wants me!"
McCoy smiled inwardly, for even this delusion was better than complete withdrawal.
"Big' Un, is he?"
"A megameter, all around."
"Oh, I imagine he's much bigger than that."
"What?"
"Well, if those things were just castoff cells, the monster itself must be the size of several star systems. Kind of makes you wonder why no one's found him yet."
Peter's features softened.
"Er--he can change shape and size?"
"Maybe. Or maybe you can change your own shape--to one capable of dealing with all this."
Again, Peter was blunt.
"I Need That, Too, Doc."
Sensing an opening, Doctor McCoy went for broke.
"Peter, you know that this Tricephalos isn't real, don't you?"
Peter Kirk sat and thought about telling McCoy the truth as he knew it. But nothing good could come of that, so he let it go, and said what his makeshift therapist wanted to hear.
"Yes, Doctor. But it helped to see The Enemy as something I could hurt back. I'm sorry I worried everyone. I know we'll have more of these sessions..."
"And we're having more of this one. Sit down, young man."
In another inherited gesture, Peter turned around, slammed down his fist, and his features became like wrought iron.
"Why?! Why, Doctor? When we get done here, I'm sure you'll feel a whole lot better. But my Dad, my Mom, and my little heart will still be DEAD! Yes, I went nuts! What would you do if your family was taken for no cause you could understand? What if the baby you held in your arms and took care of since he was born had to be pulled out of your arms? You think my parents took care of him? They were good people, but there was a reason I nearly starved when I was a baby! Mom nearly suffered a genetic crash while carrying Marc. Guess who had his DNA extracted to supplement? Do you understand my connection to that angel?"
McCoy knew all too well about Deneva's *special system* of labor, where the adults sat back from all responsibilities, using the snake-oil illness *Colony Founders' Exhaustion* as a catch-all excuse.
"Peter? Are you all right?"
"I-I just need my supplements."
"What supplements? I have your medical records, and they listed nothing."
Peter thought about it, but seemed dazed.
"Well, Copper, for one. I have a Copper deficiency."
A thought sparked in The Doctor's mind.
"Peter--I may know of a -rare- procedure that can cure that deficiency. But what is the other supplement?"
"Why? Is Anything Wrong?"
"No. Just the curiosity of an Old Country Doctor."
Peter assented.
"Triflouperazine."
A blood test would later confirm McCoy's hypothesis. For now, though, he put his hand on Peter's shoulder, and spoke in comforting tones.
"Kid--you are one tough number, just like your Uncle. But that toughness can only carry you so far. Talk to Jim. He loves you, and needs you--just like Marc did. Remember, he lost his older brother, too. And he thought of your Mom like a sister. We've all faced moments like this. I myself---"
Peter interrupted.
"Doctor, it wasn't your fault. You couldn't have known."
"What wasn't my fault? And you shouldn't interrupt."
"What you just said about your Father."
"Er--I--what did I say, Peter?"
"You started cursing about how, a month after you took your Father off life support, they found a cure for his condition. But you couldn't have known in advance--any more than I could have known about the spores. Is that what you were trying to tell me? That it's okay to feel bad, but not guilty?"
Totally unnerved, McCoy manufactured a smile.
"Smart boy. Now, have a turkey sandwich, and get some sleep, alright?"
"Yes, Doctor."
"Peter?"
"Yes?"
"How about Len?"
"Alright--Uncle Len."
A tiny bit of his burden lifted, Peter left for food and rest. But McCoy's burden increased tenfold.
"McCoy to Bridge."
"Is he alright, Bones?"
The second time that day, McCoy said familiar words of urgency.
"Jim---You better get down here. Bring Spock."
In this matter, Captain Kirk showed no hesitancy. He and Spock were there within five minutes. First, 'Uncle Len' spoke of Peter's silent burden.
"I talked to them till I was blue in the face, Bones. It took the end of a world to end that slavery, and that makes me sick. That's why I'm ignoring Starfleet and keeping him aboard under emergency rules. I'll make it stick."
Spock questioned this choice.
"Captain, the hostage potential of so vulnerable a resident is enormous."
"If the Klingons contemplate taking my boy, I'll aim where it counts. I made a promise to Sam. I intend to keep it, even if he and Aurelan never kept theirs."
With that settled, McCoy relayed his next bombshell.
"Captain, Commander--Peter suffered from a pronounced Copper deficiency - which I cured via an amino realignment patch I surreptitiously placed on his shoulder. It's a common procedure--but he was never offered it. Also--he read my thoughts upon physical contact. Spock, will you view my findings?"
Spock nodded, and indeed looked the tests over.
