The first film I saw during the separation was Animal House
when some friends dragged me to it, and it was the first time I'd laughed in weeks. I should have been content with that. But after it was final, I went alone to see Burt Reynolds' Starting Over
, which was a big mistake because I was still hurting. I had a few relationships afterwards, but none developed into anything. The last one was in 1998. I have no car, no money, am mostly homebound, can never work again due to health problems, and there's nothing I can provide for anyone.