Mental Wellness Support Group
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No. Sometimes people are being creative with spelling or at least trying to be clever. Sometimes people want their writing to reflect how people talk in a given environment. And sometimes people use language to express their individuality.
Context matters. If it’s a work of fiction trying to convey the characters, I’m cool with it. If it’s a work e-mail, it’s not appropriate. If it’s school work, it’s not appropriate.
I don't agree but I'm too grumpy to bother with it today.
I'm sure they think it's creative. I am also quite certain that it doesn't land right.
Language is in continual evolution in every class and culture and sphere and there is always someone mad about it and always has been.
Likely putting in an offer on a house tomorrow. Just like last year when I put the one in that fell through I'm terrified. It's not at all what I was looking for and is small, but I've been looking for two years now and the only houses that fit my criteria that were at a price I could justify spending had major location issues that stopped me from buying. This one is more affordable and is really nice in its own way.
This house is tiny, no lot, and has neighbours on one side and across the highway (although the back yard is fenced), is on a highway, but is in good shape with high quality floors, windows, etc., has a real nice set up with outdoor office (that will be an expensive pain in winter I fear) and two gazebos, one enclosed, and an enclosed front deck with a view of the St Lawrence River. The backyard is also astroturf which is weird but I can always change that if I want in the future.
With the location and price it's pretty much impossible for me to lose money on it even if in two years I decide I need out because I lose my job or hate it but still panicking over it. It will be a major change to my cashflow, really cut down on my disposable income, and is a massive investment.
I know it's because my adrenal system is fried from trauma and I catastrophize everything and a change like this is so big I can't stop thinking of potential negatives but I also need it to move forward. I'm not helping myself throwing away rent money every month. If I can worry about it I do worry about it.
Overall all my health metrics have also continued to plateau. Sleep, heart rate, stress levels, steps, weight, eating habits - they are all the same or getting worse for the last year. I need to make myself do some changes to improve my life again like I did a few years ago when I got myself up to the point I've plateaued at, but I'm finding it really hard to start something new. Taking that step. I don't even have the energy to keep doing what I do now, let alone add something new in.
My stress over work is still high. They hired another new boss for me, third in a year. I have a week vacation in Mexico in October I'm hoping that will help some with stress.
My respiratory issues have gotten worse again the last few weeks. They've actually improved a bit the last couple days but still very frustrating and limiting. I have an appointment with my gp in a couple weeks in the hopes he will refer me to a specialist.
This house is tiny, no lot, and has neighbours on one side and across the highway (although the back yard is fenced), is on a highway, but is in good shape with high quality floors, windows, etc., has a real nice set up with outdoor office (that will be an expensive pain in winter I fear) and two gazebos, one enclosed, and an enclosed front deck with a view of the St Lawrence River. The backyard is also astroturf which is weird but I can always change that if I want in the future.
With the location and price it's pretty much impossible for me to lose money on it even if in two years I decide I need out because I lose my job or hate it but still panicking over it. It will be a major change to my cashflow, really cut down on my disposable income, and is a massive investment.
I know it's because my adrenal system is fried from trauma and I catastrophize everything and a change like this is so big I can't stop thinking of potential negatives but I also need it to move forward. I'm not helping myself throwing away rent money every month. If I can worry about it I do worry about it.
Overall all my health metrics have also continued to plateau. Sleep, heart rate, stress levels, steps, weight, eating habits - they are all the same or getting worse for the last year. I need to make myself do some changes to improve my life again like I did a few years ago when I got myself up to the point I've plateaued at, but I'm finding it really hard to start something new. Taking that step. I don't even have the energy to keep doing what I do now, let alone add something new in.
My stress over work is still high. They hired another new boss for me, third in a year. I have a week vacation in Mexico in October I'm hoping that will help some with stress.
My respiratory issues have gotten worse again the last few weeks. They've actually improved a bit the last couple days but still very frustrating and limiting. I have an appointment with my gp in a couple weeks in the hopes he will refer me to a specialist.
My hospital had a data breach in April.
Now they revealed that identity info for every patient from 1950 - present was compromised.
Even worse, the mental health and addiction department had every person's complete file (assessments, medications, case notes - everything) from 2017-present accessed and destroyed - the hackers stole the data and torched the hospital records.
So now there's someone out there selling my personal info and all my mental health records to the highest bidder, of they're not just blackmailing the hospital and releasing them for free.
Now they revealed that identity info for every patient from 1950 - present was compromised.
Even worse, the mental health and addiction department had every person's complete file (assessments, medications, case notes - everything) from 2017-present accessed and destroyed - the hackers stole the data and torched the hospital records.
So now there's someone out there selling my personal info and all my mental health records to the highest bidder, of they're not just blackmailing the hospital and releasing them for free.
My anxiety has been off the charts the last few days, worst since I was dealing with my fire insurance. I can't eat, feel like I'm starving but also like I'll vomit if I eat anything. Can't sleep. I feel like my insides are itching.
It's because I'm buying a house and the process has me incredibly stressed, on top of reg work stress and respiratory issues.
It's not that I expect any issues with the house sale, my offer is accepted, inspection is today, financing isn't a problem, it's change that has me so scared I think.
I've finally got to a kind of comfortable spot, which is why I haven't been posting here much. Which is also why so much of my health has plateaued instead of improved. I need to move forward but my PTSD makes moving forward so damn terrifying.
I'm hoping after the inspection is done today I'll start to calm down.
It's because I'm buying a house and the process has me incredibly stressed, on top of reg work stress and respiratory issues.
It's not that I expect any issues with the house sale, my offer is accepted, inspection is today, financing isn't a problem, it's change that has me so scared I think.
I've finally got to a kind of comfortable spot, which is why I haven't been posting here much. Which is also why so much of my health has plateaued instead of improved. I need to move forward but my PTSD makes moving forward so damn terrifying.
I'm hoping after the inspection is done today I'll start to calm down.
This is totally understandable and relatable. Buying a house is a very stressful process. When I bought mine a few years ago I felt like I was doing something wrong because I found it to be an unpleasant experience and yet the people around me were talking about it like it was supposed to be fun and exciting. But I think any big change like that can lead to anxiety, especially in those of us prone to it. It combines the high stress of moving with the added stress of legal agreements, paperwork, and interacting with a lot of new people. Hopefully with each step that gets checked off the list your stress lessens more and more. Think how relieved you will feel when it's done with and you are laying in your bed in your new house.
I hate buying and selling homes. Stress is to be expected.
I remember buying my first home and it took a lot to get through the anxiety of the process of paperwork, inspections, frustrations and fears.
But, unfortunately, in order to go where you've never been before you have to do things, feel things, that you've never done or felt before.
It sucks.
But, unfortunately, in order to go where you've never been before you have to do things, feel things, that you've never done or felt before.
It sucks.
*HUGS*
I made a playlist called the Bad Mood Playlist for my phone. I put the note that it can be played ironically or unironically. Right now, I’m not sure if either category works. I will come to work on Tuesday and have no co-teacher or aide. I found myself dreading Tuesday.
Oh man, that's rough. I've never bought a house, but any big change like that is definitely going to be stressful. I hope you start feeling better once you get through it all.
Is it supposed to be inspirational at all?
It has the opening theme for "The Sopranos," the Evil Morty theme, two songs from Encanto, Paula Abdul's "Cold Hearted Snake," and Chad Kroeger's "Hero."
I think the best way to describe this playlist is my listening to certain music to ride through the worst of the mood and make myself laugh and maybe cry a little if I need it. "Waiting on a Miracle" from Encanto... I get Mirabel and recognize that at the end of that song, she's asking God for a miracle.
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