, don't feel foolish for having feelings. Your feelings are legitimate, both the good ones and the bad ones. I was in the same predicament once, stuck in a dismal family situation. Fortunately, I was able to move out when I was 21, but my teenage years were troublesome indeed. What I know from that experience is that they can't get inside your head unless you let them. That is your sanctum sanctorum. Your freedom is always with you in your thoughts and dreams until you can make it real.