That's the problem. I know I need a project. I just don't know what to do. I have the motivation; I just can't decide where to put it.
Well, there's one idea - write. A novel, an amusing autobiography, a history of the bar where you work, whatever works for you.
My grandfather loves to garden. He spends hours on it. Maybe you could take up gardening.
PS: Sorry if I'm not being particularly helpful here. These are serious ideas, but reading over the post it might look a bit flippant; it's not meant to be.