Your loneliest moments

[Amaris]

I think, if I had to pick one that is recent, it would have to be when Dallie had to be put to sleep. When I came home later that night after visiting Mom in the hospital, and her bed was there, her food bowls were there, and it was just empty and so very quiet.

 

[BolianAuthor]

Right now would be a good one for me.

 

[Tora Ziyal]

^I'm sure it is. I just responded to your marriage thread.

 

[Yeoman Randi]

I think, if I had to pick one that is recent, it would have to be when Dallie had to be put to sleep. When I came home later that night after visiting Mom in the hospital, and her bed was there, her food bowls were there, and it was just empty and so very quiet.

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Whenever i go into a really bad depression, those are my lonliest times for sure. They are so horrible i wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy.

 

[Amaris]

I think, if I had to pick one that is recent, it would have to be when Dallie had to be put to sleep. When I came home later that night after visiting Mom in the hospital, and her bed was there, her food bowls were there, and it was just empty and so very quiet.

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Whenever i go into a really bad depression, those are my lonliest times for sure. They are so horrible i wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy.

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Last night I had a dream about her again. This time, it was all just a big mistake, and she was still alive, and I ran over to her and for a brief moment I felt her warm, fuzzy face on mine and then I woke up, and felt so alone.

 

[kirsten187]

All of the time. I frequently feel long bouts of achingly deep loneliness.

I'm the same. I feel lonely a lot and also a bit depressed sometimes.

 

[Yeoman Randi]

I think, if I had to pick one that is recent, it would have to be when Dallie had to be put to sleep. When I came home later that night after visiting Mom in the hospital, and her bed was there, her food bowls were there, and it was just empty and so very quiet.

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Whenever i go into a really bad depression, those are my lonliest times for sure. They are so horrible i wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy.

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Last night I had a dream about her again. This time, it was all just a big mistake, and she was still alive, and I ran over to her and for a brief moment I felt her warm, fuzzy face on mine and then I woke up, and felt so alone.

Awwwww, i've had those dreams too, about my past dawgs and also about my Dad. Waking up from those are the worst. It all seems so real and you're so happy (and you never question why the mistake happened to begin with), and then when you wake up and the reality hits, it is just devastating. I'm sorry sweetie. I've got a big goopy tear in my eye right now.

 

[Amaris]

All of the time. I frequently feel long bouts of achingly deep loneliness.

I'm the same. I feel lonely a lot and also a bit depressed sometimes.

Do you listen to any upbeat and positive music? I would recommend it if you don't. I'm a positivity sponge. I can absorb positivity from just about anything, and I swear, with my life history, I can say with absolute certainty that if I couldn't, I would have never made it to this point. My sparkling and radiant optimism has dulled and waned over the years, but I can still make myself upbeat, despite the loneliness and pain that seems to attack on a near constant basis.

I empathize with you. If I could give you a hug I would. I like to give out hugs. Hugs can make a bad day good. Everybody needs a little love every day.

Awwwww, i've had those dreams too, about my past dawgs and also about my Dad. Waking up from those are the worst. It all seems so real and you're so happy (and you never question why the mistake happened to begin with), and then when you wake up and the reality hits, it is just devastating. I'm sorry sweetie. I've got a big goopy tear in my eye right now.

Oh, now you've got me going. You have my deepest sympathies, too. I swear, if we ever get to meet up, you're getting the biggest, squishiest hug I can give you.

 

[TheBrew]

Not as long as I have my right hand.

Seriously, the only time I felt lonely was when I was hiding so many things from so many people that I was keeping all of this stuff in and I felt isolated because I couldn't share anything.

 

[Finn]

The ten minutes I couldn't find my fiancee at the supermarket. It was a small one, and I kept walking back and forth checking each aisle. I somehow missed her for a while.

 

[An Officer]

^ I hate that, especially when I've left my mobile at home!

 

[RoJoHen]

All of the time. I frequently feel long bouts of achingly deep loneliness.

I'm the same. I feel lonely a lot and also a bit depressed sometimes.

You know, I used to feel this way all the time, and I'm not really sure what changed, but I am almost never depressed anymore. If I knew what I did to fix it I would tell you!

