It all messed me up pretty badly and I never established a real career, just hopped around from job to job, and never finished college. Sometimes Dad shows up in dreams. I really wish I'd had the benefit of his advice as an adult, like my siblings.
I did finish college and didn't get "real" career going either. Just jobs.
And that thing about parents showing up in your dreams, I still have that too, even after 30 years. And for you it's over 40 years. It must be a lifelong thing.