Are cops requierd to give people suicide notes addressed to them?

[LaxScrutiny]

Actually Jesus doesn't love you unless you love him. He is apparently indifferent to anyone who does not love him first and will deny those people the right to ever be with him.

Jesus is Narcissistic.

 

[opali]

Actually Jesus doesn't love you unless you love him. He is apparently indifferent to anyone who does not love him first and will deny those people the right to ever be with him.

Actually, 1 John 4:19 says We love Him because He first loved us. The whole point of the "cross thing" was that while people were a mess he died with them in mind. God so loved the world, etcetera, etcetera.

No offense. I would have commented if you would have said Buddha said "Buy low, Sell High."
Keep your chin up, Dark Journey.

I find it helpful to look at my future as a kind of experiment. I believe I am at rock bottom now. So exactly how far is it possible to climb up from that? Science is about trying to constantly disprove a theory. Anything that disproves the theory that I should kill myself can only be good for me.

I love this. I am totally going to chew on this thought for a while. Very wise insight.

After awhile suicidal thinking becomes a crutch, you use it to excuse your your inadequacies and it creates a vicious cycle. There is a part of me that will look at this post and think it is horrible and think that there are a thousand people on the Star Trek BBS who write better than I do and since I'll never be as good as them that makes me worthless. But like most of the things I think about myself I am probably wrong.

Yes, you are wrong. You are priceless and very wise because of your experience.




Jason, hang on, or as they say around here (NC), "Keep on keepin' on." You'll make it...as RJDiogenes stated, you are not weak. Take it one day at a time.

 

[Jayson]

I feel better today. I met my old best friend and we hung out. Were going to do it more. Granted I don't do happy that well. Everytime I feel happy I start thinking about everything wrong with me. It's like I feel guilty when I am happy and feel the need to sabatoge it. It can be a challenge to feel happy when you still feel your life is incomplete or you don't deserve those emotions. Does anyone here have a ideal version of how you want your life to be and then get deppressed when reality doesn't match it?

Jason

 

[pookha]

go and find something you really care about.
then consider doing volunteer work for it.
you might not find love but there will be a lot of people who appreciate what you do and who you are.

 

[The Boy Who Cried Worf]

I feel better today. I met my old best friend and we hung out. Were going to do it more. Granted I don't do happy that well. Everytime I feel happy I start thinking about everything wrong with me. It's like I feel guilty when I am happy and feel the need to sabatoge it. It can be a challenge to feel happy when you still feel your life is incomplete or you don't deserve those emotions. Does anyone here have a ideal version of how you want your life to be and then get deppressed when reality doesn't match it?

Jason

That's funny I once had a therapist tell me it seems like every time I have a good experience I make myself feel bad afterwards like I am punishing myself for feeling good. I have had very specific images of what my life should be for the last 25 years. I always think unless those images come true I'll never be happy and I should kill myself. Funny thing though is the specifics of those images change every few years