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Amaris
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Yeah, I should clarify a bit, too. I do sincerely hope that there is something beyond this existence for us. It doesn't have to be an afterlife per se, but I would hate to find out (or not, actually) that our short short short lives and all of the self-awareness, the universe that learns about itself just vanishes into the aether with nothing to show for it.Thing is, even though I think Christianity is a crock, I think there is more to us than what we perceive. I know it sounds wonky. But you can't destroy matter, only change its form. Who knows what is next for us?
For me it has more to do with information death than anything. So we die, and everything we have gathered, that hasn't been recorded in some fashion, is now gone. All of our joys and hopes, our thoughts and feelings, it just feels like such a tragedy to me. Even the universe has a death, it seems, so trying to cope with that after decades of faith was, and still is, something I have wrestled with time and time again. In short, I don't want to die, especially because I feel I haven't yet lived.Frankly I think it makes life more meaningful to have no afterlife. I was raised around people for whom the idea that there was no afterlife, whether it be heaven or reincarnation or a spiritual plane just didn't compute. All kinds of people, christians and newagers and regular non-religious people who still viewed the afterlife as a fact, albeit one we didn't know too much about. Taking comfort in it does make it easier not to wrestle with one's current life, I mean it's fleeting right? What's going down today, it's just a small part of our eternal existence, lets keep that in perspective! That perspective can change our entire relationship with our life and while I have no wish to sow doubts or take away people's comfort on the matter I know that seeing my life as being finite, there being no grander scheme that will make today seem but a passing moment has changed how I approach my choices in some surprising ways. I like thinking like this. I like taking eternity out of the picture.
I am happily agnostic about an afterlife, more apathy-ostic than anything because it is no longer important to me to exist after I die in any way.
