Hey guys, havent really posted here in months, but seeing as though this was a milestone occasion and im approaching my 10 year anniversary on the Trekbbs, I thought this was worthy of my return to BBS land.
Yesterday I came out as an out and proud gay man. No more hiding behind straight/bisexual fences. No more hiding in general. I did it, finally came out at the ripe old age of 25. After 10 years of putting up a fascade, the stress and energy involved finally became too much to the point where days would go by and no sleep would be had due to stress it caused me.
Caught up with my best mate, who is straight, and told him that i needed to talk to him about something. After what seemed like hours of procastinating and beating around the bush with inane small talk, he finally spoke up and asked me what i wanted to talk to him about. Realising that I couldnt do it with his family around he suggested that we go for a walk.
Wrecked with nerves and beyond worried about what his reaction would be seeing as though not only is he my best friend he is also a seriously cocky straight guy with girlfriends chasing after him, my emotions got the better of me I ended up throwing up from the stress. He sat me down and told me that he had a pretty good idea what I was about to tell him, he just told me to say those two words. After a biiiiiiggggg breath I told him 'im gay'
He was so supportive, asking me questions, telling me that he nows feel closer and our friendship stronger because I was being honest and that nothing would ever change. At that point I started bawling like a little girl. He came up and hugged me for a good 10 minutes. Then told me to 'man up and stop being a pussy'.
Hes already started with the gentle gay jokes, but hes been so incredibly awesome and i feel so relieved to have finally told someone. A massive weight feels like it has just been magically removed. It wasnt an easy experience, and I am fortunate to have such a fantastic friend, but the reward was well worth it.
Anywho. Back to you normal reading.
Yesterday I came out as an out and proud gay man. No more hiding behind straight/bisexual fences. No more hiding in general. I did it, finally came out at the ripe old age of 25. After 10 years of putting up a fascade, the stress and energy involved finally became too much to the point where days would go by and no sleep would be had due to stress it caused me.
Caught up with my best mate, who is straight, and told him that i needed to talk to him about something. After what seemed like hours of procastinating and beating around the bush with inane small talk, he finally spoke up and asked me what i wanted to talk to him about. Realising that I couldnt do it with his family around he suggested that we go for a walk.
Wrecked with nerves and beyond worried about what his reaction would be seeing as though not only is he my best friend he is also a seriously cocky straight guy with girlfriends chasing after him, my emotions got the better of me I ended up throwing up from the stress. He sat me down and told me that he had a pretty good idea what I was about to tell him, he just told me to say those two words. After a biiiiiiggggg breath I told him 'im gay'
He was so supportive, asking me questions, telling me that he nows feel closer and our friendship stronger because I was being honest and that nothing would ever change. At that point I started bawling like a little girl. He came up and hugged me for a good 10 minutes. Then told me to 'man up and stop being a pussy'.
Hes already started with the gentle gay jokes, but hes been so incredibly awesome and i feel so relieved to have finally told someone. A massive weight feels like it has just been magically removed. It wasnt an easy experience, and I am fortunate to have such a fantastic friend, but the reward was well worth it.
Anywho. Back to you normal reading.