Yeah, some people simply are awesome. It's not really something we strive for. Although maybe the purpose isn't being awesome; perhaps the purpose is recognizing that you're awesome.
I do have friends and kinda have a social life, it's more a case of I'd rather not. What I mean is, I consider them all a little immature and even when I'm out with them I tend to feel like I'd rather not be ha. Yeh I'm sure that sounds strange but that's the reality of it.
It must be, if an expert psychiatrist like you can diagnose it based on a few sentences from someone you've never met! Lord, I hope no one ever takes you seriously.
You may have dysthymia which is a low grade and persistent depression that makes it difficult to feel really happy or joyful or satisfied with things. It doesn't always get medical attention because it doesn't tend to bring about major crisis. Many people feel like something is missing or they are not connecting the way others do, but as they are able to plod along they can be at a loss as to what, if anything, is wrong. As to life purpose, I have over the years come to the conclusion I have two life purposes. 1. Relationships. Give to the relationships I have in a positive way, particularly family. This sounds trite, but when it's a focus it effects everything in your life. Relationships are something you can build on and nurture and have a real and positive effect on that outlasts money and careers and health and all manner of things. 2 Sheer enjoyment of everything around me. I have I think a higher than normal capacity to find all manner of things beautiful and wonderful and I mean to pay attention to everything, everything! And enjoy myself. I'm an observer at heart (rather than a participator) and I just plain adore, well.. the world. I don't think I have ever walked down my street without reveling in it.
I think the problem could be I need someone to share things with, perhaps if I have someone special to share things with I'd find more enjoyment in them. I'm usually at my happiest when I'm helping someone or making someone happy, maybe I need to have someone in my life who I can make happy on a more permanent basis? :-/
In life, you make your own purpose. Mine is to be positive and to experience everything that I can in life.
ID: having someone to share stuff, life, with is really important. That said, right now I wish I was alone. But I digress. My life purpose: to tell stories. That's it. Nearly there.
Have you tried relentless internet complaining re every conceivable topic that comes to mind? This seems to have given many American gentlemen a sense of purpose.
Heh. I'm actually enjoying being alone right now. As to your life purpose, nicely said. My life purpose: I grow things, I make things, I teach others to do the same.