 

[Bears Discover Fire]

Late February to Mid-April 2009.

Long story short, I was assaulted in my apartment building and lost my roof over my head, I was in a cast with broken bones, got kicked out of my mom's house (where I was working and contributing to expenses) by her abusive boyfriend while I was recovering from my assault, almost lost my job and my health insurance, I was commuting 6 hours a day round trip, I found an apartment then lost it 9 days later to landlord negligence and slept in my car a few times because I had no where to go.

In the meantime, I could not find a lawyer willing to help me, the court system slapped my attacker on the wrist when they dropped the felony relating to my assault, disregarded the Victim's Bill of Rights and decided to ignore me when they could and dick with me when they couldn't, the landlords where the assault took place said I deserved what happened to me for being stupid, and refused to evict my attacker (guess which one of us paid more rent?), an employee at work threw me under the bus, and my mother put down my dog and married the abusive boyfriend without telling me for two weeks.

I felt beyond lonely, I felt absolutely abandoned to a malicious world I did not recognize. Those 2 months were a 60 day flirt with suicide.

 

[Holdfast]

[yt]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3e9rc1PueI[/yt]

That is fucking genius.






OT, I don't really know; I'm happy with my own company so don't often feel lonely...

I guess there was a momentary "WTF now?" moment on the first day at university after my parents left, but there was a meet-and-greet event (with blue, green, and red alcohol to enjoy) an hour later, so in between unpacking, getting ready for that and basically finding my way around, I didn't really have time to think much about it.

I should add that I would distinguish feeling lonely (as in wanting human company) from strongly feeling that you want something in particular to be different (and just happening to be alone at the time of feeling that). The latter is obviously something one may experience more frequently (I can think of a small handful of occasions of the latter, though thankfully not for a while).

 

[Itisnotlogical]

The night of the day my first girlfriend broke up with me. I was about to go to sleep, had forgotten completely about it in my tiredness and then it occurred to me that holding her hand on the way to school and kissing her when we went our separate ways for our classes would be impossible tomorrow morning. It was a long time ago but it's still very deep down there among my low moments.

 

[Jonas Grumby]

Sitting in a crowded bar at one o'clock in the morning knowing no one and in just too much of a funk to even try to start up a conversation with anyone.

I don't do that anymore, though.

 

[Listener4]

Feel very lonely at some point almost everyday. It does pass after a while, but the feeling always comes back.

 

[Tora Ziyal]

Late February to Mid-April 2009.

Long story short, I was assaulted in my apartment building and lost my roof over my head, I was in a cast with broken bones, got kicked out of my mom's house (where I was working and contributing to expenses) by her abusive boyfriend while I was recovering from my assault, almost lost my job and my health insurance, I was commuting 6 hours a day round trip, I found an apartment then lost it 9 days later to landlord negligence and slept in my car a few times because I had no where to go.

In the meantime, I could not find a lawyer willing to help me, the court system slapped my attacker on the wrist when they dropped the felony relating to my assault, disregarded the Victim's Bill of Rights and decided to ignore me when they could and dick with me when they couldn't, the landlords where the assault took place said I deserved what happened to me for being stupid, and refused to evict my attacker (guess which one of us paid more rent?), an employee at work threw me under the bus, and my mother put down my dog and married the abusive boyfriend without telling me for two weeks.

I felt beyond lonely, I felt absolutely abandoned to a malicious world I did not recognize. Those 2 months were a 60 day flirt with suicide.

I'm speechless. Sending you a hug that is magically retroactive about two years.

 

[TEACAKE'S PLEATHER DOME]

The last couple years of my marriage. In my experience, it's far worse to feel lonely when you're with someone than to feel lonely alone.

Oh that is totally true!! You have less options too for getting out of the loneliness. I was often lonely after I got divorced since I had only one friend who was very self absorbed but all I had to do was to think on how lonely it was being married to be quite cheered.

However the loneliest time of my life is still huge swathes of my childhood. I always think how great the internet is for kids growing up intensely lonely like me, always somewhere to talk and connect that takes you outside of your life circumstances (which you can't do yourself IRL, being a kid). I would have LOVED the internet.

 

[Mr. Laser Beam]

My loneliest moments are the same as my being-awake moments.