"Hastily done, but essentially correct, Doctor. Indeed--it is fascinating."
"Gentlemen--since this concerns my flesh and blood, I'd like to maybe know what you know."
"Sorry, Jim. It's just all so hard to believe."
"Bones---"
"Alright. Here goes."
McCoy breathed in.
"Jim--That Boy Is A Romulan."
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KENYA, 2250
"Upenda, darling. Would you like your grandmother to tell you a story?"
"Grandmother, I'm fourteen."
Upenda Nyota Uhura dearly loved her mother's mother, but she still treated her like a child.
"Ah, I see. My Upenda is old enough to take a lover, but too old for a good story."
"Oh, God. Father told you?"
"Oh, more like he yelled it. Was this Jimmy Kirk worth raising your father's blood pressure? Not that I mind seeing that, ya know."
The girl giggled, as she did each time she thought of her hero on Tarsus Four.
"Grandmother, he was like a warrior of the old stories--I had to be his first, or have him as mine--but I got both."
"The old stories, ya say?"
Nyota, as she preferred to be called, conceded.
"Alright--tell away."
"Oh, many thanks for the charity, 'Princess Hump'."
Nyota gulped. Her grandmother smiled.
"That Brianna Kirk, she thinks she's the devil. She called me, and say you should never come back. Her Jimmy fears her, too. She'll come to a bad end."
"Grandmother, Jimmy hates me. Wants to kill me for not telling him how old--or how young I am."
"PHeh! To me, that is all but a declaration of engagement. When he said that, the wedding became inevitable."
Nyota grinned, happy for this moment.
"Please tell your story, Grandmother. I always love them."
"Alright, I will."
The great woman gestured broadly.
"Once, There Was A Great And Hungry Snake. He Was Called The Violator Of The First Places. He Ate Whatever He Liked, And He Liked Everything. He Liked Eating So Much, He Grew Two Extra Heads Just So He Could Take In More. Now, When He Came To The First Places, There Was A Ruckus. Old Shellback, He Flew Out, To Tell Him No. Old Rainbow- Wing, She Also Flew Out To Tell Him No. Her Sister, The Great Batira, Or Darkwings, Went With Them To Tell The Snake No."
Now, Nyota was hooked.
"Did they stop the snake?"
"Well, That Snake, He Was So Hungry And Angry, He Ate The Hearts Of Old Shellback, Rainbow-Wing, And Darkwings. They Fought Him Anyway, But Fighting Without Your Heart, That's Bad. With Them Dead, He Came To A Great Valley. There, Ape-Fish Fought Him, Though To No Avail. Ape-Fish Was Eaten, Too. That Snake Rejoiced, For Ape-Fish Was The Only One Who Could Ever Stop Him. But The Snake Was Stupid, And Ape- Fish Hid A Sickly Whelp From Him. When That Snake Tried To Eat The Whelp, Ape-Fish Said, 'That Is Not My Whelp, Snake. That Is Only The Rock, And Snakes Do Not Eat Rocks.' "
The story had an eerie timeless quality about it to Nyota, like stories that retold real historical events.
"The Snake Said, 'I Do Not Eat Rocks, For Though I Gnash Stars Between My Teeth, Surely I Would Find That Upon That Rock Shall My Mighty Teeth Break. Toothless, I Could Even Be Slain. But I Will Mark That Rock, That I May Know It, When I Come Back For More Food.' "
"What became of the whelp?"
"Oh, That Whelp Was Plenty Smart. He Knew The Snake Was Chaos, So He Married Him A Daughter Of Order, And Humans Are All Of Their Line. The Snake Will Return, And So Will The Whelp, Bearing The Name Of The Rock. But The Snake Will Strike First, Leaving Its Mark. When That Day Should Come, Only One May Persuade The Rock To Live And Break The Snake's Teeth."
"Who, Grandmother?"
"Why, Freedom Of Course. The Rock Will Have Lost Much. Only Freedom Can Help Him Then--By Being Free No Longer. That Snake Has Brothers And Sisters, Whom He Keeps For Extra Food, But Still The Fools Love Him, For He Is Hate, Too. When They Strike The Rock, Only The Memory Of Good Things Like Freedom Will Keep Him Alive. Then, The Rock Will Find The Rock, And Find That They Are Both Children Of Mighty Kings Who Ride In A Great Angel. Together, They Will Slay The Great Snake, Whose Secret Name Is G'dra!"
And when the story was done, Nyota awakened aboard The Starship Enterprise, many years after the loss of her beloved grandmother. She was charged with a clarity of purpose that excluded details but was heavy on perspective. She dressed, and walked to the guest quarters where Peter Kirk stayed while aboard the ship.