Its a democracy, you are certainly free to make any comment you like as am I free to challenge you on what you have said here.
My main point is that you keep flip flopping your decisions, perhaps because you constantly see the grass as greener on the other side.
You said our TrekBBS fleet was too small, too inactive and grew too slowly so you left for a big fleet. Now you're essentially saying a big fleet is too stressful and wish you are back in a smaller fleet. That's one flip flop.
You also swore you're never coming back to this thread again and yet here you are trying to recruit people into your big fleet and asking for advice on what to do. Another flip flop.
And you do not seem to realize that every time you do a flip you piss people off. You have already pissed off many people here with your past actions. I am simply warning you that leaving your big fleet is bound to piss off a lot of people in your big fleet.