Data, those sound like signs of clinical depression. Seek help, my friend.
Now that I am older and a widower, I'd give anything to do more than sit home on my birthday. The most I get are long distance calls from kids and grandkids. Enjoy those "annoying" interruptions while you can.
Next December 14, I am making plans to volunteer at the homeless shelter and meal kitchen. It will be a good way to give back to others in need and make my birthday special again. Hopefully, my health will be improved enough to do it.
“When all Americans are treated as equal, no matter who they are or whom they love, we are all more free.” -Pres. Obama
"A great democracy does not make it harder to vote than to buy an assault weapon." -Pres. Clinton