Mental Wellness Support Group

[TrickyDickie]

@TrickyDickie

I relate to several of those, but this struck me the most: "Music, in particular, has deep emotional impact on me."

I metal out when I'm pissed. But I listen to a wide range depending on my mood. Sometimes music is the only honest friend available.

Thanks for all your likes and support.

My wife and I both do the exact same thing with music, depending on mood. Metal when pissed, oh yes indeedy.

I keep waiting for a truly great metal version of 'Danger Zone' from Top Gun. Many have tried....but no one's nailed it. If it doesn't raise a blister on boot leather and blast Marty McFly into The Twilight Zone, it ain't there yet.

Pissed? My birthday is April 20th. It wasn't bad enough that I have to share it with Adolf Hitler. They just had to blame Columbine on Marilyn Manson. These stupid motherfuckers don't even attempt to understand. They just grab the first thing they can think of and start to vilify.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marilyn_Manson–Columbine_High_School_massacre_controversy

Take a tragedy and make it a lot worse.

Why do people feel so isolated and marginalized? What's wrong with their heads?

Yeah, I fucking wonder just why that is....

 

[Joanna McCoy-Kirk]

We are having an apartment inspection Wednesday. I didn't find out about it until last night (it seems that I'm always the last to find out about things like this.) "Pre-inspection" by the apartment staff is tonight; I'm assuming it will be the state that will be inspecting tomorrow. I'm really nervous about this (had to take some Vistaril last night for my anxiety); I keep my apartment clean to the best of my ability, but I'm not Martha Stewart. I would appreciate it if all of you would keep me in your thoughts and prayers (for those of you who pray).

Update: The pre-inspection went well tonight--I was actually more worried about that than I am the state's inspection tomorrow. Two sisters work at the apartments in the evening, and they can be very picky when they check apartments.

 

[rhubarbodendron]

Congratulations! Couldn't you ask them to give you a bit longer notice next time? I did that with my house management and explained to them about my anxiety fits. They are really sweet about it and now always send me a letter well ahead. They even tell me beforehand when there's repair work anywhere in the building so that I don't get startled when there's a sudden noise.

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Glad the inspection went well !


I'm back on anxiolytics...Since that aggression last Friday, I've been taking alprazolam daily at higher doses than the one I'm used to to manage "normal" anxiety levels. It makes me clumsy and tends to give me shorter memory....It sucks. But at least I didn't have a new panic attack since that terrible meltdown I had on Saturday evening...

 

[rhubarbodendron]

Take it easy with the meds. Absolutely everybody would have a meltdown after such an experience. It's perfectly normal to feel the aftershock for weeks in such cases.

 

[Gryffindorian]

Good luck on the anxiety meds. My dad refuses to take anxiety or depression medications of any kind. He gets anxious just reading the possible side effects.

 

[TrickyDickie]

Good luck on the anxiety meds. My dad refuses to take anxiety or depression medications of any kind. He gets anxious just reading the possible side effects.

That's actually quite understandable.

When you have a lot going on that is quite far outside of the average, there is a tendency to wonder if you are going to be one of those few people who experience the most severe side effects....and that goes for any kind of medication.

Then there is that bad trend today....yesterday's ad saturation on tv for a given drug may be tomorrow's ad saturation for class-action lawsuits against it because of serious problems.

Medication can seem like quite a minefield to traverse.

My blood pressure has been creeping up and so I have just started a completely new diet, with emphasis on foods that help to lower it. I am going to try that for a month and if there is not significant change I will be facing the prospect of medication. My mother went through a lot of different medications over the years for hypertension, but none of them really kept it in good balance for her. I am not looking forward to medication and am hoping to be able to completely avoid it. Are potential side effects cause for some anxiety? You bet.

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Take it easy with the meds. Absolutely everybody would have a meltdown after such an experience. It's perfectly normal to feel the aftershock for weeks in such cases.

I keep respecting the official medical recommendations for alprazolam doses, don't worry. It's just that I'm used to a maximum of 0,50 mg/day and since the aggression I'm around 1 mg/day, which makes me feel tired and clumsy. So I take naps and make sure to make myself comfortable, meds aren't a miracle cure anyway :-/

 

[rhubarbodendron]

feeling tired and clumsy might also be because of the current heat wave. I imagine that in France it's as bad as over here in Bavaria. I'm tempted to sleep in the fridge..

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Oh dear, yes it's hot in France...Fortunately I live in the countryside in a forest area, so it's cooler than in cities.

 

[Joanna McCoy-Kirk]

Congratulations! Couldn't you ask them to give you a bit longer notice next time? I did that with my house management and explained to them about my anxiety fits. They are really sweet about it and now always send me a letter well ahead. They even tell me beforehand when there's repair work anywhere in the building so that I don't get startled when there's a sudden noise.

