I appreciate everyone's kind words and your opinions. Yeah I need to get away from my family. I talked to someone a few years back and they said I was fine and I just need to be easy on myself and not worry too much about things I can't control. I do enjoy walking, so I might try to do that on the regular. I feel foolish now, don't know why I was so down...it has been a long time since I felt that bad and something happened I don't want to discuss but it hit me harder than I thought it would. Thanks again for your time and insight.