I have been mostly unemployed for almost two years. The only thing that has been keeping me going was my girlfriend and the fact that the Federal government has been extending unemployment benefits. Today I learned that because I worked for two moths earlier in the year I am no longer eligible for the federal extension and have a new claim. The upshot is the amount of money I receive has been reduced by 2/3. In other words not remotely enough to live.
Things were supposed to be looking up. I just started a six month program training to be a pharmacy technician. It wasn't a dream come true, but I thought finally I'd have a skill in life so I wouldn't be at the mercy of the economy. I was hoping one more extension would be enough to get me through than I would be in a better position to look for work. Now I don't know what the future holds.
I know deep down it is just my negative thinking, but it always seems like my life works out this way. Nothing ever goes terribly wrong, but just always enough to make life more difficult than it needs to be. Every time I think I am in a good place something comes out of left-field. I don't like the world we live in. I am not suited for it, never have, and I am always afraid I never will be. Things will probably work out, they always do, but I just get so tired some times.
Things were supposed to be looking up. I just started a six month program training to be a pharmacy technician. It wasn't a dream come true, but I thought finally I'd have a skill in life so I wouldn't be at the mercy of the economy. I was hoping one more extension would be enough to get me through than I would be in a better position to look for work. Now I don't know what the future holds.
I know deep down it is just my negative thinking, but it always seems like my life works out this way. Nothing ever goes terribly wrong, but just always enough to make life more difficult than it needs to be. Every time I think I am in a good place something comes out of left-field. I don't like the world we live in. I am not suited for it, never have, and I am always afraid I never will be. Things will probably work out, they always do, but I just get so tired some times.