Thank you. I assume apartment management found out about the inspection last Monday; it's just that I didn't find out about it until that night. For various reasons, I am often the last to find out about things, which is a bummer. For example, we get a supply of meds every other Friday, but this past week they passed them out on Thursday instead of Friday. All but me. I became upset when I realized what happened and even cried a little. I eventually got my meds, but I don't think it was fair that I was not told about the medicine being passed out. I was going to complain to the apartments director Friday, but I never got a chance to. I believe the staff member who gave out meds early was not authorized to do so.

 

[rhubarbodendron]

For various reasons, I am often the last to find out about things

Welcome to the club It's propably only a small comfort but you're not alone with this particular problem.

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Searching for some emotional support...so I can be a better support myself
Please everyone, gimme good vibes

 

[Refuge]

Searching for some emotional support...so I can be a better support myself
Please everyone, gimme good vibes

Funny how some words can work. I have a friend who has 'hit home' a couple of times. First was when we moved here and I was a little freaked out. The area at the time scared me a bit. I wanted out! Anyway my friend said... "Be brave". She was right, I wan't going anywhere and I had to be stronger and smarter. THEN another time she was struggling herself and she said she was going into "Save Elizabeth mode". (Elizabeth being her name). I thought how cool, she's actually taking on that concept as something to be pro-active about. Putting herself first.

TauCygna I don't have Elizabeth's ability but here's a few good vibes going your way

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Thank you @Refuge

 

[TribbleFeeder]

Sending the best vibes to you @TauCygna

 

[Twilight Phoenix]

Thank you Tribble ^^

 

[Coyote Annabis]

Another post in a different sector of the board got me thinking about something and it made me seek out this thread. Out of curiosity, is anyone else here blessed/cursed with synesthesia?

For anyone who's scratching their head, there's this:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synesthesia

But it doesn't really paint a good picture of the subject, and it's a lot of information to process.

Basically it's a condition where the wires in your brain get crossed, and you percieve the world around you differently, but not in a dissociative sense.

A synesthete might taste colors, or hear flavors. The number three might appear as blue every time they see or hear it.

In my case my crossovers would take a while to lay out, but long story short, I mostly see, taste and to a limited extent, smell sounds. Certain song notes taste like iron, fruits or spices. Others make me see shapes and colors.

Basically what I'm asking is, am I alone here? To anyone who knows what I'm talking about, how does it affect you? Do you ever find certain situations difficult or stressful because of your crossovers? Have you figured out how to use your differences to your advantage? I meet so few synesthetes, it would be nice to have someone to talk to, and most people who aren't just don't get it.

Most of the time, I love my condition. I can't describe how amazing it is to be able to turn on a particular song and smell fresh cut grass, fresh linen and cold piney air. To have my taste buds lashed with the flavors of crisp green apples and black raspberries. To see the silver-blue raindrops and golden sunbursts and comet-tails of the strings and cymbals.

Other times, it's not so great. Half of my day is spent trying to block out sounds that trigger unpleasant tastes, smells and sights. The bitter metallic taste of dogs barking, the ashy asbestos sight of traffic noises or the sickly sweet compost smell silverware clattering.

If anybody knows what I'm talking about, how do you cope? Do you ever feel outcast or misunderstood just because you percieve things differently?

 

[Refuge]

Another post in a different sector of the board got me thinking about something and it made me seek out this thread. Out of curiosity, is anyone else here blessed/cursed with synesthesia?

For anyone who's scratching their head, there's this:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synesthesia

But it doesn't really paint a good picture of the subject, and it's a lot of information to process.

Basically it's a condition where the wires in your brain get crossed, and you percieve the world around you differently, but not in a dissociative sense.

A synesthete might taste colors, or hear flavors. The number three might appear as blue every time they see or hear it.

In my case my crossovers would take a while to lay out, but long story short, I mostly see, taste and to a limited extent, smell sounds. Certain song notes taste like iron, fruits or spices. Others make me see shapes and colors.

Basically what I'm asking is, am I alone here? To anyone who knows what I'm talking about, how does it affect you? Do you ever find certain situations difficult or stressful because of your crossovers? Have you figured out how to use your differences to your advantage? I meet so few synesthetes, it would be nice to have someone to talk to, and most people who aren't just don't get it.

Most of the time, I love my condition. I can't describe how amazing it is to be able to turn on a particular song and smell fresh cut grass, fresh linen and cold piney air. To have my taste buds lashed with the flavors of crisp green apples and black raspberries. To see the silver-blue raindrops and golden sunbursts and comet-tails of the strings and cymbals.

Other times, it's not so great. Half of my day is spent trying to block out sounds that trigger unpleasant tastes, smells and sights. The bitter metallic taste of dogs barking, the ashy asbestos sight of traffic noises or the sickly sweet compost smell silverware clattering.

If anybody knows what I'm talking about, how do you cope? Do you ever feel outcast or misunderstood just because you percieve things differently?

Wow that is a totally new subject for me, you should feel special (hopefully more often in a nice way). The only sensory 'crossovers' I experience are the regular kind, that is a smell might evoke a memory or a sound doing the same.

 

[Gryffindorian]

I see footsteps and I hear footprints.